It's evening. The weather is also good. Children are playing in the park nearby. I think I should take out a minute to see them, the smiles on their pretty faces are invaluable. They are so lovely. I think I can watch them playing forever. They are just too cute and pure souls.
They remind me of my childhood days. I used to play like them as well. Well not entirely true.
This soul comes empty. It's filled with love and happiness later by our loved ones. It can only be touched by those who love you and care for you.
But when you fall in love with someone it gets connected to that person's soul. Then you both share the same happiness, sorrow, fear, anger, satisfaction, anxiety, pride and guilt.
This lovely breeze is so calm that I want to go with its flow. It is giving me a brief respite like you use to give me. I can't wait to meet you.
Isn't it the anniversary tomorrow. I think I should gift him something really nice this time, should I gift him a child but will he be able to handle the happiness. hahaha, It will be too much for him.
Should I gift him a ring? No, we already have rings.
A bouquet? A perfume? No, they are too much outdated.
What about a nice dinner together?
But it won't be that much memorable.
How about spending some time with him. He probably would be busy with his family and friends tomorrow. So I think.... .... I think I should spend one whole night with him. We will look at the stars together. And eat our favourite foods we will talk to each other the whole night. I don't know but he has to give me that time. There are always so many people around him always, I rarely get a chance to be with him.
Ohh, everyone's going back. I think it's the time, I should also go to meet him.
It's been so long since I fell in love with him.
04-04-1996
It's the second last year of school. I am in a new class now.
I don't have my own family. I live with a foster family. They provide me with everything that I need. But don't get any wrong idea about them. They are not that much good.
They are making me do the household chores since I was 7. They scold me even for something that I haven't done. All I do the whole day is follow their orders. It's just like a lifeless body. To spend life and to live life are two extremely different things.
I am in neither category. I don't even know the meaning of life.
I am just like an obedient servant who would do anything for her master.
I have never had any friends in my entire life. I didn't liked my foster family since I was little.
At first, I thought they were only teaching me how to do stuff because they cared for me. But sometime later I came to know that they were just using me. I don't hate them either. Now I am a grown-up, I don't care about it anymore. But still, I am lifeless.
"You lazy dumbass how much time are you gonna take to get up. You have to go to school. And before that, you have to complete the work. You freeloader " a sharp voice pierced through my ears as I was having a sound conversation with myself.
"Coming"
Now I have to go down and do all the work. I had to clean, cook and do some other chores as well.
I have to get ready as well for school.
I love to study. I am really into it. Because the only friends I have got are books. No one becomes my friend other than them. It's not like I am always studying. I study very little at home. I even complete my whole homework in school in between breaks or free lectures.
I love to study in the library. I have no one to share my problems with. I think I would become depressed. But that's not true. Whenever I see students playing at school or I do gardening all of my stress go away.
I have to prepare breakfast first. I started preparation for breakfast, my favourite part is when I use a chopping board. It's like cutting my haters. Hehehe just kidding.
I might be all lonely and unfriendly but I never even think like this.
But at the same time, I am covered all over in the darkness.
I have no light in my life. And neither can any light save me. I am just Like a black hole even the light that will come to save me will get covered in darkness.
Well, the breakfast is ready. Now I need to clean the house. Then I have to wash the clothes and do some other things. After one and a half hours I have to wake up Jiro as well.
Ohh I haven't yet told you about Jiro. He is their real son. Who's the same age as me.
I completed the whole work. Now I had to get ready.
I have got ready now. All I need to do now is wake Jiro.
I am Sanah. A second-year high school student 16 years old. Yeah, it's my sweet sixteen but nothing's sweet about this 16. Actually, I am not complete 16 yet I will be 16 this June. It's April the starting of a new session.
I woke him up, got his bag and dress ready. Now all left's for the prince to do is put his dress on.
Well whatever, I have done everything I could.
Now not any work is left.
"I am leaving "
Well, I know nobody cares until they have any work.
It takes quite a time to reach school.
There's one place where I stop by for about twenty minutes and then head towards school.
I am about to reach there.
It's here. The water stream I love to watch. The plants on its bed look very beautiful. They have a smooth texture and are long and move along the flow of water.
There are a lot of trees as well. There's also a shortcut to school but I prefer this path. I found this place when I was nine. I love to spend time here. The freshness in the air of this place can't be even compared with rest of the Tokyo. There are birds, butterflies and squirrels.
I can spend my whole day here. I will come here back while returning from school.....
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