I kept thinking of the incident that happened that fateful day,if it was staged or it was sincerely an accident.still I felt uneasy and slightly confused.i sighed,lying my bed,staring at my white colored ceiling as if it would provide answers to all the questions that were plaguing my mind.
I couldn't forget that night either as tears pooled In my eyes, kilowanje had kissed and pulled back saying it was a mistake and just a moment of weakness thing.He said he only saw me as a friend and nothing else.
I had cried bitterly in the privacy of my locked room that night.i was feeling so much for him..emotions that made me so confused and feeling empty..
I'd try to occupy my mind with something else but it keeps wandering back to him.
since that night I didn't see him often only during our tutorial days and he always acted cold and aloof torwards me.
I felt the tears again ,I wiped them and sat up,I needed to find something to take my mind off him.
my eyes trailed to the oval white clock on the wall,it was 2:30am..I stood up and left the comfort of my room.
The lights in the sitting room were switched off causing the room to be covered in darkness only the full moon light from the unclosed windows acted as a source of natural light.
I walked to the kitchen to get myself a cup of water,instead I stood In the darkness of the kitchen not even attempting to switch on the lights.
Then I began hear low hushed voices talking,I slightly peeped through the window,my eyes widened when I saw Kilowanje standing with Mrs Thandeka in a white short transparent nightdress.
"where you acting all close with that little girl to make me jealous?".I pressed my palms to my mouth to stop me from making any noise.
"There is and there was nothing between us Thandeka,so stop acting all bossy.im warning you stay away from lerato.i took what happened as a mistake, if anything happens to her again even the slightest mistake,I'll make sure you pay".I shivered hearing the cold and deadly way he had threatened Mrs.Thandeka.
kilowanje turned to leave but I was shocked when Mrs Thandeka pulled him back and grabbed him in a very intimate hug.what was happening here..!?I thought in absolute surprise as Mrs.Thandeka's voice turned to pleading."kilowanje,please why are you doing this to me?you know I love you and I know you feel the same way about me too.i know you aren't interested in that girl so please stop using her to make me jealous.
I was waiting,my heart beating to hear kilowanje's response but my quivering hand pushed the glass cup on the counter close to me and it shattered to the floor with a loud noise.
They both turned to my window direction,I gasped and I immediately ran upstairs to my room before they'll come inside.
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I was avoiding Mrs Thandeka and kilowanje since that night,I couldn't get the words and picture out of my head,was kilowanje in love with his stepmother?Did they have anything to do with each other in the past?
i knew there was nothing between me and kilowanje but I really felt betrayed and depressed.
I had stopped our lessons and he never even bothered to ask me if I was okay, was this how it felt to love and hate a person?.
I needed to leave this house for few hours,it was a Saturday evening and my emotions were getting the best of me.
I took the cellphone my mother had gifted me and I called the only friend I had,Grace.
I told her I needed to leave the house and had no idea where I'll go and she quickly responded she was coming to get me,I should get dressed.
I searched through my wardrobe,changing outfits multiple times and I finally settled with a tight pair of light blue jeans that curved my body perfectly and a red elastic cowl necked top,my hair was made into beautiful black locks.
I was grateful I saw no one downstairs as I left the manor,Grace was already waiting at the gate front with a flashy gold Lexus.
"wow...whose the owner of this?"I asked as I entered the passenger seat.
she scoffed and stared at me sassily."Bitch...my parents are loaded too".I laughed feeling much better and free as she revved up the car eingine to make dramatic noises as we sped off.
it was already dark when Grace pulled over at the parking lot of a red bricked building that was designed with neon lights in a garish way and a post with lights that read "Ecstasy club".I gasped,"we're at a night club?".
"seems it's your first time going to a club, we're eighteen so it's legal".
Grace said,from her statement I knew this wasn't the first time she was entering a club neither will it be the last time.
I came out the car and refused to follow her."I really think this isn't a good idea".she grabbed my hand and pulled me with her.
"Girl you need to loosen up,first time for everything".she replied as we walked to the club's entrance ,few people dressed provocatively were flashing their ID's to two hefty bouncers stationed at the entrance.
Grace flashed them her id and they allowed us in,I couldn't help but feel this was a really bad idea.