I'm tired of this place, why am I even here? Sometimes I feel like....I don't belong here. The world is like a huge puzzle with billions of pieces,so if you're unable to fit anywhere, don't think that you're useless or you're not needed, it just means that you're fitting yourself in the wrong place, you are definitely needed but you're needed somewhere else. So, don't waste your time to forcefully make your way in that place where you don't belong.
This is what I believe. If people around me think I'm useless, then someone else, somewhere else...needs me. I know it's been 15 years already, but still, I'm not able to find that place where I belong.
And during some quiet nights, I feel like...there's no one I can relate to.…no one with whom I can share all my pain...?
As I grew up, people started moving farther away from me...why? I came to a point in my life where I questioned myself, "There must be something wrong with me....that's why…everyone just....leaves me behind?"
Am I weak?
Will I never be able to stand for myself?
NO!
I HAVE TO GO!!!
I have to go on a journey to change my destiny, I'm me, and I have the right to write the story of my life!!! F#*k fate!!
YES KATE!!!! GO!!! YOU'RE THE BEST!!!
SO WHAT IF YOU DON'T HAVE ANY TALENT NOW? YOU SURELY ARE BORN WITH SOMETHING SPECIAL IN YOU, IT'S JUST THAT IT'S NOT READY TO SHOW EVERYONE YET, BUT IT'D DEFINITELY THERE,
BECAUSE-
I KNOW I'M CAPABLE OF AMAZING THINGS!!!!
JUST WAIT, BRANDON JOHNSON, YOU ASS!!!! I'LL BECOME STRONGER, AND YOU'LL BE THE VERY FIRST PERSON, TO TASTE MY STRENGTH!!!
I'LL BREAK YOUR JAW!!!
And so...I MUST GO, THE GYM NEEDS ME!!
"Kate? Where are you going? It's 8:15 P.M." Mom said.
"Just somewhere, mom, I'll be right back."
SLAM!
'I know what to do, the incident at that shed today opened my eyes, all I need is to be...'
When I finally reached the playground, I rushed towards the monkey bars
'CALISTHENICS! This is the stuff that's gonna save me now, 'cause all I need is to be PHYSICALLY STRONG so that I can punch him next time he tries something funny!'
"Okay....I've never done it, but let's try" I jumped to reach the monkey bar.
Then I tried to pull my body upwards "...UGH...OH! THIS STUFF IS HARD!!! BUT WHEN THEY DO IT ON THE T.V. IT LOOKS SO EASY!!!"I jumped down again.
Have you ever had that awkward moment when you're wearing Nike and you can't do it? 'Cause I just had it. The good news is no one is around to witness this, the bad news is....
I'M SO NOT MADE FOR THIS!!!!
BUT NO!!! THAT DREAM!!!! THAT DREAM IS NOT FAR AWAY!!!
"Huff Huff! Lemme try again." Then, I jumped towards the pole again. Then I tried to push my body upwards and suddenly I DID IT!
But...did I just get lighter?? I looked down to find a guy who looked around my age and HE was holding my waist, raising me up in the air like dad used to do when I was 5.
"Unn....Excuse me dude, but I'm not a kid, are you trying to be my father?"I said.
"*Laughs* You surely are a funny one." he said.
"Aa...I don't get that a lot." I said.
"Really?" he said with a smile.
"....when will you leave my waist? Please put me down."
"But…you look better like this?" he said.
"Huh?"
"I'm just kidding." he said as he left my waist. I finally jumped on the ground.
"So....what are you doing? Is it your first time doing bars?" he said.
"....Yeah, I know, I'm left with so many first times for so many things, I know I'm the worst, I know I'm just making fun of myself doing all this, I'm sorry I've never dated a girl, and I'm sorry I've never watched porn and I'm so sorry for breathing the same air as you."
"...Oh.…kay...In short, you don't know how to do it and you're single." he said.
"....Are you mocking me?"
"*Laugh* No, of course not, it's not your fault you're single in fact loneliness adds beauty to life. It puts a special burn on sunsets and makes night air smell better."
"....are you some kind of philosopher?"
"Ha ha, no, I'm just an athlete."
"Athlete? So, you're good at stuff like these bars?"
"Oh, that's a piece of cake." he said.
"You're saying that because you're good at it, I've never done it before." I said.
"But, that's easy, you'll be able to learn it if you put your heart to it, beginnings are easy, the thing is to finish the race."
