"Shannon, wake up"
"Ah, sil-eo-yo. I want to sleep" I don't want to I said, subconsciously
"Shannon"
I felt someone tugging me, and I shook the hand off
"Geunyeoneun ajigdo ja?" is she still sleeping?
My eyes flew open at the sound of the voice
"Halmoni?" grandma?
I turned towards the door, an a smile graced my face
"Halmoni!!" grandma!! I shouted, happily
"Ir-eo-nass-eo?" are you awake? she asked
"De" yes I said nodding my head
"Go wash up and come down" she left
"Halmoni" grandma I hugged her
She smiled as she returned the hug
"How are you?" she asked
"Good" I replied
"That's good to hear"
She patted my chair
"Geudae, what brings you by?" by the way
"I came to spend some time with my granddaughter. Wae? Should I go back?" wae?
I shook my head
"No"
I remembered while I had planned with Ji Sung
"Jamkkanman" just a minute I said
Biane, I have to take a rain check on our day out. My grandma came over, so I can't make it, I texted him. Sorry
I waited for a while for him to read it before I went back downstairs
"Sit down" my grandma said, and I did as I was told
She started to place down plates and bowls on the dining
"Halmoni, since when have you been preparing all this?" I asked her
"I came at around four, so since then?" she replied, though it sounded more like a question
"Heol!" I exclaimed silently at the covered dining table
"Just how many course is this?" I asked, more to myself than anymore else
"12"
My mouth opened
"Ah. Well, let's eat"
I chuckled
"Jal meok-ge-seum-ni-da" thank you for the food I thanked
"Mani muguh" eat a lot she said patting my back, then finding her place beside me, on my right
My mom sat at the head of the table at my left
I took a deep breathe as I placed the first spoon into my mouth, I turned to my grandma and gave her a thumbs up with a small on my face. She responded back with a smile
"How is it going with the thing you're planning?" she asked my mom
"My vet hospital is going well. I'm re-opening a place that was already a vet hospital so I just need to re-furnished the place. I've also written the test, waiting for the results"
"Yeah, sure" grandma replied, her voice void of any encouragement or approval
"I'm going to do well"
My grandma scoffed
"Well, that's not the first time I've heard that, and I'm pretty sure the result will turn out the same"
The spoon that was on the its way into my mouth stopped mid way, my appetite for the meal in front of me diminishing. I slowly placed the spoon down
"Mom..." she started
"But don't worry, you can come running to me again when it fails" she cut mom off
Mom hardly placed her spoon down. She signed before looking at grandma
"How long are you going to do this?"
The three spoons were now dropped. Grandma looked at her
"Do what?"
"How long are you going to treat me this way just because I made a mistake?"
"Mistake? You say mistake? A mistake, my dear, is something you do, once, unintentionally. What you did wasn't a mistake. You were just being foolish. How dare you try to get sympathy?"
I wanted to stop them, but I couldn't dare do that. I just sat there, looking at my fingers, waiting for them to stop
"I'm in no way trying to get sympathy. You say I was being foolish? Right, I agree. That's why I'm trying to get past it. I didn't come to you only because of Shannon, but because I'm trying to make amends..."
"Make amends? You're trying to make amends? Are you sure you can do that? Are you sure you won't make the same mistake again? Jashini isseoyo?" are you confident
Silence descended on us, as we waited for mom's answer. I looked up at her wanting to hear her answer to that particular question
Answer. Say you are confident, that you'll make amends. That you won't ever make the same mistake again if it comes knocking, I said to her in my head
Instead of answering, she just looked at me and signed, putting her head down. I fisted my palm
Grandma stood up
"Don't just go around spitting things out of your mouth recklessly" she told my mom
"Let's go, Shannon. We have a day to spend together ahead of us. Don't let us allow our day to be spoiled" she said to me, and I agreed
I stood up also, gave one last glare to my mom, and followed grandma out the door
^^^^^
"Where should we start out date?" grandma asked
We didn't know where to go to, so she first of all drove us to the park
I shrugged. My enthusiasm for spending the day with her was vanished, replaced with the bitter sense I got from after the incident at home
When she didn't say anything else, I looked at her to find her watching me, her head resting on her palm which was resting on her knee. I pouted sadly, and looked back down
"Nae sarang, nae ai" my love, my child she started, tucking the hair that was falling out backing into my hair, making me look back up at her
"Wae?" why? I asked
"Biane, that you had to see what happened between me and your mom" sorry she apologized
"Halmoni, neo wae sagwahaneungeoya? Hajima. If anything, she's the one that's supposed to apologize" grandma, why're you apologizing? don't
She sat straight
"Don't call her like that. I might call her names and insult her, but that's because she's my daughter. But, she's your mom"
"I know she's my mom, although I don't think she known I'm her daughter" I said, trying to put off the bitterness that was rising in my mouth
"Ya, which mother does that? All mothers love their child dearly. Even though they might show it in ways that aren't quite... convincing" she said, the last part more about herself
I opened my mouth to disagree, but I decided against it and closed it back
"That's my girl. Now, let's go have some fun"
^^^^^
"You're back?"
No, it's my spirit you're seeing
"How was it?"
I ignored her yet again as I continued my journey to my room
"Shannon" she called
"I know how you're feeling, and..."
I stopped at the base of the stairs, and whizzed around to look at her. I wanted to shout at her, but I told myself to calm down, taking a deep breathe
"You know how I'm feeling?"
I breathe a fake chuckle
"And how am I feeling? Tell me, what exactly am I feeling? And do I want to do so much right now?"
"Shannon.."
I cut her off
"Don't call my name. I'm actually angry right now, but I'm trying to hold myself because I don't want to say or do something that I might regret" I said and went to my room shutting the door for the rest of the night