Briar Nightingale watched her husband smash things for the next one hour as she knitted quietly.
She knew stopping it was unnecessary, stopping it would possibly end with a blow to the head because he was 'blinded by his rage' and a soft 'sorry and kiss on the lips'
Besides, it was good to release yourself once in a while (doing good things and not smashing furniture) but Briar had realised each time it happened that it meant new furniture and who in the world refused such marvelous offers from the Universe?
"Who does he think he is?!"
Briar shrugged, he did not seem like a bad person to her and Jordan always started it.
Ever since they had met, he always initiated the fights.
Then as a teenager, she had liked the whole bad boy persona, until they got married and now it just irked her.
"I would...."
"Don't you dare touch that Queen anne's lace on that chair" She said softly, eyes still on the knit "Or you'd sleep outside, and no amount of berries you hunt down for me in the forest would make me change my mind"
She heard him sigh, softly, just as she had said hers, and walked to her now sitting on the ground "Look at me"
Briar did not.
"Briar....."
"I am a very busy female at the moment"
His hand now gripped into hers and squeezed it a bit, and as the pain swelled to her brain, Briar was sure he had left a bruise but she looked at him "You're hurting me Jordan"
His grip slowly left hers, his brown eyes welling in sadness "He... Humiliated me and you did nothing"
"Darling" She said slowly "If I had said something and I was bleeding too, who would calm you down?"
Jordan seemed to think about it a little as Briars hand slowly moved to his scar.
He winced at first but did not move away, as her thumb brushed on it "My darling, my sweet sweet darling"
Jordan's eyes began to close as he leaned more into her hand.
Slowly, Briar laid down the thing she been knitting next to her on the couch and put his head on her laps as she began to play with his hair "The demons hurt you so much, don't they?"
Jordan seemed to whimper "I'm so sorry"
She hushed him "It's not your fault"
It was HIS, but she did not want him broken now. He would cry and get her hands wet and she would not knit properly anymore.
"She just gets me so mad....."
Briar sighed "Raven is only a child"
"A spoilt one"
So says the rotten one on my laps.
"I heard that"Jordan said and to Briars happiness, he was smiling a bit at it.
"And... And i was supposed to be Alpha, before the...." He seemed to pause there "I promised you so much Briar. I promised you..."
Briar sighed "But I'm contented. I'm happy, all I want is you. Do you not understand?"
His head slowly began to rise from her laps as he stared at her "How can you want a country when I can give you the world?"
"The world isn't yours....."
"It should be mine!" He suddenly snapped.
Briar looked away, feeling tears prickle at the back of her eyes.
"Oh sweetheart, I don't mean to shout"
I don't mean to hit you.
I don't mean to slam you into the wall.
I don't mean to force you into wanting me.
"I'm so sorry"
It would never happen again.
His hands brushed her face, cleaning the little tears that had managed to slip down "I just..... I just think you deserve more"
"Don't make it about me" She slowly said "It's always about you. You just want me to support you but I won't"
His eyes flashed there "Ungrateful"
The slap had come and she had expected it, so it had not hurt too much but the blood now filling her lips made her feel uneasy.
She heard him hiss slowly, as he now came closer "You.... You push me"
She let out the first sob as she tried to get away.
But he ignored it.
His hands held her closer, as he buried his face into her neck "I just love you so much. I love you so very much and it's so hard, it's so hard that you..."
Let me go you animal! Please...
"I can read your thoughts sweetheart" He said slowly, threateningly into her ear "Surely, you cannot think of leaving me. I marked you"
"I can reject you"
He snickered "And go where? Your family died with mine. I'm all that you have left, and no one would believe I hurt you, because I know that's what you'd say. If you could just be a good girl...."
Damn you!
"Briar" He sounded pissed now "Stop behaving like a child"
She sobbed "God, let me go"
"Oh Princess" He said, now cupping her cheeks as he looked into her eyes "I've lost so much, you know. You're the only thing I have. How can you also want to leave me? Don't you have a heart right here in your beautiful body? Stop this madness"
His hands were on her left breast now and she swatted away.
She had expected him to get mad, but all he did was grin "Rough now huh? You amaze me my love"
His face now grabbed hers and began to kiss it roughly.
She wanted to fight it, because at first she couldn't breathe, it felt like he was sucking her remaining life force.
But the feeling came.
The feeling of oneness, the feeling of peace and quiet....
The feeling of not being alone.
Her hands found itself under his shirt as he suddenly pulled away, now chuckling and pushing back strands of her brown hair behind her ear "We're not so different Briar. You and I. We both are abandoned and we both complete each other. Yes, you are not as blood thirsty as I can be but you're the drug that keeps me from breaking as I am the customer that gives you some sort of importance because I always keep coming back for you. You should be grateful Dove"
Briar only sobbed.
He pulled her back into his arms as she cried into his neck "There, there. You're never leaving me. Just keep it in mind. Wherever you go, I'd find you, because I love you, okay?"