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Chapter 7 - him / a definition of sadness

i just wanna drop this.

bumble, my moon, is a fine and lovable man. he was exactly my type. from head to foot down to his personality. at first i didn't care about him but he bugged me for 2 days and then boom! my heart goes wild.

we both share the same personality. we like to play around and we are both scared of commitments but we decided to be together cause we wanted to try it out. it was fast i know and that was because i thought it was interesting to play him but i guess it goes the other way around.

i didnt prepare my heart for this. i thought he was true. well, a part is hoping that he was true. i get butterflies from him because he was a sweet talker but i guess when you came from a fast relationship it would end quick.

i pranked him through a song "traitor" by olivia rodrigo and i didnt think he was sensitive enough to break up with me the next day. both of us had a misunderstanding. he was still in love with his ex. and asked me if i could help him get back to her but unfortunately the girl wouldn't.

so he threatened me, and so i blocked him. he was toxic, i am toxic, we are both toxic. we both manipulated each other. but i love him so i emailed him through his gmail and thankfully he replied!

i said i still love him and i planned to let him go that day but he told me he loves me. in fact it was "beyond love" as he defined. i unblocked him and we both started fresh.

we talked for a few weeks and then school came. both of us were so busy and we haven't talked since. i waited for him everyday to text me but i guess he was so busy with his life that even a minute of text and update he will not do. well, i never confronted him that and i even understood him.

but now he unfriended me through snap. its ok, i understand even. i guess he found himself someone or i guess he is just living his best life out there. btw we dont live in the same country which makes it more complicated lmao.

so to my moon out there, i guess its time to tell you our story was beautiful and its time to end it.

the sunset is beautiful, isn't it?