Sometimes it was difficult to understand what he was saying because he didn't stop crying from the pain that his hand was giving him, but I still got some information, although little about what this bracelet is for.
To summarize, Spencer has informed all the employees of the mansion that a Rapha lives here and there will be no need to worry and that their life should continue as usual, because the young lady has solved this problem.
According to him, this bracelet contains a kind of restricted magic that does not allow me to use my powers as long as I have it on, and only the person who put it, can also remove it.
So it can be said that I can't remove the bracelet from my hand and whatever I do and can't use my skills as I desire, so if Nasya hasn't given an order I can not do anything.
It was the first time I heard that I had this power and not that I needed it anyway.
But a while ago I felt I could use them and also had control over them for a few moments, at first everything was dark and I could not reason the only thing I felt was the rage and anger that wanted to get out of control but I calmed myself on time, unlike other times that I didn't know what had happened and I was used by my own abilities.
So for what is this object needed if I can still use them even for a short time? Maybe I don't know how much power I have and the magic to stop all of it is weak or this object is not as effective as it is said.
I was so focused on what happened now that I forgot why I had come here from the beginning. Now I could not continue with the work I had started to clean the garden because in front of me was a 'pool of blood'.
It would be better to leave before someone else comes and looks at all this mess, I don't want to face other people today. That too was tedious.
I was entering the mansion. With every step I took, I felt a great pain in my heart, and the sound of footsteps echoing in the giant corridor created a dark atmosphere around me as if I was empty inside and I am continuing on my way as if nothing had happened.
My clothes were dirty from the mud and my right hand was covered in blood. It reminds me of the day I first came to this world, even then I had gotten out of control and killed a man and I got covered in blood like now.
That person, he really lost a lot of blood, I think he will not be able to live for long, that makes him one of my victims.
Something like that reminds me… something, something similar has happened before.
'Of course, only a Rapha would do such a thing. Only they can kill someone and behave as if nothing happened, your thirst for blood is endless.'
Aaack it hurts, huff… huff, m ... my head it starts hurting. Crying, pain, and fear roar through a dark and dirty room! Children are crying everywhere.
"Why now?! Make them stop!"
'Th..the man who brought us here was l... lying in the middle of the room, sob… sob there was blood everywhere. '
Enough, it hurts! Every word is like a knife in the heart!
'Rapha will attack anyone who is in their way just to see the blood flowing from their bodies.'
Enough please! Make them stop!
'What are we going to do, we are going to die here, we are going to die kyaa'
PLEASE! What is all this pain, why now of all times? With so much pain it seems as if I will lose consciousness at any moment!
'They are my creatures. I gave them life.'
Huh?! This voice?! I heard this voice before.
'If someone kills them even if he is one of my children, I will not forgive him and I don't care about their reasons. Life is important to everyone and you are taking it. So I will never forgive what you did Rapha, NEVER! '
"Aaack!!!"
I can't anymore, it feels like electroshock and electricity is burning me all, my mind is blank and my body is shaking like crazy. I can't take this!
"[Eternia enough!]"
Huff ... huff haaah
It stopped?! The pain I felt before is no longer here. Like panic attack. I remember that this is how Rapha felt in my dreams when that person named Eternia attacked her, throwing her into the abyss.
The cries of the children seemed alternating, they were scared, but I could feel their pain with every scream. The same pain as a knife pierce the body gradually in the same place, and the person holding it is taking his sweet-sweet time.
Sorry! I am so sorry! Would it have been better for everyone if I had not been born? Would everyone be happier? I am a killer, everyone is right that they are afraid of me and treat me like a monster, but I didn't believe them until now. Now I know that everything is true and I like to look at people who are in pain and drowned in their blood.
I am a monster. Someone like me shouldn't live, what is the reason?
Sitting on my knees and with my head almost touching the ground in the middle of a long corridor without anyone, it seemed as if I was really waiting for someone to judge me in those moments but no one came, no one can take this chance and free me from this heavy thing that weighs on my soul.
If I give up now everything is in vain, I had the opportunity before to end it then and there. What I have done I will pay it by keeping these memories always with me to torture me and to make me pay the price I deserve in eternity. I don't want to avoid this saying that it is the fault of my appearance that people are afraid of me, because I am the one who killed those two people, no one else. I was the one in control all the time.
I got up from where I was and continued walking towards the end of the corridor, after opening that door I would go through another shorter corridor that leads directly to my room and Nasya's, if I was fast enough I would not meet anyone.
Suddenly a thought crossed my mind before I opened the hallway door.
"What if someone sees me, what should I say if I met them on the way to the room?"
Nasya must be calm for now that nothing has happened since she put this magic object in my wrist, but when she finds out that one of the stable workers is missing a hand or is dead, what will she do?
What will Annie and Amira say when they see me enter the room? They will be scared to death and will alarm all the mansion that I have killed a man, then they will definitely give me a death sentence.
"..."
Haha, how pathetic I have become, why now I have to bother myself with the thoughts that others have of me, when before I was not even interested. Nasya should have taken this into account before she let me into her house. If they want to sentence me to death then let them do it, I will find a way out anyway.
"Let's see what happens after everyone sees what I did. They will look at me with terror or they will keep quiet as if nothing happened, it doesn't matter to me anymore."
As long as they know that this object can't stop me I'll be just fine.