A smooth and calm wind rushing on the window panel, it is midnight,
12:00 clock and I was reading the book while hearing BTS Zero 'o' clock song. It was really calm and relaxing to feel the breeze and enjoy the sounds of rain drops, it's really calm and enjoyable to sit near the window , I slowly stood up and slide the curtain with my one hand while holding a book in my other hand, a warm and peaceful wind rushed through my hair and it lifted my small hairs, suddenly I remembered something happened 2 years ago.
I could feel ...the smile on my face slowly fading and something was coming up,I took my chair which was overloaded my unwashed clothes, I placed my book in the table and then took away the heap of clothes. It was the moment I know I should start writing, so I took my tab and started to write it down....
I was a little girl that time , I was just 15 , being one of the class topper, it was really hard to maintain the image and score of a studious student, because your teachers will have a high expectations on you.
I don't know, but suddenly tears comes down from my eyes , I felt like so sad that I want to cry loud without knowing the reason. I suddenly shut the window and sat on my plastic chair and tried to concentrate on my writing, but I couldn't ,something was keep bothering me..., many thoughts came to my mind, like many questions without any answers.
I clearly remembered the things that happened 4 years ago, When I first met my best friend. I was in 6th grade and I was just transferred from Amini Island. First it was so strange and uncomfortable with new people, new school and new atmosphere I didn't talk to anyone , before going to school my mom gave me a proper lecture and some duas to recite and told me to make friends with them , which was no strange at all, but eventually, after 3 moths I became friends with everyone, that everyone wants to shut my mouth.
My school was nearest one to my house , so it was so easy to me to go and come, I still remember the first day of my class in GSSschool, I got 6A class and until 10, I got A division but during high school, I got B division. Many new students came and many faces appeared, some of my classmates asked my names , but I didn't ask theirs, may be because of I didn't want know their names , that was the day when I first met my best friend Una, she was from mainland Kerala, she and her sister was the only students from mailand, and her mother used to be a math teacher in our high-school section. After many days Una came from mainland and eventually we became best friends, talking about Una she was a very good girl, who stood along with me , who motivated me and who gave me company through out my school years, we were like siamese twins, we went everywhere together. We sat in the first bench, 4 members in a bench, I was the third and she was the fourth. Near to our bench there is a wall which is made of quarter of net, which we used to put our wet umbrella and raincoats and boys used to play cricket, and their bats were cardboard and their ball was made up of waste paper which was wrapped with cellotape. It was a great tasks for them to hide the paper ball from teachers, if teachers find anything like that they will scold everyone in our class. I don't remember who was the classleaders in my class, it's really hard to remember many minute things.
In my class I had my two childhood friends Ayidias and Amilas, but we couldn't keep the old friendship as we got many other new friends, I was friendly with everyone but I spent more time with my best friend Una, and my other classmates used to stay I won't mind them if Una was there.
First she was just a classmate like other classmates then we found our likes in many things and then eventually we became best friends , but she told me her mother and her sister don't like her friendship with me, which lightly hurt my heart but then it went good. The reason they didn't like the friendship with me because be they are from mainland and may be her mother didn't understand who good was I. Amilas's and Una's mothers worked together in the same section (higher section) so Una was close to her in the beginning, since I also know her mother in person we three used to hangout in the first, sometimes we even go to the staff office and eat some ladus or jilebi, which they got from some parties. We three were the classtoppers and but lately we end our friendship with Amilas, and I and Una became best friends. Eventually Amilas got new friends and she went other way.
Since I didn't like going anywhere and I didn'tlike to make many friends, my mom always forced me to go to beach and play with my neighbour friends, Unnuop and Asiar were my neighbors.
Oh there was someone named Beekahs in my neighborhood and he also used to play with us and he was 2 years older than us. He was a very talented singer that even cows and goats run away if they hear his song, but he used to get many prizes from Kalolsavam (an union level competition) and all. Of course he is a talented singer and I even heard he participated in a television show, but honestly I didn't like his sound that much, different people's have different tastes in music.
I still remember in my school, we had a classmate named Zarih, OMG! he was so handsome, and that was my first time seeing such a handsome guy, but honestly I didn't like his personality that much, so we became enemies instead being good classmates, his hobby was threatening me and mine was complaining him to my teachers. I was a strange girl at that time. Lol!.
