The flight landed on Julius Nyerere International airport, Tanzania by 5: 00 AM. rather than looking around the new place My eyes was searching for a person in the crowd, still confused will I find him?
Out of no where, He waves at me. He was running towards me all covered in black. I could see a big bunny smile through his eyes. I felt a cold breeze all around me which gave me chills from head to toe. But My brain knocked me down "Hey, fool this not a K- Drama, Nothing is going to happen". Yes/ my brain was correct he was not there, I was just day dreaming. I tried to convince my heart that he will not come, but all my heart could understand was something heavy in there.
I said to my self, You was all alone your entire life, No one kept there promises to you , You was left alone but Now you are more strong, You don't need any one to hang out with you. You are your biggest company, Go enjoy the trip, I lectured myself but my heart won't listen, Let's wait still noon. If he is coming, his flight would be late. I sat at the airport and successfully wasted the first day of my trip by 4:00 PM I once again realized that fact no one will keep their promise. You left to the hotel you have booked for both of you, for some reasons I didn't cancel the other room.
Like my previous solo trips this was different. I never felt happy. All my sorrows bounded up, I travel alone to forget my situation to kill time, to be happy even this time I tried but I couldn't. The great mount Kilimanjaro was tiring to heal me. A tourist guide explained its feathers with a nod and opened eyes, I saw Kilimanjaro but the real me was somewhere else. The next day I went to Serengeti National park, I felt the wild me, It was screaming and was about to hunt the world, about to scare and eat the one and all who hurt me but all I could do was stand there like the deer which was teared into pieces by the lion.
I didn't feel to continue the trip so I decided to leave but as it was holiday season. I couldn't get a ticket so I had wait still my return ticket which after two days. So I had to stay, but all I did was to stay at the hotel room or just walk around the neighborhood.
It was getting late, while walking around I thought. I have leave, its not safe to stay up late in a strange place. I was walking past the street, it started to rain and I couldn't hide any further. I cried and cried and walked alone for the first I felt the need of someone who I could hug tight and cry. I really wished if someone could say to me "your not alone, I am there for you" but as all always there was no one, I was alone, I hated myself. Even cursed to god for making my life so pitiful. Finally I reached the front of the hotel, soaked in rain my eyes was all bruised but I was still crying. Suddenly I saw an eyes in front of the hotel, all in black. I couldn't control myself. I ran into him hugged him tight. Like I will never leave him. Seeing the tears in my eyes he gave me a slight hug but all confused about five minutes later, I got my sense back. what the hell? What did I do? Why did I hug him, The very next moment, I felt anger scrolling around me. I pushed him back and shouted like an angry bull.
"Why the hell are you here, why did you even come".