I was running, running away from the light that burns me, the light of truth, the reality, the reality and the truth about me, no, it is me, I hate it, I can't face myself, why is that? Why am I so afraid? Afraid of the fact of who I am. In the never ending darkness that I used to know and love, a wall I discovered, so everything really do not lasts forever, not even the infinite darkness that I created to comfort myself. The light came closer and closer, scaring me in every millimetre it reached me, I closed my eyes and say the word "sorry," to myself and face the light. There was an angelic smile. . . An angel? No! T-that's me! And the one beside me is. . . It's no human. . . What is it?. The smiling me that I'm staring at locked eyes with me, I flinched when the smile vanished like a blink of an eye and be replaced by a gloomy frown, the being beside me also became a dark figure.
" I heard you're afraid of clowns" it spok- WHAT?!
" HELL NO!"
I raised, now sitting on a bed? Huh? A bed? Why am I on a bed when I was just in a cage not too long ago. . .
" Should a Princess really be saying such words?" Nao, sitting on an armchair, wearing a bathrobe said after glancing at me.
" I'm no Princess, I'm a King!"
". . . Then I will be your Queen"
" Huh? What? " Did I hear him right? He'll be the Queen and I'll be his King? Was that another unconscious proposal of his? That's creepy!
" Nothing. . ." He answered then mumbled quite a long thing again.
" What was that?" I asked one more time.
". . . If that is all what it takes for ~~~~ to be ~~~~, then be it" he answered with freaking blanks!. " Do you want to marry me?" He asked to change the subject!.
" Of course!"
Oh shoot! Was that a little too enthusiastic? Well, it can't be helped, my life depends on it. But I guess I can find a substitute. . . But I do think that he's enough. . .? WEIRD!
" I want to tell you a secret, will you listen?" He asked and closed the thick book he's reading, giving me an uncomfortable feeling just by seeing his serious expression.
" What is it?" I asked and laid back to the comfortable bed. It's too soft and minty so I can't help but feel relaxed.
" I used you. I'm sorry, will you still marry a man like me?"
. . . What's with that?
" ? Yes." I answered. He was taken aback, probably surprised from my answer.
" Why? I'm a man with no dignity for using a girl!" He stood up as he answer. Why's he mad? Dude, I should be the one to get mad! Also, that's demeaning.
" Say that again if you can explain to me what dignity is."
" Isn't it the quality or state of being worthy?" He answered.
" You really are a man with no dignity, if I were you, I wouldn't have answered"
" I . . . Cannot tell whether you tricked me with that. . ." He looked at me cluelessly. . . well, that's to be expected, only crazy people can understand a crazy person.
" Idiot." I said.
" Just like you." He retorted.
WHAT'S THAT?! YOU PICKING A FIGHT?!
I tried glaring, but with his blue fiercely eyes staring straight at me, I can't help but avert, as if I'm getting myself swayed in. Seriously, why am I the one retreating?
Now that I think about it, weren't I suppose to be at-
" Is crying your specialty? Even while sleeping, you cry as though you're being bullied" He said, "Let's sleep some more." he added and patted the side of the bed, asking me to lay down there with him. Completely changing the topic from before!.
" Sleep some more? Aren't you busy? You are the Crown Prince of this island, are you not?" I asked.
" . . . You hate me that much? Going outside only means danger anyway, sleeping all day long is better, besides, all I do out there is sign a few papers then survive assassinations or deliver a few speeches"
" Assassinations? . . . whoa~! that seriously sounds like one of the famous plot in stories." I said as I hammer my hand with the other.
" Why does it feel like you want to witness that happen to me?" He asked. Making me speechless, totally accurate!
" Before that, would you like to listen to my story, just a request before I die." He said, closing his eyes and letting tears fall. I just watched it fall, no feeling, no nothing at all! Those tears are fake!
" Ohhh~ What? Your parents have an affair, you were born because of that, then you were chosen to be the next King because of your 'talent', angering your younger brother whose the son of the King and the Queen? Is that it?" I said in a joking manner, well, can't deny that that's another one of the famous problem of the people with power.
" H. . . . . How did you know?" He asked, still wearing a devil-may-care eyes, his brows were the only ones that gave him off (always). " I was going to tell you a story about how the members of my family hates me, it appears that you already know. . . Talking about which, just like them, do you hate me?" he asked, pretending to be a vulnerable prey infront of an omnivore. Not even a carnivore at that. Where's your dignity?
Thinking about how to answer that question, I don't really hate him to the core, I could say it's just a bit. . . annoying but not 'hate'
" I guess I like you" I answered.
" Is that so? Will you bear my child then?"
" Of cour- WHAT?!! YOU OUTTA YOUR MIND!! LET GO OF ME!!!" I shouted as I grip strongly to the side of the glass window, trying to continue to commit suicide with Nao pulling me back to the room as i still persistently pull myself back out. It didn't even took me a second to go by the window, how the heck did this guy follow?!
" Not a chance, after your confession? How can I ever let you go now?"
" A-a-a-a-a-a-a-a a confession? N-no! those are my last words!!"