I returned to my life, where there was only me, my world and also Acha.
I always try to eliminate traces of the girl's shadow, until I really refocus on the girl who is currently beside me. however, there's a bigger problem I can run into than having to think about that girl who doesn't necessarily belong to me.
A glimpse of my story, Acha and I are separated by a wall that will be very difficult, maybe even impossible for us to break. Acha and I live with different beliefs. We are of different religions. although it's actually not a benchmark for me.
"Well... Eid later, dad don't want to play at home?" he asked in a soft tone.
"Then how about your parents kick me out?"
"No... there's Acha, right... do you want it...?" he asked spoiled.
I just smiled at the spoiled behavior of my lover.
"Ok... later if your parents kick me out, I'll kick him back," I joked.
"Daddy .. ..," as usual I asked him to joke.
The night back, I spent my time playing games with friends who came to visit my boarding house.
"Feey... I have a female acquaintance, a pretty girl from Bandung. Can I bring her here or not?" asked Johan, starting with his jovial attitude.
"You'll regret it, Jo. What if a girl has a crush on me?" I said jokingly.
"Well, what can I do? Besides, I'm sure Feey, she'll have a crush on you. Because she's a person who doesn't look at handsome boys," she replied.
"Like a sissy, you say I'm handsome," I replied a little amused by his behavior.
"How? is it okay?" he asked again.
"Yeah... just take it. Very fussy," I said.
"I'll pick you up...,"
"Yes already ... there," I replied without regard to his behavior.
I live alone in a house rented by my family. This house is quite big and spacious. there are several rooms and rooms that make me lazy to clean them.
That's what caused me to let my friends go in and out of this house. I live alone anyway.
At 10:01 pm, the crazy Johan actually brought a beautiful girl with a curvaceous body to my house.
"Feey.. you know, Lisa," he said while introducing the girl.
Unashamedly, the girl reached out her hand to shake hands with me.
"Ferry,"
"Lisa," he said with a meaningful smile.
"I think I'm staying, Feey," said Johan after a few minutes of sitting with Lisa in the front seat.
"Whatever, you want that girl's monopoly?" I asked not caring at all.
John doesn't. answering my question, he just laughed meaningfully. And I understand the meaning of his laughter even though he doesn't say it.
It's not that I don't want to remind Johan of sin, I just don't want to meddle in other people's business. Even though I was actually aware that the woman he was carrying had been glancing at me with a meaningful look.
That night nothing seemed different, I really didn't care about what was in my house, maybe I was too late in playing my games to forget everything around me. Even I forgot Acca who had been trying to contact me.
I really have a hard time responding to other women who try to approach me, sometimes I respond to them just because I'm trying to win the deal I made with my friends, not because it's based on feelings of love that really come from my heart.
I will only commit to one heart, namely to Acca.
"What the heck?!" I snapped when Acca called me directly which broke the signal on my cell phone.
"Dad, it's really hard to get on the phone, mom has been trying to call dad, it's really hard to pick up mom's phone." He said angrily which pissed me off.
"What's wrong with dad anyways! Just stay at home, don't have to tell you every second!!" I snapped.
My lover was just silent hearing my screams.
"Besides, it's early in the morning, what are you trying to say this early in the morning. You better sleep, don't make people upset!!" I replied. And as usual he just obeyed what I said.
Acca already knows my bad habits, I don't like being bothered the most when I'm busy playing games, she also knows that I don't like being suspicious the most, but like other women, they like to continue the overthinking in their heads.
"Go back to sleep, don't think you're weird," I said, then kissed him virtually and went back to playing the game.
Morning approaches, the clock shows 05:00 am, and I just finished with the game I played all night.
creak...
I heard the back room door open, which I thought Johan had woken up from, and I was wrong. That's Lisa, the woman Johan brought last night.
"Hey.. you didn't sleep since last night?" he asked as he sat down on the sofa next to me.
"Where's John?" I asked without looking at the woman's face.
"Still sleeping," he replied, looking unconcerned.
"Oh..." I replied.
"Fey, you're handsome," he said.
"Don't call me Feey, I don't like that name being called by people who are not close to me," I replied.
"Don't you want to be close to me?" he asked.
I fell silent. Then looked at him.
Crazy girl, isn't she with Johan? How could he possibly ask me that.
"You're not with John are you?" I asked, slightly interested in our conversation.
"Just friends," he said.
Fu*k… Friends? I wonder what they did last night.
"You woke up didn't say yes," said Johan who suddenly came out of the room.
I'm not at all afraid that Johan misunderstood me. I already know how my friends think.
"Because you're so sound asleep, I'm too lazy to wake you up," he said.
"Alah… just tell me if you want to annoy Feey," he teased the girl.
Instead of defending herself, Lisa just smiled spoiledly at Johan.
Crazy girl.
Luckily it was the weekend, so I didn't have to hold back my sleep.
"Feey, I'll take Lisa home first, I'll buy her breakfast later," Johan said to me.
"Okay," I answered briefly, which had been holding back the weight of my drowsiness.
"Can I take you with me?" asked the crazy girl.
I felt like my eyes were about to jump when I heard the crazy girl's words.
"Don't sneeze too much, don't bother Feey either, she hasn't slept all night, don't bother," replied Johan who seemed fed up with the girl.
"You guys still want to argue or just go this way? I'm really sleepy because," I said, feeling like a victim of their quarrel.
"Come on, come on," said Johan, who was a little rough pulling his hand.
And I really don't really care.
Well…that's how my friendship is, I don't choose to make friends, I get along with everyone who even has a dark world. And what makes me confused is, why they always follow and follow my guidance.
Like I said, I always focus on one woman, even if there is a beautiful woman who manages to catch my eye, I won't be able to part with her who has been with me for a long time, but that doesn't mean I don't want to play.
I'm a man too right? Bastards and bastards are your attitude. But not for the heart, I will keep what I've been through, I'm just trying to take advantage of the situation that can be in my favor.
I don't remember how many girls I have used to be the guarantor of my life, I know this is wrong, but I view all of this as my fortune. Like I said earlier, I am a man.