***Edison's thoughts***
Noah took me, Jeff and Reagan fishing. I envy this piece of heaven that they managed to acquire. I want one for my own also. I also want it to be near the forest and river. I cast my bait and waited.
I kept seeing Helena's face when she saw her family. I saw how treasured she is by everyone. Even Reagan who one would think is cold and aloof is different when he was with her.
Well, there is something in Helena that just makes you love her in all of her forms. But I am bothered as to why she would tell me that she was broken and that she is in misery.
I recalled Kempt's face when the elevator doors opened. He looked like someone in pain. And Helena looked like she has just gone through war and that the war is never ending. My gut tells me that there is something between them and I really wanted to know what that is. But I can't force her. I can't. I don't want her to keep breaking. I don't want her to keep hurting.
What I want is to stop her from breaking. From hurting. But I don't know what to do. Or how to do it. I am always scared that I might do something that would push me away. I can't loose her.
The thought of loosing her made my heart start pounding. It felt like something was squeezing it. And the pain was unbearable. I had to breathe in and out multiple times for me to calm down. Why do I feel so strongly about her? I just met her but she can turn my world upside down.
She can make me happy with just a smile. She can melt me with just a sultry look. She can send me in a rampage when she talks to other men, especially Kempt. She scares me because I know that she might take off any minute that she feels threatened. But she still has the power to comfort me just by being beside me.
I'm a mess. And maybe Jeff was right. I'm whipped. When I admitted that, my heart started racing.
"I love her." I whispered out loud. And with admitting that, I felt myself calming down. I am not just lusting after her. I love her.
I started laughing when I thought about how I feel for her. A soft rumble that started to become louder as I felt myself being freed from the restrictions of my self denial.
I love her.
"His loosing it." Reagan said, loud enough for me to hear and make me stop laughing. I just looked at him sharply.
Jeff just shrugged it off. He was used to my erratic mood. Noah looked at me closely.
"Why are you after my daughter?" he asked without any warning. Jeff choked on the water that he was drinking while Reagan just sat back as if he was going to witness an entertaining show.
Maybe it is. Entertaining, I mean.
"I love her." this time it was Reagan who choked on his water while my confession made Jeff gaped at me and Noah furious.
"I just realized it too. I mean, I never realized why she drives me crazy. She can send me high with a smile, cripple me with a pout. She makes me want to strangle her because she stubborn. She also makes me want to just pin her down and have my way with her." I mumbled, mostly talking to myself.
When I heard bottles breaking, I looked up and realize my mistake. Only it was too late now. I saw both Noah and Reagan with murderous looks.
"Oh - oh. You're in deep trouble, man. Deep trouble." he said, stating the obvious.
"I guess I am." I said and saw Reagan grabbing me by my shirt and taking a swing at me. I just let him hit me but when he clearly wanted to take a second swing at me, I can't let that happen.
I have not done anything yet to deserve a beating. Not yet.
"How dare you sleep with her?" Reagan shouted. "She is innocent. She doesn't have a lot of experience when it comes to men. The first one that she loved, broke her. She has just started living her life and here comes another dog sniffing around. If you do not have anything good to give her, stay the hell away from her." he was panting because of his anger.
Noah brought his hands on Reagan's shoulders to stop him from punching me again. He let me go and turned around, trying to reign in his anger.
I stood my ground and looked at Noah.
"I have not slept with your daughter, sir. If that is what concerns you. But let me be honest since I have great respect to you as Helena's father, I have the intention of sleeping with her. And if that happens, let me assure you that Helena will not feel like she was forced to do so. She has clearly told me that she is not yet ready to commit and I promised her that I will wait. And I will wait. Although it is slowly killing me since she is taking her sweet time while being all innocent and sweet and loving and caring..." I stopped. I realized that I started sounding like a crazy person who was just babbling unintelligibly. "What the heck? Why am I easily side tracked when I think about that woman?" I asked more to myself than to anyone.
I heard snickers and saw that the three of them were looking at me in amusement. Reagan no longer looked like he was going to kill me and Noah seemed to be at eased.
He tapped my shoulder, "Good luck." he said and resumed his fishing while whistling.
I looked at Jeff. My eyes round with confusion. What the hell did just happen? They were ready to kill me from having some dirty thoughts about Helena and now we were all good?
I think that this family is a bunch of crazy individuals. I took a seat beside Jeff, wanting some comfort from someone familiar. I shook my head again when I can't make sense of what just happened.
"I guess you passed." Jeff whispered which made me look at him in surprise.
"I guess I did." I agreed with a wide smile only to earn another snicker from Reagan and a soft laughter from Noah.