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Chapter 25 - Chapter 25

The forest was quiet in a peaceful way- at least this time it felt like so. I noticed the tree leaves were starting to turn a little yellow which meant that autumn is coming, I frowned as I started to understand how long I've actually been here.

Cedric was silent the whole time- I studied his back as he walked in front of me, all that muscle and flesh and handsomeness covering a monster underneath, I looked down at his prints, of course he was wearing boots but even they left huge prints. finally he stopped, I stopped right next to him and stared at the beautiful scenery, this area was all green grass, flowers and high pine trees, and the air smelled amazing "you like it here" his words were more of a statement than a question , I nodded "it's beautiful and peaceful" he smiled and nodded back "there's a big tree log there let's go sit" I followed him, at that point my brain was swollen with all possible topics that could be. after we sat down I put my now empty mug aside and crossed my fingers as I leaned forward attentively, Cedric closed his eyes and took a deep breath, then with a heavy sigh he shifted so he was facing me "Rain, before I even start- I want you to know that this isn't easy for me, and I know it won't be easy for you too" I studied his face with worry "is it that bad?" he shook his head "I guess it depends on how you handle it" I swallowed and nodded, he went on "yesterday I had a private meeting with alpha Xavier- Cyprus and Darious were there too, alpha Xavier passed a message to me, from Zevrus." at the mention of Zevrus' name I shuddered and ran a hand through my hair "what was it? the message" his eyes went down to his hands then back to me "Zevrus always tried to prove to me that humans weren't always bad, after my mate was captured and killed, I had a really hard time trying to contain myself. My hatred towards humans never settled.. but after you came along... something inside me changed". My heart started to beat faster as he continued "when I first saw you, I felt angry and disappointed with Zevrus-  he said that you were different, but my hatred blinded me and I almost killed you... now that I think about it, Zevrus was right. You ARE special Rain". I blushed deeply and looked down at my hands "Cedric thats sweet of you, but why are you telling me all this?" he sighed and ran a hand through his hair "well, according to alpha Xavier - he and Zevrus were both in the same cell in one of the laboratories" I nodded "yes he told me about that, but he managed to escape" Cedeic looked at me and squinted his eyes "did he tell you anything else?" I thought back of our conversation but couldn't remember anything else, shaking my head I shrugged "no- he just told me that they were best friends and  that Zevrus often spoke of me and that's all" Cedric nodded and looked at the tree line"the night alpha Xavier escaped from the laboratory, Zevrus asked him to deliver a message- the message is  that if you ever come back to the Steel pack- you are to be the Luna , in other words my mate."

I blinked twice "say that again?" His eyes searched mine for a second then he said it again, this time he was hesitant "you, as my mate" my face stayed solemn, but I slowly moved my head to stare at the scenery, this isn't the first time that Cedric lables me as his mate, he did it once infront of the whole pack when Alpha Dracus took me- bit I know that back then he didn't actuallly mean it, it was a desperate move to keep me indoors. This time it's different, Zevrus wants me to be Cedeic's mate "but why?" The question slipped from my mouth before I could stop myself, Cedeic shook his head "I asked the same question, it's because Zevrus wanted me to see that there's still some good in humans -and that would be through you" I felt my eyes water, but I blinked the tears away and sniffed "and what about you?" He looked confused "me? What about me?" I tipped my chin towards him "do YOU want me as a mate regardless?" His face relaxed and he chuckled "Rain, let me tell you something" he scooted closer to me then looked me in the eyes "since the moment I heard you calling my name when you were in distress, something inside me clicked- and then your eyes and that pleading look you gave me when that bastard tried to rape you, I felt like.." he sighed and rubbed his face "how do I explain it?.." he talked to himself and murmured something before he focused on me again "I had the same feeling that I would've felt if my actual mate was in that situation"  his words shocked me and I stared at him wide eyed as he contiued "I felt rage, my wolf wanted to pounce and rip Jacks to shreads, I wanted to protect you and keep you under my arm" his eyes searched mine "do you know what I mean ?" I stayed quiet but nodded, he nodded back "I ignored that feeling, whenever I looked at you when you were asleep or napping around- the way you looked so fragile made things worse for me, because it agitated my wolf and made it harder for me to control him" he raised his hands and looked at them "whenever you are around, I control my wolf better, it seems that you keep him calm" I nodded again and closed my eyes, at that point I still didn't know what to say- Cedeic continued "when that fucker Dracus took you, my wolf was hurt- I never told this to anyone, but the whole time you were away, I couldn't summon my wolf, I couldn't shift Rain!" My lips parted and I looked at him with tears in my eyes "I don't know what to say" he shook his head "don't say anything yet, to answer your question - yes, I do want this regardless of  Zevrus' wish" I closed my eyes , my mind felt fuzzy and my heart swelled with feelings, Cedeic actually wants me. But then what about me? Do I want him?

I stood up and spoke without looking at him "I need some time to think" he stood up too "of course" then he pursued walking back towards the pack area "come now, we need to go back" I followed him. Both of us stayed silent the rest of the way back, and when we reached the pack area we seperated , Cedric had some pack business to do while I had to go back and maybe cry myself to sleep- we never spoke to each other again for the whole week .