Raphael was someone I trusted someone who made me feel complete we were so close bested of friends even with his criminal background I never feared him he never gave me a reason to accept all his flaws at the young age of thirteen I accept the role to be his Donna I wasn't naïve or anything I knew what I wanted on my thirteen birthday he asked me to be his girlfriend which I said yes he never once forced or pressured me into doing anything we were never intimate with each other he wanted to wait until my eighteen birthday nor did he force me to rule by his side.
We both shared the same distinctive tattoo mine on my shoulder his on his chest couple months after my birthday he asked me to move in with him, you could say I was elated but like the fool I was waiting for him to come get me he never came days turn to months years until my fifteen birthday I gave up I forced myself to forget about him completely and now when I think about him all I can remember is a blank face stick to the name.
He taught me everything I needed to know about self-defense how to fight use clean and fit up guns, knives daggers.
We were once friends then we became lovers and now he's nothing more than my past what hurts more is the fact that you hate him knowing you should but at the same time you don't even know what hurts more I don't know if I ever see him again I'd probably shoot him on the spot or run him over with a car whichever comes first or maybe in that order or maybe both who knows.
It's funny how one person can make you never trust again the way you pour out your trust only to be left with mixed emotions and space in your heart where that person once occupied.
There's only one happiness in the world to loved and be loved and of course he took them both with him when he left without a second thought without a reason without an explanation he just left like I meant nothing to him.
Opening myself letting Gio in was once again my downfall the problem with me is that I care too bloody much to wear my heart on my sleeve in the end they'll just leave just like my dad then Raphael leaves without saying goodbye and now Gio.
Reaching my apartment looking around people walking around which was weird normally the only people I'd see would be the guys selling drugs or prostitutes but now four men idling or being occupied by the ladies if you know what I mean ignoring them like any other night walking up the stairs.
"Hey sunshine" Nico called out as he sits up straight "hey" I reply "what's wrong" he asked his smile dropped as he observed my sad helpless pathetic face "it's nothing am just not feeling well I'll see you tomorrow" I whisper just enough for him to hear he was gonna say something but I walked away closing the door sliding down on the ground pulling my knees to my chest and just let the tears run freely.
I hate myself for getting attached to someone why do I always have to be the one that always gets hurt every time I get close to anyone they'll just leave because of my issues I tend to stay isolated from everyone around me that all changed when Kelsey started coming to school.
The more I pushed her away it's like a game to her insisting on being my friend I guess she's the only best thing that happened to me after Raphael.
Giovanni POV
As night fell the blue haze of day lifted to reveal the stars as they twinkle the silvery moon at its high peak feeling the wind blow my hair hands resting on the railing standing on the balcony just looking out it was after two and there was no sleep to the eyes.
I never took notice of the stars or moon until I found out how fascinating they were to her and now I still watch the stars I've gotten used to doing with her laying on the patio chair smuggling under the blanket and we'd just watch the stars who would think something so simple would be so magical.
"You've been standing out here for hours you're starting to creep me out" Alessandro's voice breaking through the silence of the night hearing his footsteps coming closer, "I thought you said you had your anger under control" he said handing me a glass of scotch "I do" I said taking the glass gulping it down loving the way it leaves a trace of heat down my throat damn I needed that.
"Dismantling his wife's head in front of him clearly says otherwise I thought I gave the guards strict orders to keep you out of the cell" he exclaimed "the fucker had it coming" I said carelessly "and I'm the boss they do as I say if they value their lives" I told him.
"Your mom knows you're the one responsible for killing the thirty gang members" he informed "that's a lie she's only exaggerating I've only killed twenty –oh yeah, I forgot the ten I have down in the basement and that reminds me they're starting to sink order the cleaners to get rid of the bodies" I mentioned.
Alex shook his head "she's scared you're slipping back into the old Raphael D'Errico barbaric savage merciless evil-minded cold-hearted" Alessandro listed all my specialties of how quickly I can change from a ten to a hundred all levels of crazy "don't you have anything better to do like interrogate the prisoner" I said flatly going back to getting lost in the stars.
"I would if someone didn't cut his tongue out and toss it across the room and torture the shit out of him" Alessandro snap I could feel him throwing daggers in the side of my head "I couldn't even classify that as torture I barely even touch the bastard," I told him defending myself.
"Paring off his skin ripping out his nails and teeth I even accidentally squashed one of his eyes when I walked in if that wasn't enough you poured acid down his throat now define torture" he questioned that moment when someone tells you about how horrible you are but all you do is end up feeling impressed about how creative you are.
Looking over at him with a malicious smile reliving the marvelous event that happened hours ago the way he pleaded for his pathetic life "I know all this doing is because of Alesha but you can't be going around killing everyone just to find out who's behind the person playing mind games the way I see things to them she's just a friend if they knew just important she is don't you think they'll use her already instead of sending a bunch of pictures" he reasoned.