Me and Una, we together gave him many drudgery, and he hit that back, which collapsed my image infront of my Usthad (a person who teaches Islamic rules and regulations) and my friends. There was also a rumor about Una,me and Zarih, whatever it was a messy play between some 11year old kids, I hurted him many times , I really wanna apologize to him but after thinking about what he did to me , my inner peace not allowing me to apologize to him, each and every time I think about that, more and more I hate him. I really liked him as my good friend, that's why I always irritated him and played with him. I still remember the times me,Una and Zarih spent together, we used to saty back at our school and played in our class, just chasing each other with some box,books or even some sticks...lol!. We physically hurted each other but never mentally or emotionally until that happened. The thing was that....I said something to him involving my another male classmate but he misunderstood and told that to our usthad, we used to study in the same Madrasa , I was one year senior than him, my class begin at 5:00 am and end at 7:00 am and their class begin at 7:00 and I think, end at 9:30 am or something.
I was a member of patriotic dance group ,which representing our team from kavaratti Island for the Kalolsavam and his (male classmate) mother was our teacher, the 'misunderstanding rumor' spread like a fire and my Madrasa mates asked me about those rumors, I felt so sad that I even cried in my classroom. I took everything as just a time pass and I thought this fighting will end as we grow up but NO!. He tested my patience, and accused me for something that I didn't, I really wanted to take revenge against him, cause it's really broke my heart into pieces.
Una and Aneeras comforted me and Aneeras said :"we don't like the Leen who cry, we like the Leen who always smile ".
I still remember those words ,coz that's was my first time in my life hearing such a comfortable word, we were not that friendly but still I liked those words more than my teachers compliment. Eventhough we were not that friends but we were eatmates, me Aneeras, Ayyamus we would go together to the mess, since our school was a government school lunch were provided from our school itself.
Me and Una decided to take revenge against him, for that we planned to write a love letter and accuse him for that, but it didn't go the way as we expected. There was a boy named Rakhsa who found our falsehood.
I still remember, looking at my face he said: "you did this , I am sure you did this"
I goes :"No please believe me, I didn't, why should I do that?!"
"No we are sure about that" he said. "do that note contain my handwriting?, you know my handwrite right?!" I asked ,
I tried my best to stand on my foot but I couldn't, may be because, that was my first time doing some sort of things like that. After that I promised myself to not to do such types of things, that type of shitts don't suit my personality!. But still, I can't understand how he found out that , may be because of our handwriting, but I did my best to change my handwriting... who cares about things that happened many years ago!.
There was a boy named Beenum in my 6 and 7th grade, he had some mental problem, that he can't behave properly as we do ,but honestly he got a good brain in electronics, he even made many experimental things , which we can't do. Because of his problem, he was short tempered and he get angry very fast and he will beat us in 0.05 seconds. We always fought, I even beat him severely for my self protection and when we start to fight, being concerned about their own safety no one will come forward to stop us, we continue our fight till teachers come and stop us , but here that kid named Zarih will atleast try to stop us , I think he was our class-leader from boys.
I think there were 36 students in my class, in my class boys lag behind girls in terms of studying and girls lag behind boys in sports. At this time one of my classmates cousin showed up his name was Liahus he was from kalpeni Island and I heard he was good at studying. Talking about him, he is kinda poor guy, he didn't have that much friends in our class except an another genie like him named Sayihtmi. They sat right infront of our bench together with Beenum, should I say anything more?!. So we were in the second bench, there were some rumors speculating about me and him which caused his cousin Alfan to yell at me, seriously I don't know what's wrong with them, my classmates all have PhD in spreading rumors.
The main reason for all this rumor was since we are Lakshadweepians we are kinda orthodox, so we won't keep that much contact between boys and girls, boys and girls be like two tigers in a cage which were monitored by some hunters. But I really loved to fight with boys and honestly it was one of my hobby to fight with boys and getting scolded.
When all this drama happened we were in 7th grade , eventually we became more enemies, that we didn't even talk to each other, and we started to mind our own business.
Many things happened during 6 and 7 class, some handful of some innocent memories- that's what I want to call it.
"You didn't sleep yet?, it's already 2:12 am ?"
I suddenly turned, and for a moment... I forgot to take breathe
"Are you ok?" asked my sis, I stay along with my sis in our dormitory. "Yeah....! I'm fine ,Good night" I replied by taking a deep breath. I closed my tab and went to sleep, by looking at the ceiling,I was just thinking about the time I lost my most trusted friend, but thinking about that, it brought me some old memories, some memories which I buried into my unconscious mind 4 years ago.