"You're too positive for some reason."
"Well, there is light after every tunnel, don't you believe in that view point?"
"I stopped waiting for the life at the end of the tunnel and lit that b#*ch up myself."
"*laughs*damn...you're interesting"
"....You're weird....If you think I'm interesting, then there's something wrong with your head." I said.
"Then, I prefer being weird." he said with a smile.
"*sigh*"
I surely met someone with a troublesome personality.
"Want me to help?" he said.
"With what?" I said.
"This thing." he said pointing towards the monkey bars. "There's a trick how you do it, you can't just grab it and throw your body up"
"Really? I didn't know!" I said with an air of sarcasm.
Then, he jumped to reach the bar. He did a triple somersault and landed with an amazing back flip.
"Here? See, all you need is a simple trick to do it." he said.
".....Wow" I said LITERALLY GAPING at him.
"*laughs* Right?" he said.
"Did you learn it by yourself?" I said.
"Yes, by internet! This is a natural talent in a way. AH! I FORGOT!! I've got some errands to run!" he said "I was on my way when I saw you practicing here, I just toppled here to give you a hand.I need to go now or mom'll kill me."
"...Yes"
"Jaden." he said.
"Huh?"
"My name, it's Jaden Smith, and you?"
"I'm....Kate Roberts"
"Kate, huh? That's a good name, I like it."
"What do you mean?"
"Gotta go now!! Oh and yes, Kate!"
"Yes?"
"Enjoy life, there's plenty of time left to be dead."
I just stood there, staring at the place where he was standing a moment ago
"....Idiot" I said and walked back home.
Next morning
"Kate!! You're not up already? You didn't even wake me up today!!! Mom is calling for breakfast! KATE!!" Anna said as she barged into my room even without knocking!
Yeah, I know she's a shameless b#*ch!
"What are you doing? Why are you lying on your bed as if you're half dead." she said as she glared at me.
"Don't mind me, I'm just lying here trying to figure out which muscle is not sore right now...." I said.
"HUH? WHAT DOES THAT-OMG!!!...YOU WATCHED THAT DVD??!!!" She said, covering her evil grin.
"NO! I just....did some exercise last night." I said as I got up.
"Oh....which kind of exercise??" She asked intervening her finger.
"It's nothing what you think it is, it has something to do with a pole."
"Which? The one between your legs or-"
"MOM!! ANNA IS-"
"-Jeez! I was just teasing you! What a whip! That's not sexy at all!! Now go have your breakfast!!!"
"IT WAS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE SEXY!!!!" I shouted.
"Kate!!! Your school bus is outside!! What are you doing?" Mom shouted from the kitchen.
"AH! Shit!! I haven't even packed my bag yet!!!" I desperately looked here and there for a pair of socks, my mathematics and chemistry book, my biology homework and a packet of potato chips, all at the same time.They were all lying on my bed with some cooking magazines and some other stuff.
Multitasking, you know, the lifeline of a teenager.
At last, I was so confused with my mother shouting at me in the background and random stuff thrown by me on my bed on which I was sleeping for the past 3 days (I just realized that) that I just grabbed my bed sheet and upturned it into my bag.
"There, this is called efficiency!"
Then, I ran towards my school bus.
At school
"Kya!!! Brandon!!! Good morning~"
"Did you watch that show Brandon?"
"Brandon, are you free after school today?"
HUH!!! THIS NOISE!!! These are all the sounds I hear from my neighboring class as soon as I enter my class, and the reason for it is...
YOU'VE GOT IT, BRANDON JOHNSON THAT-
THROB!!!
UGH!!!! AND CURRENTLY, I'M COMPLETELY SORE, THANKS TO THAT SMALL EXERCISE I DID LAST NIGHT!!! HEY, THAT WAS NOT SUCH AN INTENSE EXERCISE THAT IT'S GOTTEN ME LIKE THIS!! I JUST PULLED UP MY BODY WEIGHT ON A BAR!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE I CAN'T PICK UP MY OWN BODY WEIGHT!!!
It's better to read something, where is that cooking magazine??
I ruffled some stuff in my bag when I came across the most horrific thought...
My face took all colors ranging from red, green, blue until it finally turned white....
One question:
I threw that DVD on my bed yesterday, right?
Then, today morning, I simply put everything on my bed sheet in my bag and now I have it with me....
THAT PORN DVD IN MY BAG AT SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-To be continued