"What if they're just waiting for the right time to strike when I least expect it whether or not they know who Alesha is to me it won't matter they'll still use her and I can't just stand by and do nothing damn I have enemies all over and finding out who's behind this is like searching for a needle in a bloody haystack their hatred for me is so deep it's hard to find the origin" I replied letting out a sigh running my hand down my face.
"You have no idea how I hate myself every time I have to watch her crying herself to sleep knowing am the reason behind it and I can't even hold her or tell her am only doing this for her safety," I said miserably just feeling the pain in my chest seeing how broken she is nothing hurts more when she's the last person I'd want to hurt nor hate me.
The emptiness is always there I consider myself good at hiding it, masking putting up a front a cold exterior but forget my friends know me well.
"At the same time, you can't let your emotions get the best of you you'll only put more target on her back making them second guess their selves in why would you kill so many over some girl" Alessandro explain nodding knowing he's right "and besides you know cougar won't let any harm come to her" he finished while patting my shoulder.
"You know if he was here he'd be fuming," I said laughing "the scene was perfect I still have the video of Nickolas and the old lady assaulting his mouth" Alessandro said chuckling.
We sat down just talking about random stuff drinking neither of us feeling the need to sleep Matteo joined us lounging on the balcony straight up till the early morning they tried taking my mind away from Alesha but even doing so no matter how hard I made an effort a part of me want to see her yearn and crave to be closer to her just to feel her warm body against mine but knowing deep down that would never be the case.
It's funny how you never knew just how important someone is until gravity steps in and decided to pull you apart.
"Are you just going to lie there all day? You do remember that we're leaving today right?" Matteo asked me looking up to see him leaning on the door frame giving me a puzzled look as if he was unsure if am gonna slip into the deep depression to give him the ok to drag my parents especially my mom to keep a close eye on me so I don't do anything stupid.
After things got a little out of hand with Alesha's photos circulating everyone starts keeping a tap on me in case I went over the deep ends of no returns bad enough I was already back to my old dangerous habits of killing without a reason loving the scent of the richness of blood the way they coat my hands the sounds of their pleads echoed in my ear only driven me to go the extreme it's like an energy booster.
Dad had ordered me to come back home because the distractions were taking a toll on me and I needed to keep focus if I wanted to kill those scrumbags maybe one week break in Italy is all I need.
Alesha POV
I was in the middle of watching the reruns of the vampire diaries when my phone started ringing lazily reaching for my phone "what" I grumble not even bother looking at the caller ID stuffing my face with butter popcorn.
"Hello to you too," the voice said it was deep scrunching my eyes confused pulling the phone away to see who was calling the number was private "hmm...sorry wrong number" I told the person while sucking off the butter off my fingers.
The man laughed "I highly doubt that Alesha" after the unfamiliar voice uttered my name causing me to sit up straight "who is this and how did you know my name and number" I questioned I was on high alert again he chuckled which was scary and send chills, not in a good way.
"So many questions but in due time all will be answered sleep tight don't make the bed bugs bite" he said sickening as he continues "I'm looking forward to seeing you my sweet Alesha" he finished "I don't know what kind of sick joke your playing but don't ever call back my phone" I warned only resulting in his heavy laugh over the phone "feisty I like it, I like girls who have a mouth on them only making me even more interesting than the first time I've met you" he professed.
He was gonna say something when I hang up tossing the phone on the bed my mind was cloudy with the thought of who that psycho was, "first time" I whispered his words searching my brain for answers or face to the voice only coming up empty-handed I've come across many perverts while working who tried forcing themselves on me but the feeling still lingers who and how did he get my number.
Morning came fast as I lazily drag myself to the bathroom letting out a loud yawn while rubbing my eyes I always hated waking up early my philosophy is to eat sleep eat again sleep and just be merry.
Looking at my reflection I looked terrible my hair was a mess because I fell asleep without trying it removing my tank top and underwear since that was all I slept in stepping in the shower letting the water run down showering doing my morning routine dried getting dressed in a high waist blue tilt jean with black short sleeve crop top sliding on my black vans.
Starting with my slightly curly hair added some hair products such as treatments and a little jell to emphasize my curls doing a half up double bun that was quickly doing the usual makeup pulling on my necklace grab my stuff and walked downstairs taking out a box of lucky charms pouring it in a bowl adding chocolate milk and start eating my phone started ringing uneasy when I recalled the call I had, I pulled it out of my pocket seeing Kelsey's face and my mind relaxed.
"Sup," I said with a mouthful "am close by soon pull up so get your ass down before I start blowing the horn," she said rolling my eyes turning the bowl to my head carefully trying not to get messed up.
"Is Nico there by any chance" Kelsey questioned, "why you wanna know" I inquired hearing her sighing "hmm nothing just curious that's all" Kelsey said raising a brow even though she can't see me "Kelsey" I called her name sternly knowing she's hiding something.
"You know I'll only keep bugging you until you tell me" I told her "ok I may or may not have a tiny weeny crush on him" I started coughing when the milk went the wrong way causing her to stop talking "you're joking right" I shouted after reviving myself.
