"Congratulation miss Ariel you are two months pregnant." The doctor said smiling at me.
"Oooh no please, i can't be pregnant now." I said as tears run down my cheeks. This can't be, am not even ready to be a mother,on the other hand i don't even know how Jason will react if i tell him about this. Being pregnant is not something bad but having a child out of wedlock is not something that i was looking for, also in my condition am not ready to be a mother, not just soon. Walking out of the hospital, i was in much thoughts of this new creature growing inside me. Tones of question streamed inside my mind.
"Do i want to keep this baby? Should i destroy it? What if its the only baby that maybe i was to have." I just don't know what to do anymore. My mom is going to kill me if she knows my condition, and am pretty sure she will find out no matter how i try to hide it. Jason and i had never talked about having babies so am not sure how he will react to this news. But no matter what he needs to know this. Walking on my way home, i was controlling myself not to break down.
' Crying is not a solution to any problem, no matter the situation face it the way it is.' That's the advice that my grandmother Lola used to tell me. I can do this, being a mother at twenty is the last thing i expected to happen to me but now that it has happened i have to face the situation. If a sixteen year old girl was able to do this who am i not to conquer this. And this mindset i decided to keep the baby.
Reaching my apartment i went straight to bed, i had not eaten anything the whole day but i was feeling full. Tonight will be my longest night but am prepared for it.Looking at the ceiling i started picturing my baby and i, the sleepless nights that are awaiting me, the cries of my baby, changing the baby's diapers, baby food in my mini fridge, playing toys allover the living room, baby things scattered everywhere, wow that's the life of a mother. I know is tough but i will do my best to be the best mother to my baby.
My sister's wedding date had already been scheduled it was in a week's time that is on 13th of october. I was to go home before 5th of october for early preparation as the bride's maid and sister. I was thankful because because the baby bump could not been noticed since my stomach was still flat. But before going home i had to tell Jason about my pregnancy, whether he accept the baby or not he had to know about his baby.
Walking up the next morning i decided that i will visit Jason today to tell him about the baby we are expecting. I took the morning free bus that drove for two hours from my town to Jason's home. Reaching his apartment at nine in the morning, i found he had already left so i thought he went to run errands or he had early shootings. Knowing his door's passcode, i opened and waited for him while watching the Tv.
A pink envelope in the kitchen counter caught my eye, being curious of it, i went to see what it had. On top of it was my name written in italics that meant the letter was addressed to me. Without wasting time i opened it to see what was inside, inside was a letter folded neatly. I opened it and started to read immediately
To Ariel Miranda
Hello Ariel
I just wanna say am sorry we can't continue with this relationship anymore. I wanted to tell you earlier that i was already engaged to someone by the time i met you but i just could not because i was much in love with you. It is not my fault because my parents are the ones who had fixed all this and as am writing this letter, my wedding date is already fixed , 13th of october, i just cannot go against my parents' wish. I love you Ariel so much and i mean it but i just can't be with you. You have every right to hate me for this, but please move on and have someone who will make you happy. Am sorry.
Jason Thorne.
What the hell is this!??? Like how Jason is engaged, is this a prank or what. Like how? And he has the guts to tell me to move on, how am i to do so without him. Looking at the letter with tears in my eyes, i wanted to scream but i couldn't , i wanted to kill Jason for this but i just can't. How can he do this to me, he says he loves me yet he has agreed to marry the girl chosen by
his parents. Now what do i do yet am carrying his child. I just can't believe i have lost him just like that.
But how comes his wedding date is the same as Mellanie's , can he be my sister's fiancee, but no i don't think so.
Heartbroken, destroyed and ruined i walked out of his house, i kept looking back for Jason to call me and tell me it is a lie but he was not hear meaning he was somewhere preparing for his wedding. What kind of bad luck do i have, yesterday i found out am pregnant and today Jason has left me with his child in my womb. So am going to raise this child alone, a fatherless child.
Since Jason is getting married am never going to tell him about this baby, i will keep this to myself. Reaching my apartment i lost control over myself as i break down, i know crying is never a solution but how am i to move on when the memories of me and Jason keep flooding my mind, how do i move on when am expecting his child.
"I hate you Jason Thorne, you've ruined me, you've destroyed me. How am i to raise this child alone?" I screamed as i burry my head in my pillow.
I don't know for how long i cried because when i raised my head, it was already morning. Waking up and refreshening myself, looking in the mirror i saw my eyes were still bloodshot.
"Jason Thorne am letting you go,i can't cry anymore for you." I said to absolutely no one, but i meant it , i was never going to cry again, i can do this. My baby needs a strong mom that meant i have to be strong for my baby. For my baby's sake i will try to happy no matter how hard it hurts, even if it means smiling in a mid of tears then am ready to do so.
I was going to find happiness in my baby. Taking my phone i selected my playlist and played my universe by BTS X COLD PLAY, i dedicated this song to my baby since he or she was going to be my universe and i was going to do everything to make her happy.