I do not know what makes me obey him, but I do.
I stay quiet as people congratulate us, as people merrily celebrate and have fun while I just stare.
Sun Chan Yeol seems to be enjoying the attention and would always turn to my side to look at me.
If it's to mock me about the fact that I'm defenseless around him or to be sure I have not ran away, I do not know but every single second with him makes me sick.
Makes me want to retch so hard that my blood comes out.
Several times he'd reach out to me and hold me tight, but i never ended up showing any single reaction on my face.
I wanted out.
But I doubt he'd listen to me.
That is why now, as I kneel infront of me with the whole place quite and empty under the moonlit night and him smoking his pipe so comfortably, I say "Please, I beg of you your Majesty, reconsider"
"Hmmm?"
He raises my face with his hands, a smirk on his "Did you just accord me with my title? How the mighty has fallen"
He tilts his head "Tell me, why do I have to listen to you?"
I already know he would say that but I just decide to plead along "Because this is wrong"
"Wrong? Do you even know what wrong means Kitten?"
I want to shrug off his hand, I want to push him away but I stay still "Because... Because we're not in love"
"Love?"
His laugh echoes through the darkness and shivers through me as he says "Now, do not act so delirious Kim Min Ho. Love is not necessary to be a bride to Royalty. I will give you everything you desire"
"Except love?" I ask.
His eyes still there for a second before he suddenly grabs my neck tight as he pulls me closer to him "Are you trying to mock me?! What is this sudden attitude of yours?! Where you not the same one who was all over me because I was the Prince?"
As I choke, trying to pull him off but failing, ends up saying "What if I loved you?"
He chuckles there "Love? Does Kim Min Ho, the legendary faery of Ieca, suddenly believe in love? Suddenly thinks I'm a fool? Because you bear my child?"
"Pl-ease! I.. I can't breathe!"
He stares at me for a while and suddenly lets go.
I choke now, coughing as I try to crawl on the ground, ignoring the tears filing my face as he pulls me up by the hand inside.
My vision is blurry so I can barely see but I know it is not the way to my room before I'm thrown across a room, the room barely lit by a lamp as I hold onto my stomach before I hear him say "Take off your clothes"
This time, I look up at him "No. We are going to have a civilized conversation"
His red eyes seem to light up as he says "I do not want to talk to you"
"Then I won't"
He scoffs "For all the fake innocence you seem to be projecting, you sure did enjoy the moments in the garden"
"Stop it"
His eyes light up there as he comes closer as I crawl further away "It is true. Why? Are you ashamed? Do not be Kim Min Ho. I assure you it would just be like it has always been for you. You just have to stay still and look pretty, hmmm?"
"But... But I'm pregnant"
The sudden move of his knuckles towards me has me ducking away but I hear the impact on the wall next to me as he says "Are you trying to somehow use my son as leverage?"
I pant as I look up at him, his eyes still on the wall and hands inside it as I say "Can... Can you just think of...of him? Of how he would feel?"
He lets out a dry chuckle as he turns to me, removing his hand from the wall as he says "It is precisely for his sake that I am trying to protect his whore of a Mother"
The slap comes before I can stop it as I gasp, covering my mouth "Your Majesty, I... I didn't mean to!"
He flexes his jaws, still looking away as I quickly go on my knees again "I am sorry. I really am. I..."
"Silence"
There is nothing else now as it is only the silence of the room as says "You expect me to call off the engagement? All because you asked? Why should I listen to you? When have you ever done something for me except lie and cheat and run away?"
I gulp in "Give... Give us three months"
He raises an eyebrow as I continue "To... To see if we are compatible. If we are not, then I.. then I would leave"
"I do not accept"
"And if we are, then I will stay"
"I already said no Kim Min Ho"
"Or are you scared? That I will never love you the way I love Tae Hyun?"
A look passes his face and I know I have hit a forbidden spot as he grabs my face, the blood on his knuckles obvious as he says "Do you believe so? That someone like you, are capable of love?"
Me?
Why... Why does he seem so hateful of me?
"What will i get in return if I conform to your requests hmm?"
He pulls me closer, his lips brushing mine as the surprising coldness of it has me sucking on air to take his as he says "I would need some sort of leverage. Asides our son, you of all people should even find such behavior repulsive"
I stare at first, because I know that with the feelings he seems to have for me, with the fact that he hurt me on purpose, always will, because he has some sort of grudge against me only meant that nothing I had would ever be enough for him.
Except my body.
Which at this point... Was useless to me anyway.
"Kim Min Ho. Do you want this deal or....?"
I jam my lips on his.
It is sudden for him, I can tell as he does not kiss me immediately but I don't give him enough time to react before I pin him down, me on his body as a sadistic look comes on his face "Well, well, well. Guess who has stopped his facade and decided to reveal his true self?"
"I was not playing a game earlier when I was embarrassed about what we were doing" I say "For some reason, you hate me, I don't know or remember why, as I cannot remember certain things but what I do know is that I want to leave this place and be far away from you as possible and if I must present my body as a way to do it. I will"
An emotion crosses his face, possibly that of shock, or disbelief, I don't know but i am already taking my robe off before I hear something falling.
Before I can retrieve it, Chan Yeol is already reaching out for it, grabbing it away from my hands and staring at it "Whose hair pin is this?"
The ruby pin seems to light the room a bit as I stare it, wondering why exactly I ever bought it for him in the first place "I took it from the market when I was out with Tae Hyun and Byul. It's a gift for your hair"
His eyes widen there as he suddenly shoves me off.
I protectively put my hand around my stomach as he stands up, the pin clutched up his hand "You are a liar! It is a lover of yours, isn't it?!"
"You can ask Tae Hyun or Byul if you do not believe me" I say.
He stares at me, anger filling me as he says "You must really think I must be mad to believe all this. You might have fooled me before but you will not again. I assure you"
And with that.
He was gone.