"I know I just can't get over how handsome he looks even under those raggedy clothes you know I won't have problems sneaking him in my room run him a warm bath give him clean clothes and a warm meal maybe that way I could help him, dad's always encouraging me to do missionary work maybe Nico's a start" Kelsey explained with a giggly laugh.
"Oh please girl me and you both know you don't give too shit about missionary work the only missionary you'll be giving is him between your legs" I pointed out hearing her laughing "it's weird how you know me so well" Kelsey agreed putting my plate in the sink taking my bag and locked the door heading down the stairs.
"I know you like how I know the back of my hand your parents would be praying for your safety while you in a man's bed begging him to choke you" I exclaimed "why you made it sound so bad that's because you've never had sex with me you've no idea what am capable of accomplish just one night with me and you'll be begging for more" she counter I couldn't help but laugh.
"Yeah, especially that creep that showed up at your house in the late hours the of night wanting to watch you sleep" I told her "oh Alesha don't even remind me I still have goosebumps just thinking about it" she answered hanging up when I saw her car pulling up the curb.
"Hey babe," Kelsey said when I get in "hey boo" I sweetly greeting connecting my phone "hey have you given my number out to anyone," I asked the uneasy feeling still didn't sit well with me "no why" she answered "just got a weird call last night" I told her.
"About what" she inquired as she pulled off "are you flipping kidding me Alesha and you didn't call me" Kelsey yelled "tell me you at least report it" she questioned particularly yelled as she glimpses over at me "it's not that serious maybe just some freak at school" I said knowing that they can it off the school blog where every student at school is on.
"Alesha this isn't something you just take likely" Kelsey argued "don't you think I know that," I said as we pulled up in the parking lot she looked at me "promise me if he calls back you won't hesitate to go straight to the police they're so many people going missing Alesha" Kelsey begged gripping both my hands in a tight hold all the jovial voice and bubbly aura seized I've never seen Kelsey so serious even her brown eyes pleading with me.
The only time I've seen her this serious was when her fifteen-year-old cousin was kidnapped raped and killed.
"I promise Kel c'mon let's go" I said wanting to forget about everything after pulling her in a hug smiling at her trying to reassure her everything was ok Kelsey's only four months older in which she acts like my mom always looking out for me I love the girl to death even though some of the decisions she made am not okay with but I can't tell her how to live her life all I can do is hope she knows what she's getting herself into.
"Alesha" the voice called out stopping looking in the direction to see Drake striding towards us "if we continue walking and act like we didn't hear him" Kelsey suggested she hated him with such passion "too late" I whispered when he was close "oh hey, Drake" I mumble he was the captain of the lacrosse team popular with the girls with his dazzling smile which always leaves the giddy head hormonal girls like they're on cloud nine.
Blond hair that was low at the sides which he normally runs his hand through while adding a wink which makes him look stupid like he's doing right now that simply doesn't have a hint of affection on me like every other girl bright green eyes that seem to have total control over the females causing them to act senseless and his lean structure leaving them in a pool of drools.
"How are you? I was wondering if we could hang out sometime" he said with a charming smile "uh sorry am always busy maybe some other time" I answered a little too fast like I've told him a million zillion times and yet he never seen to stop "hey Wallace better get your girlfriend before she melts in the sun," Kelsey said in a not so nice tone while pointing at Yandi who had her eyes narrowing in our direction.
He chuckled which cause me to mentally roll my eyes "I'll see you around Alesha... Allen" he said spatting out Kelsey's last night like a bitter taste and jogged over to his girlfriend "seriously you talk to him too soft" Kelsey said throwing daggers at him laughing and linking our hands together walking into the building.
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"There's a club called Arousal I heard it's lit and we just have to try it," Kelsey said excitedly it was lunchtime we were sitting down in our usual seat "you know I don't do clubs and that club is for adults do I have to remind you how old we are" I answered taking a huge bite of my pizza.
"Oh c'mon Alesha you work at a club what's the difference" Kelsey shot back "I have no choice there's the difference" I retort "please just this once we can go tonight since you won't be working" she begs "and how will we get in smartass" I questioned a grin break out on her face.
"That's why I took the deliberate in getting these" Kelsey beamed searching her bag to slide over two fake ID's "are you crazy how did you get this it looks just like me" I whisper yell scanning it "Hyemi Chai" I read out raising my brow confused "stupid am Jamaican how the heck would I pass off being Korean" I inquired smacking her forehead.
"Francisca Lopez" I read looking up at her "chill out I panic and at least I didn't choose our real name" Kelsey defend with a shrug "and you couldn't think of any names like Kelly Ashley you decided on Korean and Mexican names bravo Kelsey" I acknowledge with a clap.
"Well the least you could do is show me some gratitude," she said rolling her eyes "well at least you get something right my picture so thank you so much" I said dramatically with fake teary eyes "shut up" she said laughing throwing her fries at me "am readying at your place by the way" Kelsey mention nodding my head as she starts discussing what she'll be wearing.