I am She and I wonder.
I wonder how things in real-life work.
I wonder how people around me manage to do a lot of work.
I wonder a lot because I never give a moment to look around and anticipate how things occur.
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I used to be happy.
I used to be sad.
I used to be unsure.
And it was fine but not for long— never thought life will hit me this hard.
I never thought life will give me a lesson in a way that will hurt me a lot.
And now I wonder.
I wonder most of the time.
I wonder what will arise next.
I got it all bad and now I'm trying to figure out what should I do next.