I am She and I wonder.

I wonder how things in real-life work.

I wonder how people around me manage to do a lot of work.

I wonder a lot because I never give a moment to look around and anticipate how things occur.

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I used to be happy.

I used to be sad.

I used to be unsure.

And it was fine but not for long— never thought life will hit me this hard.

I never thought life will give me a lesson in a way that will hurt me a lot.

And now I wonder.

I wonder most of the time.

I wonder what will arise next.

I got it all bad and now I'm trying to figure out what should I do next.