Yeah.....So now I am mature enough to understand the difference between good touch and the bad one. Everyone is now acting like that never happened and I act normal cause I can't tell to anyone but I was just pretending to be okay and deep inside I am damaged. I wanted to be strong, so that's why I am watching videos on YouTube and doing exercise that could make me strong and no one knows that I am doing one. I feel like it has ,made me strong and now I keep a knife in my pocket and penknife(It was there on online it looks like a pen but it isn't).
Two years later
On the farewell, we enjoyed a lot and Betty and I have plan to go to the same college. Everyone cried except me because my bestfriend will be with me. But I don't know what to study for my future, I want to be dancer but my dancing wasn't good enough(very bad) and now I hate all subjects. But sometimes I want to become hacker and study IT, develop programs etc and then I also want to become a writter but then I don't know I have written and published many stories but that is also not good. I am not sure what to do. Betty will be doctor and I believe she could but her parents are planning her marriage, and if it does happen then we have a plan that she will ran away from home and live with me. We have it all plan, now we just have to go to the collage.
YES WE GOT INTO THE SAME COLLEGE, we both were screaming but that happiness didn't last long.
In the first day,
There were many new faces of strangers that were also new to this, they were also excited to study new things and I thought they some of them will be our friends. Some are kinda rude, some are kissing, some are just lonely. I like lonely people, they are kind. It is entirely different from school life. College life exposes us to new experiences and things that we were not familiar with earlier. For some people, college life means enjoying life to the fullest and partying hard. While for others, it is time to get serious about their career and study thoroughly for a brighter future. And we were the second one. College life is great,because in college life, the teacher-student relationship is a bit informal. They become more or less like our friends and we share our troubles and happiness with them as we did with our friends.
The few days went great, I never thought that it would be this great but then I saw the back of someone that was very familiar as if I know him, I go slowly to him I was very curious that I left Betty behind and walked slowly to see his face, and I slowly try to look at his face by saying ahemmmm excu- but then Betty came looking for me and found me, and said "Why have you leaved me and do you know this guy?" I said no and then she grabbed me and took me to the room.
I felt a connection between him and I.
And then later I forget about it.
When me and Betty were about to leave,
I saw that men, at this point I was very curious,that it can be Jughead or other someone, I don't know I am thinking. That man's back just, I know I saw it but who is that I forget something like deja vu but in real I am sure that I saw it somewhere.
Without any time waste I got straight to the guy and that shocked me, I shivered and at the same time I am happy that he is back.
And ofcource that was deja vu because that was the first time I saw him at school.
Betty had lost her book and I was sure that the guy who only show his back was the one who has it but never said anything to him and I was right.
But Why !!!!