[Warning: Moderate Sexual Content]
"What?" I asked, swallowing a laugh.
"You don't believe me?"
"Ray you're not Gay" I insisted "Even if you said you were bisexual, I wouldn't believe…"
"Why?" he encouraged
"A gay guy wouldn't touch or kiss me like you did" I whispered and he chuckled with amusement. I rolled my eyes.
"Maybe you look like a man" he smirked, winking playfully at me and I scoffed. He just couldn't help himself could he?
Okay. Fine. Let's play along then.
"You know, on second thought it explains a lot" I nodded my head, pretending to think.
"We've never had sex, you've never allowed me to touch you and you didn't even know your girlfriend had a tattoo, which means you don't watch her like a guy who likes girls would."
He scoffed and licked his top lip sexily, his smirk disappearing and I smiled.
"You hesitate every time I ask you to touch me, like you're afraid. At first I thought you were a virgin but when Caleb asked if you've ever slept with your best friend you drank. O God." I stopped talking, not because he was looking at me with the look he gives whenever I've done something to upset him but because I was starting to convince myself.
He leaned in "You're right, I don't watch Aleecia" his expression serious but playful "I watch you" he stared me down, practically ripping my clothes off and I had the slightest urge to cover myself up.
"Pervert" I huffed, hiding an amused smile.
He looked away for a brief second before adjusting his sight in my direction once more
"I'm trained to be a liar, a fighter- a deceiver. I'm trained to be whatever the company wants of me" He spoke, becoming more serious.
"So, does that mean that you're gay?" I enquired, wondering if he was trained to be straight.
He chuckled "I tell you I'm trained to deceive and you ask me if I'm gay?" He scanned his fingers for a brief second with an entertained smile, before looking up once more "I'm not gay"
I let a relieved breath go
"I'm also not in a relationship with Aleecia"
"O" was all I could say but my mind teased me with red lights and questions. I couldn't explain how much this made little sense to me. I mean, if he was telling me the truth, all the times behind closed doors, all the times hiding, feeling guilty; all of it was unnecessary. All the times he pushed me away, made me feel like shit, made me hurt or cry was for nothing. It would also mean that I kissed Caleb in vain. This made so little sense.
"You're upset"
"U- uh. I'm confused" I mumbled honestly, willing him to explain.
He got up, walking towards a small radio beside a microwave and I watched him impatiently. He switched it on, walking up to me and extending his hand. Adore you by harry styles bounced sweetly off the creamed painted walls.
"May I?" He asked, extending his palm.
I hesitated. What the hell did Caleb give him to drink? I was starting to wonder if it had affected his brain. I accepted his hand, getting up and he pulled me into him.
"I was upset and in denial" He searched my eyes feverishly "I don't hate you. I could never hate you" He ran an idle hand over my cheek "In fact, I am utterly and undoubtedly in love with you Amelia"
He twirled me around with one hand and my heart fought with the cage in my chest as he pulled me back to him. I was completely speechless. I was so confused, nervous and overwhelmed with joy that I just stared. He caressed my cheek, a dazzling, breathtaking smile printed on his lips.
"I am so sorry I ever made you hurt. I thought that" he paused, breaking eye contact "I thought that if I stayed away from you, I was protecting you from me, the company and my life" he took a deep frustrated breath, letting me go but I was still dumbstruck.
"My life is messy and complicated and I'm scared. I'm scared because I can't breathe, when you're not around, I can't think or focus and I can't concentrate whenever you are around and it drives me crazy." He ran a frustrated hand through his hair and I struggled to speak as his eyes met mine once more.
"Say something. Anything" he begged but I couldn't. I was so mesmerized, I struggled to stop tears from falling
"Cornella, you're crying. Did I…?"
I draped my arms around his neck and pulled him into me, pressing my lips into his. I had no idea why those words made everything better but it did. It made everything bad, feel so darn good.
"I love you too" I whispered and he smiled lifting me up and twirling me around. I laughed as he returned my feet to the ground, brushing my hair behind my ear and bringing my lips up to his. He didn't initiate a kiss, instead he repeated the words from the song.
"Honey, oh, oh, oh, I'll walk through fire for you. Just let me adore you. It's the only thing I'll ever do"
I snorted, he was a horrible singer but he never sounded sweeter. Honestly, I was glad there was something he couldn't do. It made him less perfect and more human.
