The trepid feeling in my gut worsened as I realized the gravity of the situation. The cold flickering thing at the bottom of my heart reminded me just how bad this was. My blood racing, heart pumping so hard I could hear it in my ears. This is it, I saw my life flash right in front of me.
------EARLIER-------
Me and my boyfriend, Sebastian had gone to a party. Yes, I snuck out. There's no way some people would let me leave the house, especially at such a late hour. Anyway, my gut said trouble, my heart said adventure. And even though I felt monism*, it was okay with me. He helped me jump down from my window and we made a run for his mustang. With a rev of the engine, we zoomed off.
The feel of the wind in my hair, my clothes, my skin, it set off something. Made me feel like I was made for the wind, skies. For a while it set my nerves, calmed me down. I am shy so I don't usually go to gatherings like these. I would rather be home but Sebastian being him convinced me to escape and tag along. I had enlightenment, something was going to happen but for the sake of being cool, I stayed quiet. Thanks to the wind, I felt like soaring high up, so high but the dope that was the wind suddenly extinguished and my anguish returned.
"We are here." said Sebastian with a wolfish grin. He pulled over at the side of the road and jumped out. I swerved my head around looking for any life form but I was greeted by the biting cold wind and silence. Strange! The wind from the car drive was warm, why is this one cold?
"Don't tell me you're chickening out now, princess? "he said, gruffly making me feel even smaller than I already was. Now, I am 5"4, pretty short compared to Sebastian's 6"2. I look really petite in front of him. Zelda once said that our height difference isn't cute. It's more aggressive, domineering like a master and his slave. That's why she doesn't like him. Though I am not that close with her, at least she can be there for a second opinion.
A scrunch of leaves and a snap of a branch at the side startled me from my thoughts. I realized that at some point, I had followed him to the forests. The creepers reminded me of ghouls that would come out at night. We had some distance between us but because of how freakish the forest looked, I immediately cleared up the gap.
We walked on in silence. One couldn't tell we were dating due to how we acted. Like strangers, and like we had some distance between us. A master servant kind. Did I do this, allow him to have so much power over me? So frustrating!!
I bumped into his back when he halted all of a sudden. With an evil glint in his eye, he smirked at me as he steadied me.
"Pay more attention to where you are going, princess. "he said, with somewhat an underlying threat, maybe? I shivered at the breeze that blew by causing orange leaves to float past us while others got stuck on my hair.
As I still tried to relinquish my hair from natural ornaments, Sebastian bent towards me and plucked the leaves out of my hair. Just like a farmer would gently pluck cotton from its stems, he gently removed the leaves from my hair. This is why I fell for him. Call me selfish but I want all the gentleness I could get. It was stolen from me and all I can do is compensate for what I I've lost.
It's only now that I realize the once quiet forest had become noisy. A certain song was blaring in the distance, alerting me of the oncoming crowd. I got stiff from monachopsis*. Yeah, it happens. I think he must have sensed it. He slowly turned to me in a predatorily way making goosebumps appear on my forearms.
"Come on, princess. It will be fun. Or don't you love me anymore? "he said with slight lift of his brow. I wanted to ask whether or not they are connected. I wanted to shout out that I wanted to go home..., but I couldn't. I just couldn't. That's how much hold he has over me. I decided to bite the bullet and follow him even when every pore of mine begged to leave the place.
We finally reached a clearing where there was a huge bonfire. College seniors like Sebastian littered the place. Unsuspecting high school seniors like me could be spotted every once in a while. I was scared, very scared. Monachopsis got worse. Sebastian darted off to some direction to meet some friends, leaving me alone in a cacophony called groups.
I was stared at like a zoo animal and offered strange drinks. Drowning in a sea of people, I didn't know what to do. I was drowning, suffocating, I couldn't get out. Right now, I wished for silence, for a calming breeze to caress me to sleep, for a blanket to shelter me from their cold. I was sold to sorrow and at this rate, it would be death of me. I felt a touch on my shoulder and I flinched at how cold it was against my almost translucent warm skin.
"Sepal uneasy sacristy!"
The deep heavy voice that sounded from behind me made me tremble from a flinch. As that deep velvet voice kept on chanting something in a language that I couldn't understand, I couldn't help but feel that the voice was familiar. With a slow turn, I saw who should be Sebastian dressed in some traditional clothes. He chanted shortly after while shoving a disgusting looking goblet at my face. The putrid smell made me want to double over but before I could, I was manhandled and the contents dumped down my throat.
My every instinct screamed one thing. RUN!!!