'Durkrm dum durkrm dum durkrkrm....'
"OH gosh this damn fannnn!"
whenever I try to concentrate on something, this fan bring it to an end. I don't like my dormitory, whenever I try to concentrate on writing this Villain 'fan' bring it to an end and this is the main reason along with many other reason to hate my current atmosphere. There are many obstacles to write a webtoon or a novel, the first one is inspiration , yes! I lack inspiration, I had a great story in my mind for the past few years ,but there is a problem , whenever I try to write it down my mind becomes blank out , that's why I decided to write my lifestory...
As a girl who is going to be enlightened 18 soon, you may think I have great, very great plans for my future. But NO!. Still I don't know why I am living or for what I lived for ...
Oh! I will tell you the reason why I decided to write about my life before my death (which has been kept secret for past many years). I have many secrets with me , many pains , many regrets, many achievements, many ideas, many fictions , many things that I am interested in,many emotions and many many things that I have been hiding for past 10 years ...
If u are asking whether I am happy in my life or not, I may say "yes, as far as I know I am happy...". But still there are may things that I am worried about and wanna share with someone. If anyone ask me "if god would grant your one wish, what you will ask for ?", definitely, without any doubt I will ask for a true friend, a friend who can support me , a friend who can be along with me, a friend who won't betray me like someone 2 years ago did, atleast a friend who I can trust.
Being an introvert who has been acting like an extrovert for past many years its really hard to open my mind all of a sudden in a oneline novel writing platform. I thought it would be easy as time goes ...but it is not that easy as I thought it would be. A book which has been kept unopened for many years, with many wrinkles , many missing pages, many burnt pages, many folded pages, many torn pages , sticking pages, many dirt ...It would be very difficult to open such a book, same goes for my heart and my mind. Since it has been many years, I thought it won't be difficult to open my mind ...but things are not same as I thought, may be that's why this is called life and that's called dream.
It's really awkward to tell my story right away, so I will be telling my life story from second page onwards.