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Chapter 21 - 20. So Sorry Dear Friend

Valerie's POV

Finally the darkness was over..I woke up only to see Cindy sitting on a chair with a teary eye but when I wanted to raise myself up and ask Cindy a question, I felt a sharp pain on my stomach so I screamed, so Cindy and some other nurses ran to my aid. "What is the problem Valerie?" Cindy asked while patting me on my back. "Ma'am, you need to get some sleep, don't try to stress yourself at all. Your stomach will be just fine!" the nurse in white standing beside me said. "Just stay still and force yourself to sleep, please or your pain won't go down." The other nurse who was standing beside the other nurse in white said. I couldn't say anything any longer, I just recalled the previous event and I screamed,"Bryant?! Where is Bryant Cindy, where is Bryant? Where is my brother?" "Calm down Valerie, your brother is absolutely fine? Just do as the nurses say and you'll also be fine." Cindy said but I didn't believe her so I asked,"My Bryant can never know that I am not feeling well and leave my side. Oh wait! He was shot right, I wanna see him right now." And before they could complain of anything, I demanded,"No body should try to stop because I ain't gonna listen to any of you, you either choose to help me or not." Without much thought, I stood up from the bed in deep pain and walked towards the door but before I could walk out, Cindy yelled,"Wait! Valerie, I'll take you to Bryant, don't worry about that." She then brought a wheelchair, I sat in in it and she pushed me to a room, there, what I saw called tears onto my eyes, Bryant was lying lifelessly on the bed with so many wires connected to him. His heart was still beating which meant that he was still alive. I wept bitterly because I was the cause of everything, his face was bandaged so I asked,"Cindy? Why is there a bandage on his face?" She responded,"The doctor said there was an inflammation on his face that's why, so…so…" "So what Cindy?" I yelled in curiosity. She wiped away a tear at the corner of her eyes and answered,"So he'll need a plastic surgery or his face will look disgusting which no one will ever want to set his eyes upon." With pain and confusion, I yelled out,"My Bryant? Plastic surgery? No! No, the doctor must be mistaken, maybe they had a misunderstanding or something, maybe the results the nurse brought in was a wrong one or something, maybe the…" but before I could continue talking Cindy yelled out saying,"Stop it Valerie! Just stop it, okay! What is true is true! Nothing can change it! Though it is difficult to accept the fact that someone you love so much may not be able to live again, you just have to accept the fate and pray. I thought you were a strong girl Valerie, ever since you came into my life, I learnt to be a strong person. If you don't know, I was jealous of you the very day you told all about your story. I imagined the kind of pain and sufferings you went through and I got to know that, I am not suffering at all. Be strong Valerie, at least if not for yourself, for Bryant." Her words calmed me down and her hugged comforted my heart. She took me back to my hospital bed, covered me with a blanket, gave me a kiss on my forehead and asked me to sleep.

The next day when I woke up and raised myself from the bed, I realized that, the pain I felt at first wasn't so painful anymore. When I looked around, I couldn't see Cindy so I decided to go and look for her Bryant's room. Poor girl, she had to take care of both of us all alone, she is a princess, so doing this must be very complicated but I trusted her because, I gave her a tedious challenge (She saw it as tedious but I didn't) and that should be helpful enough. When I got to the entrance of the hospital, I saw Cindy crying with her hands on her face and the doctor was pulling a white blanket over his face. In the movies, I know that, they only do that to people that have passed on but does it mean that…No, no, maybe it's because of the plastic surgery or something else…I tried to convince myself with these. I rushed into the room and asked,"What is wrong with Bryant doctor? Why are you covering his face?And you Cindy, why are you crying? Is somebody gonna die?" Cindy could not say anything, she just burst into crying and I felt so bad. The doctor then walked to me and comforted,"Sorry for the loss Miss Valerie Kay, we really did tried our best but we couldn't save your brother." As if someone used something to block my ear, I could not hear anything again, the only thing I was feeling was my heartbeat which was sounding very loudly. What have I done? I am a murderer, I killed my brother that can lay down his life just for my sake. Just because of my revenge, I killed him. He told me to stop but I wouldn't listen, how am I supposed to say the story in case his parents come? How am I going to tell the story? I then raced to his lifeless body and while shaking it I yelled,"You can't do this to me Bryant! You can't just leave me all alone in this wicked world. Who would comfort me if I am hurting?! Who would feed me with knowledge if I am hungry for it?! I don't know that you are this heartless Bryant! You are a heartless soul, you don't care about anybody but yourself! Won't you do anything to me? Won't you fight back?! I am insulating you, fight back!" It all ended up in tears, now what's worth living for? If I can't get loved by those I love then why do I live on this earth. Suicide! Here I come! Bryant, wait for me at the heaven gate, I'll be there soon. I left the room after I thought of my suicidal plans, I knew someone might follow me so I ran to the room in which I was admitted, locked up the door, took a pen and paper to write my last words to Cindy, my mom and my little sister.

