I tried to act as if it didn't matter to me,but I knew that he wasn't buying my tough act. Still, I tried to maintain the facade and said nonchalantly, "So, is this what's been bothering you?".
He looked at me and smiled ruefully,"Yes and no". I was confused at his answer and waited for him to continue.
"I was thinking if Alyssa knows about you being pregnant with Roy's child. The Fullers' are good friends of mine and I have known her since young. I just don't think Alyssa would do anything to break up someone's relationship. The Alyssa I knew,could never be a home wrecker",he said.
So,he had been worried about Alyssa this whole time, I thought, and felt a bit hurt that he was thinking about her this whole time. "Don't worry, I don't think she knew about my existence. She is definitely not a home wrecker",I lied and turned to leave, when he held my wrist and said,"I didn't mean it that way".
He ruffled his hair and expressed helplessly,"Look, I'm not good in expressing my emotions. Alyssa is like a sister to me, and obviously, I don't want her to be associated as some home wrecker. That would bring so much pain and shame to her parents".
It still hurt that he was defending her and though I knew I was being irrational to get hurt because he and I were just friends, I still felt that he defending Alyssa was like a betrayal.
"Joshua, you don't have to think too much into all of this. Anything between Roy and I was over the day he told me to abort my child. If he's happy with Alyssa, they have my blessing. I don't intend to create any drama in their lives",I said and left him standing alone in his garden.
I wasn't going to give him or anyone the satisfaction of seeing me helpless. I was going to be my own knight and save myself.
I shut the door to my room and went to the bed to lie down. I was already tired and rubbed my stomach, as if trying to find some sort of connection with my baby and fell asleep.
When I woke up next, it was already the next morning and saw that Zeke had sent me a text message saying that he would be meeting the clients today,so I sent back a reply wishing him the best of luck.
I freshened myself up and went to cook something for breakfast. Lately, life seemed to be all about eating and sleeping. I went to the kitchen and started baking some blueberry muffins, and made egg sandwiches for all of us.
Gabby and Aurora came in and took their seats at the table and I gave them the sandwiches I had made, and went to check on my first batch of muffins which were left cooling on the rack. I took them and placed it in the centre,and they immediately started gobbling down the muffins.
"So,could you gain any insight to Mcdreamy's sour mood last night?",Gabby asked and I paused,and replied,"Alyssa is Mrs. Fuller's daughter".
I looked up to the both of them, but it seemed like they had already connected the dots as well, so I continued,"Joshua is worried that Alyssa might be connected as a home wrecker, which would hurt the sentiments of the Fullers".
"But she is a home wrecker right? Even though Roy is not an angel himself",Aurora said, and I shrugged. "I'm sorry love. I thought he was better than this",Gabby said and I smiled at them as I replied,"It doesn't matter. There is nothing between Roy and I so the question of home wrecker doesn't even arise".
Joshua came down as well, and sat down in his regular seat. I didn't want to make him feel like I was ungrateful, so I passed him the sandwiches and the muffins to him as well,and he took them.
"Gabby and I are going out for some works. We'll see you guys in the evening",Aurora told us and I nodded.
"Issy, I'm sorry about last night. I shouldn't have said those things to you,making me sound insensitive to your feelings",he said after Gabby and Aurora had left.
"I understand that you don't want Alyssa's image to be ruined, and I can only say that I'm not so petty. They hurt me before but now I'm way over it. If anything, I was the foolish one. So the question of labelling her as a home wrecker doesn't even arise",I said to him and went on to clean the dishes.
I didn't even realize when he came behind me, and said,"Issy, I don't want to hurt you and I really didn't mean to sound insensitive. I'm really sorry".
"Joshua, you don't have to say sorry. I was a bit hurt but that was silly of me. Its nothing you need to be sorry about", I told him and he tried to search my face, as if trying to ascertain that I meant what I was saying,so I smiled at him and added,"Don't worry Joshua. Its all water under the bridge now", and he smiled back at that.