You won't believe my odd little habit. during free time or holidays, I prefer to spend time by staying at home and playing games,
sometimes I want to hang out with my gang in front of the school, and even then if we have an appointment.
That day, Johan returned to my house after taking Lisa home.
"Damn ... he actually has a crush on you Feey," he said as he threw himself on my couch.
"Well...you're wrong, you like just about any girl. Just looking at her appearance, I already know that she's not a good girl," I replied without taking my phone off with the game there.
"Akh.. Bandung stuff, guys, city kids, that's the model," he replied, scratching his head.
"Here... food. I'll go home first, my mom will be angry too," he said as he said goodbye to go home.
Hearing that, my mood worsened. I don't care about my game rating going down because. The sensitive thing in me was touched by Johan's words.
Mamak, yes... I have one too. Unfortunately I'm not like Johan who can feel the character of a mother every day. there's something that makes me different from the other kids. Not without reason I live alone in this big enough house. And it's not for nothing that I have one of these introverted attitudes.
I managed to get rid of the drowsiness in my body after taking a shower and cleansed my body. Now my body feels very fresh.
knock..tok...
I heard a knock on the door, who came to visit in broad daylight like this?
I got up from my bed and rushed towards the exit which I had purposely locked.
crackle...
There was the sound of the door opening. and how I was surprised to see who it was that was standing at the door.
"Lisa!!"
"Hey...Feey...is it bothering you?" he asked. and this time his appearance was quite revealing.
"No, it's just that Johan has gone home," I said.
"I was looking for you. Not Johan," he said, rolling his eyes and embarrassed face. and really that expression does not deserve to be on his face.
"Why are you looking for me?" I asked completely confused.
"Em... no, I just want to play," he said.
"Can't you come in here?" he added which made me realize that earlier I hadn't offered him to come in.
"Sorry...sorry, I forgot. Come on in," I said. and he gladly came into my house.
"What do you want to drink, lis? I don't have anything because in the kitchen. You know, boy," I said, looking at him with an increasingly strange behavior.
"No need Feey, just sit here, accompany Lisa," he said as he pulled my hand to sit beside him.
"What's wrong, lis? You're not afraid of being caught by Johan," I said, now sitting right beside him.
"I don't like Johan, I like you Feey,"
he said shamelessly. Even so, I was still embarrassed because he confessed his feelings.
"Since our meeting last night, Lisa really can't forget you. Lisa wants to be close to you," he said now with his hand holding mine.
no matter how strong i bind a commitment, i'm still a man,
The girl is now looking at me intensely, with a body that is getting closer and closer to me. In the end, the lips with the strawberry smell stick thinly on my lips.
Slowly but surely, my body felt hot, and it felt like I was losing control of the bait that was now in front of me.
we crushed each other and kissed each other greedily, my hands shrewdly touched the body which was handed down by the owner.
My hands freely roamed the body, so that just as I was about to let go of his final defense, my memories flashed back. I remember my mother and younger sister. and immediately I woke up from the body that I had been overlapping with lust.
"Why honey? why stop?" he asked, looking already frantic with his lust.
"Put your clothes on Lisa, I don't want to see you like that," I said, quickly putting my clothes on and leaving her in the room.
I'm really frustrated with what I'm doing. I almost crossed my limit. I almost ruined a woman I had absolutely no intention of having.
" Dear, are you ok?" he said touching my cheek as soon as he found me in the living room.
"You're back, I don't want to see you again. I don't like girls like you Lisa, a girl who can't keep her self-respect at all. And one more thing, I already have a boyfriend, and I don't want to hurt my girlfriend," I said firmly.
There was disappointment in Lisa's expression, I don't know how big the hopes were in her mind. it's just that I understand that Lisa is not the right girl for me.
tring... tring...
Shortly after Lisa came home, Acca called me.
"Yes ma'am..."
"Well... you got news, if the school has a recruitment team from a big company. And it's Dad's department, I'll come with you..." he asked.
"You know where?"
"From the student council room, OK," he said, who happened to be one of the student council administrators.
"I'll think about it first... I don't want to just take it away,"
"Come on, well... instead of my father working so unclear," he said, which made me a little offended.
"What do you mean by saying that?" I said displeased.
"Mom just wants to tell dad, so dad won't have any trouble,"
"I know your family is much luckier than my family cha, but you shouldn't talk like that," I said harshly.
"I'm sorry mom and dad. Mom just doesn't want dad to work as a wedding decorator first," he explained.
"Feey doesn't know that mom can't appreciate this. Why did Dad just find out about mom's attitude like this, huh?" I asked, already ignited by emotion.
"I'm sorry mom and dad," he said.
"Hmm... I want to be alone Cha, sorry," I said and ended the conversation.
I always keep my mouth so as not to hurt other people. and I don't know if I don't get it from the people around me.
Sometimes good deeds will not receive good rewards from other people. things I understand now and I will study them.
maybe today is full of rebukes that can strengthen me. and of course, I'll deal with them one by one so it won't be a problem for me.