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Chapter 6 - I'm Not Perfect

"Ugh I really don't get you!! Why can't you just leave her alone? She clearly dislikes you with a passion and yet you still flutter over like a moth drawn to a flame".

"Hm", a soft smile appeared on the Auburn's face.

"Well...it's hard to explain", she paused and thought on how to express her words. It seemed so simple to her, but when it came to explaining her thoughts and feelings to others she found it difficult.

Leaping up from the bench, she pranced back and forth to help her think. Her dress swayed gracefully from the gently breeze passing by and the sun bathed down on her auburn hair making it look red.

"Hmm I think I've got it", she finally beamed after some time and set down beside her friend again.

"So I'm seen as an idol yes?"

"Uhh ya of course", her friend gave her a confused look as to what that has to do with anything, "I kinda think that's why she hates you".

"Well now", the Auburn clapped her hands, "Idols are seen as perfect human beings in the public eye, they have the perfect skin, perfect hair, perfect body shape, perfect everything. At least that's what the public wants to see".

The female sitting beside her leaned back in her seat knowing this was going to take a while.

"Anyway", the other female blabbered not wanted to get off track. "Being told you're beautiful, amazing, etc, it feels nice, but after a while it gets tiring. People don't acually get to see the behind scenes of what us idols have to go through", she smiled sadly.

"We have to starve ourselves just to remain this perfect beautiful shape. We're sometimes forced to ware uncomfortable and revealing clothes. And even though we're seen as perfect human beings, the tiniest, smallest mistake or rumor could turn everything around so fast".

"But what does this have to do with Hailey?", her friend asked impatiently.

"Ahh right", the Auburn placed a strand of hair behind her ear. "When I first met Hayley she told me my smile was the fakest thing she every saw. It wasn't a lie, after having to fake it for so long it became a habit. Hayley is the kind of person that just speaks whatever comes to mind and what she mostly says is the honest truth. Yes she can be very rude about it sometimes, but for me it's a breath of fresh air".

"For years I've been seen as this perfect doll, but when I'm near Hayley, in a weird way I feel normal. She doesn't treat you like some goddess, she treats you like a normal human being. And sometimes when she points out my imperfections it makes me feel relieved".

"I am not perfect, I know that. And being called that makes me feel sick. But Hayley reminds me that I'm still me. I have flaws and I'm proud of them. I'm glad that I'm not perfect because I don't want to be perfect".

"I want to be me, I want to be Nova. And Hayley treats me as so". Nova glanced over at her friend and giggled at her expression.

"Well that was....deep".

"Why thank you", Nova bowed, "now let's go find our little ravenet. I want to see the look on her face from the meer sight of me".

"You're making that creepy smile again".

"Oh shut up".