Now it's been months and still nothing, I was going crazy with my thoughts. What if he is dead ?? but if he was then why there is no one talking about it and his mother also didn't came that means he isn't dead and why he would be. That night was just a dream and why I am even thinking like that but the thoughts kept comming. I didn't said anything to anyone, not even my bestfriend and my mother but one night one last thought came and that proved that I was going crazy and over thinking. That thought was, If he didn't came school after the term break, then that only means that he left the school, So now I have to speak to people and find the truth. Next day I got up early and practice of asking, hey what happened to that guy he hasn't come yet, his name is Nites again and again because idk why but I was felt nervous talking to people except betty. That day I told about my bully and that dream but she didn't listen or like not paying attention but that was fair for me because (she is very friendly person, so everyone liked her and everyone would talk to her but she has only me that calls her a bestfriend. I don't even have a friend in school except her. And there is lot going inside my head and I try and talk to my bestfriend about it but sometime I become very talkative and when she tries to talk, sometimes I over talk, yeah.... So that was that). I got up and gone straight up to class nine in lunch, There were many new faces but I am not sure that they were new because I didn't paid any attention to remember them, I looked around and there was one face, he looked shy, I patted his back and asked hey what happened to the guy named Nites ? He answered, Who Nites? My heart stoped for a sec but then the other guy said hey girl what are yuh doin here and what you were asking to this new boy. I then asked them the same question and they answered "Why he left school months ago " Then I said oh ok then and left the class. I should be feeling relieved but instead I feel like I should have stood up to him and beat him but every time I froze and idk why but I always thought that what if I hurt him bad, there is a short story behind it and I don't ever want to talk about it. And every night this one thought always came that what if I had stood up, Why I didn't beat him when I had the chance and why no one helped me, why everyone was just looking at me, why I thought that I would just him but he hurt me badly, why I didn't push him under the bus, why and why I couldn't move on.?? I don't know the answer of this question. And the truth why I didn't want to go to school is not because of the teachers but what come after, when I go to the bus and my nightmare starts. And not only in the bus but in class also some of the boys will say something that I hate but I keep silence because I had anger issues and now I am trying to be patient in every situation, but something they cross their limits and now I am a really patient but I really wish I wasn't because I would say or do something stupid but later I always feel free. But now I can be very peaceful and avoid fight but sometimes it's just hurts deep. Now we all are growing and hitting puberty and I am feeling a little uncomfortable with my male classmates.
So....The first thing is how I even wanted to become a vampier, who put this thing in my head.
The thing is my English sir suggested to watch some series, English series to improve our english. They were many and I slowly started to watch series on Netflix and I found one series of vampier and then another and another. As I watched theses I felt what I could be one but not only a blood sucking monster. Something different, something powerful.