Diandra closed the album containing her and Jefan's photos. In the album, there are many photos of them, starting to fill up with random photos that were shot by Jefan when Diandra was off guard. Photos of them at the beach, at school, and at the places they visit.
Sasha sighed. To be able to move on from Jefan, of course, the first thing Diandra did was throw away all the things the man had given her. Starting from photos, fake flowers, dolls, bags, necklaces, clothes, and others.
"You want to throw it all away, don't you?" asked Luna. They had already prepared the items to be burned.
"Yeah," she answered wearily.
"Why are you tired?" asked Luna. She narrowed his eyes. "Are you in doubt?"
"Yes, no," said Diandra. "But it's a shame not to throw it all away." Diandra grabbed the little photo doll that Jefan gave when they were in their third month. "There's nothing wrong with these things."
Luna grabbed the doll from Diandra's hand. "Yes, there's nothing wrong with these things. But if you keep keeping all of this, you won't forget it, you'll always remember him and in the end, you'll ask for it back. Anyway, you have to forget everything related to it. Jefan, both people and memories."
"Lun." Diandra's intrusion. "What is forgotten is the person, not the memory. I will not be able to forget my memories with Jefan."
"What memories do you mean?" challenged Luna. "Memories when you were cursing at him, is said to be a dog or a bitch with him? Or when you were beaten until your hands were red? Or even when you found out he was cheating on you and had slept with his mistress?"
Diandra massaged her temples which felt throbbing. "Not all of my memories with Jefan are bad, Lun. You forgot when he gave me a doll on my birthday. Did you forget when he threaded me like a princess before he turned evil?"
"Are you defending him?" asked Luna incredulously. "Do you intend to move on or not?"
"I want to move on," said Diandra. "But I don't want you to keep badmouthing him. Behind his ugly nature, he's good."
Diandra tidied up all the things that had been collected and rearranged them as before. "I'm not going to burn this stuff."
Luna looked at him in disbelief. Diandra is still the same, still fickle. Feeling useless in this place, Luna grabbed her bag and stood up.
"If you want to forget that person, remember the bad memories. But if you want to get back with that person, remember the good memories." Luna squeaked. She stepped out of his room. Before actually leaving Luna said. "Let me know when you get back with the demon."
Diandra sighed. She lay on his bed hugging the doll that Jefan had given him.
"Forget people without throwing away their things, can't you?"
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"It's been a long time, lol."
Rafa looked away sitting next to Diva and ate the french fries that were on the table. Earlier, Diva asked Rafa to accompany her to eat at the mall. With free accessories, Rafa immediately went to the location.
"You told him suddenly, bitch. I have work to do."
"Working in the karaoke room while watching bitches dance like that?" cynical Diva. She knows whatever is Rafa's hobby.
Rafa looked at Diva and chuckled softly. Rafa pinched Diva's nose and pulled her. "You know so much about me."
Diva pinched Rafa's arm back. "Can you stop like that? Do positive things, don't be negative."
"I can't," said Rafa quickly. According to him, what he did was still within normal limits. The proof he has never impregnated any girl. Rafa is playing it safe.
Rafa sipped Diva's drink without permission. Diva again pinched Rafa's arm.
"My drink, that," annoyed Diva.
"You didn't order a drink for me, anyway," replied Rafa without feeling guilty.
"Order yourself, ogeb."
"But you pay, right?" Rafa raised his eyebrows.
"Have you ever had a snack with me with your money?" asked the Diva. "I feel like I'm using my money."
Rafa laughed. When with Diva, Rafa never spends his money. That's what makes Rafa happy to be invited to eat by Diva. Diva doesn't count, she even wants to give Rafa a cigarette.
Rafa suddenly remembered one thing. Rafa immediately straightened his body and cleared his throat briefly. Hopefully, Diva will help him.
"Div, your friend who was single earlier, right?"
Diva furrowed her brows. "Which one?"
"The one in the park. Diandra, if I'm not mistaken," said Rafa, pretending not to recognize Diandra. He had known Diandra two years ago, at their first meeting at school.
Diva nodded hesitantly. "Yes, why?"
Rafa cleared his throat again, he leaned his body towards Diva. "Match me with him, won't you?"
The diva was silent for a moment. Rafa was never like this. The guy was even very indifferent to any girl. So why now Rafa wants to be matched with Diandra.
Diva laughed loudly while placing her hand on Rafa's forehead. "You're sick, aren't you? Get treatment there."
"I'm not kidding." Rafa put Diva's hand on his forehead. "I like Diandra."
The Diva's loud laughter slowly stopped. Diva turned her face away for a moment. There was something strange in his heart when she heard Rafa's confession. Like not ready.
Diva looked back at Rafa and shook her head slowly. "No, Raf. I don't want my friendship with Diandra to be damaged. Are you looking for another girl, or do you want me to find you?"
Rafa shook his head. "I just want Diandra."
*****
Diandra grabbed her phone and opened the incoming message. There is an incoming message from Jefan, his ex. With a pounding feeling, Diandra opened the message.
Jeff:
Ra, have you slept?
Diandra closed her eyes and remembered all the moments she had with Jefan. Diandra sighed tiredly and put the phone back on the nightstand. Diandra did not intend to reply to the short message and small talk. Diandra knew that she was still replying to Jefan's messages, and they were engaged in another conversation. Diandra will melt and return to make up with Jefan.
Flashback On
"Let's break up, Jeff."
Diandra said the sentence in one breath. Diandra has been thinking about this for more than a week. She was tired of facing Jefan's character who was always angry because of trivial matters. Diandra is forbidden to do whatever she likes. Diandra is sick of always being scolded and beaten by Jefan.
"Are you serious?" Jeff asked in disbelief.
"I'm tired. You can never change." Diandra is crying. Remembering all Jeffan's treatment of him. "You said you weren't going to play with girls anymore. But in fact, you went out with Sonya."
"Going together with Sonya is busy." Jeff grabbed his hair. He loved Diandra even though he was rude to her.
"It's crowded, but the photo of the two of them is like that!" Diana's voice rose. "You didn't even tell me that you were going. And it hurt, even more, you told Tiana to delete the photos that were uploaded to Instagram just so I wouldn't know."
"Raaa," Jeff called softly. He tried to hold her hand. "I'm sorry about that. I'm just afraid you'll misunderstand that's why I asked Tiana to delete the photo. I have nothing to do with Sonya."
Diandra slapped Rafa's hand and wiped her tears. Maybe now is the right time for her to end her relationship with Jefan. Get out of a toxic relationship.
"I have forgiven you. But I'm sorry, I can't have a relationship with you anymore."
Jeff is getting angry. He didn't want to lose her. "I'll change, I promise. Give me one more chance."
"I've given you many chances but you've never changed." Sandra stood up from her seat. "Save your changes for the person who will be your girlfriend again. Because I don't want to date you anymore."
Flashback Off
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