No
It can't be
Shockingly my eyes keep getting close. Every time my eyes land on my hand a wave of emotions runs through my heart. A ring with pink diamonds gawking at me or teasing me. Every time my eyes met Ronald he looked away. Now I need a break. He's not happy. How can I imagine him with me?
"Excuse me, where's the washroom?" A girl pointed to the right side. As soon as I reached the bathroom, a thunder of emotions hit me. Unable to think, I start crying. Nothing was in my hand when we exchanged vows. We're a fifty-one couple. A golden couple. The whole ceremony ran like a wind. But no one knows how I'm handling myself.
Mrs. Rose Ronald Parker
After hearing that name, suddenly my ears blocked all sounds. Nothing came into my ears. Looking in the mirror I met a different girl who was wearing a flower veil. Ronald's eyes went wide after watching me. But now he keeps ignoring me like it's a mistake. Yes of course how he let himself fall for a wounded girl. A girl who left him.
"Mrs. Rose, it's time to leave." Mrs? First time someone called Mrs. Rose? Should I start dancing or cry? Leave from here? Or leave from trauma. Wiping my face, I came outside with a fake smile. The whole crowd followed me and threw flowers at me. Old ladies whispering something and laughing. At some moments we stop. Keep smiling. I thank them.
"It's your wedding night. Win him." Laugh. No one knows what's going on in Ronald's mind. He's already gone on Yacht. He left me at the beginning of our first step in life?
"Thank you for.."
"Come back with the children." Nothing was in my hand. Nodding, I left and came to the Yacht where Ronald was sitting, taking his hair in his hands. Leaving him alone I came into the room and closed the door. The whole time we never think about reaching each other. The tears keep coming. Why? He never let me be his wife. Why am I hurt? I want him to accept me?
As a Wife
Our life fell apart. When are we going to talk? After reaching home we went into the room in silence. I don't know when I lay in bed and close my eyes in hope it's just a dream. Thoughts keep killing me. We need to talk. It was seven-thirty when I came outside and knocked on his door. He's also sitting in the same clothes.
"Ronald.."
"Mrs. Rose Ronald Parker. It's my fucking dream that comes true. Watching you in a wedding gown, Exchanging vows, and kissing. We're fucking married." He shouted in my presence. He burst out.
"I think we should break that. I mean it's not even legal." He looked at me with murder eyes.
"Why?" Huh?
"Why? How could you? You're only fucking me and the contract going to be end soon. You don't want a wife like me." I pointed toward my situation. What am I doing? Convincing him to leave me. It's a good choice but why do I'm hurt so much with the result?
"Ugly and wounded." The words have gone end with whispers.
"Who said I don't want you?" Getting up he grabbed me by hand and licked my skin with his lips.
"You're the one I want in my life. You're beautiful even in this situation. Every time I saw you my heart flattered. My heartbeat stops and then works fast. This happens because of you. Then how dare you think about my thoughts?" My legs stop taking my weight when he opens the zip from behind and from the front he takes my lips. God how long? This is what I want. The dress fell to the floor in which he grabbed me by the ass.
"Mrs. Rose Ronald, your husband wants you tonight. Forget everyone and remember me. Your husband Ronald." Running his hand on my ass he pushed me closer.
"Kiss me." Before I did, his phone started ringing. From here my eyes land on the names showing on the screen. Jeena called him. What am I doing? This is not what I want? He has a girlfriend. He has a life. With a little push, I can be on earth.
"Rose!"
"We're not the same. You never fall for me. We're nothing. You and me. Don't even think about me. Don't make me repeat history. From my side, there's only darkness."
"Then let me light up the light of love." I knew he was the one who was going to take me in light but what about him then. Who's going to save him from darkness?
"Never." Grabbing my dress I ran towards my room where I let myself break. The whole night the tears fell like rain. He came so many times but never knocked. But then I saw him sitting outside in the dark. He's sitting near a glass door. His eyes were begging me. It's pain, love, or lust but now it's breaking me. The person who's been sitting for the past two hours just because of me broke me totally for him.
Without breaking eye contact I opened the door for him at last. He gets up and in a blink throws himself on me. We both fall onto the bed by taking each other's lips.
"I want you. I want my wife."
"Please." Our clothes come out in seconds without breaking a kiss.
"How? How can I worship you? You're the one I want for the whole of my life. You're the dream for me. You were in my dream in the same clothes holding flowers with a smile on your face but." He took me against him. What happened? He's still taking his time and I'm waiting for him. When he couldn't turn me away I pushed myself a little and looked at him. His eyes were full of tears.
"Ronald?"
"Yo... you're full of blood. Every night I saw you with blood calling me and on that day when I saw you lying in blood, I lost my world. I then. thou.."
"It's okay." God! How much is the holding? The time has gone to the past. Taking him down I hold his cold body against me. Silently he rested his head on my naked chest. Running my fingers in his smooth hair I try to calm him.
"Don't worry nothing will be happening because you're here to save me."
"What if I'm not?" He gets up but I stop him by circling my arms around his waist. It feels so good putting my head on his back.
"You're going to save me at all costs. Ronald?"
"Hmm?"
"I... I think I'm in.."
"Don't." It stops me. My heart broke so suddenly. Why not? We both fell silent. Taking my arms back I rest them on my lap.
"I... I think you need to go."
"Rose."
"Please.." He went with his clothes and left me naked in memories of the last time. He's so warm and gentle. What happened to him suddenly? Today he left me alone like a betrayed wife until after midnight I felt his body heat.
"Say what you're going to say." Lips on my shoulder, neck and then he marked me.
"Say, Rose, I'm waiting for you."
"I.." My words broke when his tongue touched my lips. Grabbing my boob in one hand he pushed himself inside me so suddenly.
"I love you."
"Let's begin our honeymoon, Mrs. Rose."