That was really hard for me to forget him because I really liked him. Even though, we never met in real life and we were connected with each other via internet only I was already very close to him. Not to mention the reason .....all because of the support that I got from him when I was in the hardest moment of my life. But I started thinking that he never cared about me...and already had forgotten about me. It was really heartbreaking when I think about it. I can't deny that he was my first crush or love whom I haven't met in real life. I thought that I shouldn't really rely on the online from now on and just focus on my life.. You won't really believe that I still have his contact details and his profile pictures to remind myself that hurtful day when I realized that I won't be loved ever.
Finally the very important exam was over and I decided to the capital for my further studies. This was the first time I would be staying away from my home and my family. Before this, I had never thought of staying away from them. But it was just the planning that I and my dad had been making for the whole two years.
Today is the result day of my exam and I was so freaking nervous.. I didn't even want to see the results. Even though I am considered top student in my school and even in my district. I was very scared and nervous...I was thinking like what if the results didn't meet the expectations of me, my parents and my school. I was literally so scared that I decided not to look at the result...I was like I will look at it after I am calmed down... Then suddenly my phone rang . I looked at my phone screen and it was from my principle. When I picked up the phone, he immediately asked me if I have seen my results yet. I told him that I haven't watched it yet. Then he sighed and said, " Ria...I didn't really expected this result from you....This is far below than we all have expected from you" After I heard that, my whole world was devasted and tears bursted out...I started crying so badly. My parents started asking me what had happened.... I was about to tell my parents about my result and my principal laughed and said," Ria, I was just joking with you. You really live on our expectations. Do you know what you have scored? You got 4.00 GPA. I am really proud of you....Congratulations!"
I was so happy that I wanted to dance right there but I controlled myself as my parents were right there and it was embarassing to dance... I know how bad I dance so....I hold it back. I told my parents that I got 4.00GPA . My parents were so thrilled that my dad , my mom and my younger brother all carried me on their back one by one ....The happiness I saw in their eyes was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my whole life...
Here comes another huge tension now I am preparing for the college entrance exam. I have always wanted to get in the top college. Every year, thousands of students take the entrance and only 500 students are selected to study there. I have been preparing for it for more than 3 months. After my exam, I had 3 years gap period and I was preparing for my entrance. In order to be confident, I take entrance in top 10 colleges here as the college where I wanted to study open its entrance very late. I passed entrance in all and got 100 percent scholarship there. I got admission in one college in order to have back up if I failed to get admission there. It was finally the day of entrance and I think I did quite ok....I got the list of selected candidates for the interview next day. I was also selected. Actually, I didn't have hope because I know how many top students will take entrance and how good they are. Moreover, I don't want to feel sad. I was just happy to know that I was selected for interview. On the interview day , I and my dad sat in interview online and I was asked a lot of questions. I wasn't nervous at all. It maybe because I have gone through many interviews that I was not afraid anymore. I still had no hope of admission there....That evening my mom looked at the admission list and my name was there.....She didn't tell me because she wanted to make sure it was really me. So she asked me my entrance number and i told her. Then she said me," Check the list . It just came out." I started searching my name and look what was there. It was my name....I was shocked for a while...I thought I was in dream. But it was reality. My parents and my brother all carried me on their back again....
My first love that failed make me more strong.....