i canot bear it , how can i have the heart to let him see the disgisting you. joy don't joke with me,adward voice interupted me .i am angry with myself why i fell in love with adward, i am even more angry at Killing my on child with my own hand. my body is shaking , my legs are shaking i stare at adward ,. i really want to take out this man heart to see if it is Black. joy you,?adward face became suddnely nervoues and Élisabeth face was pale. and my brian was dizzy, and in front of me was those beautiful mémoires with adward. we ate insts noddles together rented a house together, and did the most intimate things between lovers,i loved him and he loved me. but that man is no longer mine. he fell in love with someone else. Élisabeth is so beatiful and her family background is so good.compared with me, it is heaven and hell, how could adward give up on Élisabeth and be with a women like me.