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🎀NOTE FROM VALERIE TO ALL MY LOVED ONES.🎀

'BY THE TIME YOU'LL BE READING THIS MESSAGE, I WOULD HAVE JOINED BRYANT RIGHT IN HEAVEN. I AM VERY SAD WHILE WRITING THIS MESSAGE TO YOU GUYS BECAUSE IT IS NOT EASY TO TAKE THE DECISION I TOOK.

CINDY, I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. EVER SINCE I MET YOU, I HAVE THIS KIND OF FEELING, AS IF I KNEW YOU FOR LONG. WORDS CANNOT BE ENOUGH TO TELL YOU HOW SORRY I AM. YOU AND BRYANT WARNED ME TO CALM DOWN AND STOP THE REVENGE BUT I DIDN'T LISTEN TO YOU. HAD I LISTENED, ALL THESE THINGS WOULDN'T HAVE HAPPENED. PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND YOUR FAMILY. MY LAST WISH IS THAT, YOU FIND SOMEONE WHO'LL LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE. PLEASE TAKE CARE OF MY FAMILY FOR ME. I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH AND I WILL MISS YOU VERY MUCH BUT DON'T CRY BECAUSE I DESERVE WORSE THAN DEATH AFTER ALL I DID TO YOU AND BRYANT.

JUDY, DON'T EVER FORGET THAT I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. YOU CAN NOW USE THE VACANT ROOM I USED FOR MY PERSONAL ROOM. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND MOM AS WELL. RYAN, I KNOW YOU LOVE HIM BUT PLEASE, LOVE CAN DESTROY YOU SO BE VERY CAREFUL. DON'T TRUST HIM SO MUCH. I LOVE YOU AND WILL MISS YOU VERY MUCH.

MOM, I KNOW YOU'LL BE THE PERSON TO CRY MORE THAN ANYONE BECAUSE WITH ME LEAVING YOU, YOU'LL LOSE FOUR OF YOUR LOVED ONES. I WISH I COULD STAY BACK BUT I CAN'T TAKE THE PAIN I AM FEELING NOW, ANYMORE. I'LL MISS YOU SO MUCH. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND EVERYBODY. I LOVE YOU MOM, I LOVE YOU. AND I'LL MISS YOU SO SO MUCH. LOVE.'

I LOVE YOU GUYS VERY MUCH. UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN IT'S GOODBYE FOR NOW.

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I placed the paper beside me on the floor and took the injection I wanted to take which was on the floor beside me into hands, I was about to inject myself when the door was broken because of how I locked it. Some people rushed into the room and held me up above the floor. They took me, placed me onto the bed and tried to calm me down while I was trying to free myself from them. Suddenly a voice which resembled Cindy's own said,"Leave her alone, I'll take care of everything." They all left me when they heard the voice. I wonder who that could be, when they got out of the way, I saw Cindy walking towards me while singing,"You with the sad eyes, don't be discouraged though I realize it's hard to take courage, in a world full of people you could loose sight of it all and the darkness inside you can make you feel so small." I joined her in the song,"But I see your true colours shinning through, I see your true colours and that's why I love you so don't be afraid to let them show, your true colours, true colours are beautiful." After singing, she hugged me and we both cried so badly. All of my life I've always depended on Bryant to give me joy, happiness and love but now, just who is going to offer me such love? Anyway loosing someone you really love is very painful and I understand very much how much pain Cindy must have been going through now. Cindy left the room to get us some food since we hadn't eaten since yesterday night. I was worried about Cindy but she looked like someone who doesn't care at all, as if nothing happened to us. I just hope that she's fine. Few minutes later, Cindy walked in but there were other people coming with her, suddenly, I saw my mom, Judy, the King and Queen, who could have called them to come?

"Oh dear, I missed you so much!" mom said and hugged me together with Judy. "I missed you too mommy." I replied. The King pulled me out of their arms, hugged me and said,"The Queen and I also deserve a hug from you Valerie Kay because we missed you too not only your mom and sister." After the hug, the Queen held my hands and said, "I'm so sorry Valerie. I forced you to take Princess Cindy to a summer vacation and you lost one of the most important person in your life. Moreover you got hurt severely because of fake love shown to you. I'm sorry dear." "Don't blame yourself dear Queen, this vacation taught us a whole lot of things. We now know how the outside world really is. First, my mommy and Bryant were the ones who protected me but now I gotta protect myself from my enemies." I responded in a sorrowful manner. She hugged and complimented,"You are a very courageous girl Valerie, my daughter is very lucky to have you as her friend and I'm also lucky to have you as my daughter and advisor dear, you are a great woman and I pray you will one day rule the world." I was so happy though sad about her compliment. The doctor walked in and said to us,"The boy is gone!"