Days passed. My death was approaching me. Joe and Nikita took me out for dinner. I didn't wanted anyone to look at me with sympathy. My whole life I have lived like that. I had my mom who loved me a lot, but god took her away. I lost my real dad when I was too younger. Even my step dad, although I never regarded him as my father he also passed away. The man I loved a lot used me, broke me several times destroyed me but never loved me back. I had Joe and Nikita but for a period we got separated. And now god wants me to get separated from everyone. I don't remember any days that I would have smiled freely. I don't remember myself feeling cared by someone. I don't remember myself enjoying ever in my life. Even my fate has a bad luck …no wait worst luck. I am the person who was borned to suffer. We got the table. Nikita had a call so she excused us and went out to get the call. James coincidently came to the same resto. He saw me and Joe sitting together. As expected he thought I got together with him. He went without saying anything. On the other side James mom always kept wondering if I was home with James. She always asked him to look for me and that she wanted me back. She stopped taking medicines. She stopped eating. James was too much agitated. He was confused what to do and what to not. He wouldn't get a perfect woman who would look after his mom. They would either work for money and even sometimes stole things from the house. He wasn't getting maids that would satisfy him with work. Next day was his birthday. He said, "Let's see if she (Rihanna )really thinks she liked me she will celebrated my this birthday as well . If not I'll catch her and make her say that all she did was with purpose and now that she can't achieve her things she left us. Yes I'll go to her tomorrow and reveal the truth." As always, I knew it's his birthday tomorrow, I asked Nikita to bring some decor material. As these days I completely stopped going out. Nikita brought me the things I asked for. I spent each second thinking about James, our good memories, the day he whispered in my ear that he likes me.
I decorated my room. As I was on my medicines I wasn't able to celebrate birthday at exact 12.00 but I still managed to do that. Next morning I saw Joe talking to someone in a loud voice seemed like he was arguing with someone. Suddenly the door of my room opened, and I was shocked to see he was none other than James.
James was more shocked to see me. Because when he saw me earlier I was a way more beautiful, but now I was bald. Because of cancer I lost my hairs. He was shocked to see the decoration too. Joe immediately took him out of the room. They had a fight. James was in a shock. His mind went completely blank. He asked Joe what is going on? Joe explained him everything, now that he saw me like this. James never expected that something like this would happen. He ran and came to me. Hold my hands and said, "How many days do you have?" I didn't wanted him to see me like this. I said, "I have already accepted the defeat. I won't bother you anymore." I asked him to stay away from me and live continue living his life with the one he loves. He said, "Wait. Whom are you talking about?"
I said, "Does it matter now? I already saw you and Jiance on airport. She proposed you, didn't she?"
James said, "Are you serious? Do you really think I like her?
I made her clear at that time itself that I don't like her, and she resigned the same day. We don't have anything to do with each other."
I said, "So? Why are you explaining to me? I am just a maid and assistant to you and not your wife. Why are you explaining."
James said, "I want you to be."
I asked, "What?"
He suddenly hugged me and started crying.
He said, "I am sorry Rihanna I am really sorry. I don't know what to do. If you are doing this because you want to make me feel sorry and you don't have to do this. Just tell me and I'll be yours. Tell me this isn't true. Such kind of jokes aren't good Rihanna."
I said, "Joke? My full life has been joke. I am a joke myself. Why do you think I can joke anymore? The joke you are feeling now is what I exactly felt when my stepdad was found hanging with the note and the confession of yours." James said, "I …. I …. don't know what to say. So you are saying that everything is true? Ohh my god. Please god please. I don't want to waste any more time. Let's get married"
I said, "Stop doing this James. We have played a long way. You don't have to do this to yourself. Go and live your life. Now I don't have anything to give you. So stop saying such things. I don't have any more dads or any more companies or any house. Just ask me if you want something. I won't be a joke to you now."
James said, "Seriously you think I am asking you to marry me because you think I want something from you?
Okay I know I made you think like this. I know I am responsible for your situation. But trust me Rihanna, I regret it a lot. I just don't know what to do. I have always liked you since the day one I saw you. Till today my love for you has always been increasing every day. Truth is just that, I never wanted to accept that because of your dad. I was in the revenge mood and never saw anything else behind that. I never realised how much I liked you. The more I hurt you the more I suffered. Now that you all are suddenly telling me that you are going to die in few days, I am going nuts. I don't know from where to start and where to end."
I didn't know either I should be happy or sad. Happy because I finally know that he likes me back and sad to know I won't survive and it's too late now.
I said, "Okay, Go home."
James said, "What? Are you going to answer me this? Just let's get married now and here itself. I don't want to waste any more time."
I said, "You never cared when I had time. Now you care but I don't have time. Life is so ruthless. You have a bright future ahead. Control the company well and live happily without considering me as a part of your life anymore just as you did ago. It won't affect you a lot. You are already habitual. And about me… I have always lived like that. You never cared and continue to do so."
James said, "Look Rihanna please Rihanna please, come back home with me. We will do everything to get you back. I won't let you go. Trust me I'll find the best doctor in the world to look after you. Don't leave me I am begging you. When I used to hurt you even I would feel the pain. I was more hurt to see you getting hurt like that. But I was blind that I didn't valued your love. I regret my decisions that I made. I wish we would go back to where we met first. And I wish I would be the first one to ask you out. I wish we would have started dating the initial days we met. God is punishing you because of me. Deep inside even I wanted to talk nicely to you, wanted to celebrate my every birthday with you. You matter a lot to me. When I got drunk each and every word, I said was true. I even appointed Jiance to get your attention, but that turned out to misunderstanding. You are my first and the only love. I have never had any other girl in my life before you. You taught me what love is. And now you can't leave me just like that. I don't want to waste any more time. I want to live with you just like other couples do. I want to experience what love is. I swear if something will happen to you, I won't be able to live.
Both of us kept crying until we accepted the truth. I agreed to marry him.