"It's"
"Shhhh" I whispered, teasing him with a kiss whilst backing away to my room. He stopped at the door.
"Walk through fire for me" I whispered against his lips and after a moment of hesitation he pressed his lips into mine and entered, closing the door behind us. We stumbled back unto the bed, breathless and unable to keep our hands off each other. It became undeniably obvious that I was desperate for him but I could care less. I couldn't get enough.
He ripped the buttons from my shirt, pulling it off me and I drew his t-shirt over his head, running my hands over his soft, muscular body. His lips moved expertly against mine, waking my wild. I groaned beneath him as the increasing wetness between my legs began to create discomfort. I deepened the kiss, decreasing the small space left between us, daring him to do more as our bodies caressed each other. He pressed himself into me and I let a heated breath go. I couldn't wait anymore. I found his pants button and attempted to open it but he held my hands, like he always did, ending all intimacy. He scanned my face and I sighed biting my lower lip in frustration. I felt his body tense and I struggled to slow my breathing.
"I can't" he whispered and I stared at him blankly "I'm sorry" he continued and I broke eye contact
"Hey, look at me" he pleaded
"Is it me?" I asked with concern "Am I the problem?"
"No" He insisted
"Because I need you. I need you right now. Just this once." I begged "Please"
He inhaled sharply before running his warm fingers over my cheek. I melted into his touch, my body retracting tingles as he placed his forehead onto mine.
"Please" I whispered and he kissed me once more, letting his pants drop to the floor. I smiled excitedly as he pushed me unto my back and pulled my pants off. He pressed his lips into mine, slowly taking off my underwear and making small playful kisses from my legs to my thigh. I moaned impatiently and his breathing became heavy and rapid. His unease and tense demeanor was unconcealable.
"Relax. It's me" I whispered, looking into his eyes and he let a trembling breath go, slipping off his underpants and sliding himself into me. I squirmed, inhaling sharply and unintentionally sinking my nails into his shoulders. Christ, he was huge. He pinned my hands above me, keeping me still.
"Tell me to stop" he searched my face and I shook my head, letting a shivering breath go.
He thrust into me, hitting my g-spot and I muffled a moan, my body both relishing and screaming from the feel of him.
"Tell me to stop" he spoke with force, his soft, creamed skin becoming moist and burning hot. I shook my head and he plunged into me once more, a bit harder than before. I groaned, feeling my insides shift and he pulled out. I felt my stomach fall and an emptiness I had no idea was even there became apparent. He sat at the edge of the bed, dragging his pants on. As soon I'd recover, I knelt behind him and wrapped my hands around his waist.
"I'm sorry. Okay" I offered, feeling guilty for having pushed him in the first place. He ran a hand over mine.
"I'm sorry I listened" He picked his shirt up from the ground and got up.
"Ray?"
"This was exactly what I meant" he skimmed me over, biting his lower lip "You drive me crazy" he threw his t-shirt at me and I caught it, pulling it over my head.
"We can try again" I gambled and he chuckled
"You" he leaned into me "Can't handle me" he laid a perk on my lips and I frowned at him
"What gave you that idea?"
He smirked, levelling himself "You scream like a girl"
"I am a girl"
"Let's face it Amelia. You're just a tease" he challenged amusedly and I scoffed, taking offense.
I crawled off the bed to face him.
"Let's face it Ray. You're just afraid" I countered and he stepped up to me. I stopped breathing instinctively, matching his persistent but serious look.
He leaned into my ear, his hot breath fanning my ear lobe, sending heat waves icily down my spine "I'll tear that tight pussy up… shift your womb… make you cum so hard…" he whispered leisurely and I swallowed, willing my body to stay still, not to kiss or jump him. He straightened himself, lustfully ravaging my body with his eyes and his simple look made me crave him even more.
"I thought I was the tease?" I swiped my tongue across my lip and he eyed me thirstily. We were so close; I was just inches away from his bare chest, from unspeakable pleasure at the cost of a little pain. Just a few inches.
"I have a report to write" he grunted after a moment of hankering silence, before walking out and closing the door behind him. I fell back unto my bed. I wasn't going to stop until he was inside me again. It wasn't a matter of if anymore, it was a matter of when.
I found the awfully wet area between my legs with a finger and decided to settle for treating myself. All I could think about was how painfully good Ray felt thrusting into me and all I wanted was for him to try me, treat me as if I wouldn't break.