a year has passed, I haven't aged a day, the event made headlines "monstrous experiments in a hero Bootcamp" even saying it, it makes me feel hypocritical because, after that, heroes started to harvest and use those boosters for themselves honestly it disgusted me, they are a big boost, but they are temporary, I haven't been able to use her power for a while, probably a good thing honestly, i hate the fact i took it, i hate the fact i am able to that, why i am, i have one guess
because i heal so fast it counteracts all the damage it does, but i can also assume that because of that healing i slowly heal away the ability, as its probably acts as a type of foreign entity so it took a while to heal it out of me, and that's quite interesting, think about it, i was able to heal a power away, that means there some physical element to it, but then, why wont my power heal away, theres 2 possibilities
1. itd be like a paradox, it heals itself away but it notices something is wrong and resores itself constantly, over and over again, never actually going away or being complete
2. maybe it doesnt find itself as foreign and doesnt even do that paradox bit, its always just looking for foreign bits
well, my daily life is a bit monotonus i order food (provided by the assosiation) and live in this apartment, i dont go outside too, all i really do is eat sleep and repeat, though i do watch tv most days, and when i end my day i go look out at the stars, i dont know why, theres just the weird feeling of wonder when i do, like an itch i cant scratch until i do, sometimes, i hear her voice, i know im probably just going crazy, that most definetly what it is, and yet its so clear, and yet, its also not, like i can hear but cant, its maddening! i hate it hear and yet everytime i try to open the door i freeze, this isnt like me, this. is. not. like. me.
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THIS ISNT ME, SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT YOU GODDAMN VOICE UP, I DONT WANNA HEAR IT, JUST BE QUIET FOR ONCE IN YOU LI- why am i crying? WHY i dont feel sad! this isnt me! GO AWAY GO AWAY GO AWAY, maybe some sleep will make this go awa- WHY THE STARS AAAAAAGGGGHHHHH I HATE IT, I HATE THE STAR- AND IM CRYING AGAIN KILL ME KILL ME KILL ME
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theyve gotten louder, they wont stop, if i try to ignore it it gets louder, it gets harder to sleep every day, i dont know why, but i always awake on the balcony
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i pass out randomly and no fail wake up at midnight, staring up at the stars, whats wrong with me? why the hell do i always awake at this time?