I remained quiet while listening to all Symon's scolding. He is angry because of what I did and this is what he did to punish me.
If only I knew that it would break my feet, I won't have done that. I can just walk in front of the door and run out to escape from this stinky house!
"Now look at your feet!" He shouted and pointed at my feet while he was still busy boiling water on the stove.
"I told you I want to leave this place right immediately! it was you who couldn't understand it!" I shouted too full of irritation.
He looked at me with his furious eyes, like he was only looking at me without giving any hints of good. I was right about it, if only he didn't kidnap me and bring me in here I won't complain like this!
"Wow, so it's my fault now?"
"It is your fault! who do you think to be at fault for these stupid things you are doing right now!" I backfired and stood up in sudden anger.
"Ah!" I shouted when my ankle suddenly hurt like it was tearing all apart.
Shit, now it's getting harder for me to stand. I won't have another chance to leave this place again, just because of this broken anklet!
"Sit down, careful," Sy mumbled as he helped me to sit down for a while.
His left hand is guiding my back as his right hand is holding my hands to help me balance my body from moving.
It's fucking hard,
How am I supposed to move and walk again in this situation? Argh! I shouldn't have done that, I know he was right.
He was always right even before he always wanted something from him! And it's all right. I couldn't move my ankle very well just because of jumping in the window too far from the ground.
Argh!
"Next time Aze, don't try to escape again. You will never have a chance to escape this place, and if you do." He paused and stared at my feet.
"And if I do? what if I do?" I continued and waited for him to answer my question.
"If you do. That's the time that we are together again,"
After saying those, he left me on the sofa with a hot compress placed on my feet. He didn't talk to me again and so I was too, because of confusion and shock.
It was the very first time I heard him talk like that, seriously. I don't know what he was referring to but I will know that soon.
For now, I just need to be comfortable in this place. And once I get a chance to contact my friends I will leave this place.
As much as possible, by next week. But I think it'll be harder for me to make a plan in this situation. I think I need to heal my ankle first before I can start planning something to do to escape this place.
It's now or never.
I don't want to live in this kind of hopeless and stinky place. This house is abandoned already and there is so much dust around the house.
All over,
When my ankle gets a perfect feeling that I want. I then let my eyes close and leaned my head on the headboard of the chair.
While waiting for him to get finished in the kitchen, I just rest my eyes and didn't mind what was going on around me now.
I'm just at peace, that's why I can easily sleep. The whole time that I was planning to escape I ended up in this and I won't do that again.
I heard footsteps, that's why I quickly closed my eyes and waited for him to get nearer to my side.
At first, I thought he would not stay for long on my side. But then he suddenly kneeled in front of me while I'm eye sighting him.
He's busy putting a hot compress in my anklet while I'm also busy watching him. Faking like I was asleep when the truth is I wasn't asleep.
I don't know, I found him cute while doing it. It's like we were a couple again for this day. But I know it won't happen again because of our past.
Things between us are complicated and I don't want to do such things that will ruin me again. I'm happy living my life like this, I don't need him to complete me because I'm healed already.
Half close my eyes as I watch him do everything that he needs to do in my broken anklet. I know it was my fault, I just threw it all to him because I was mad at him.
I know it's not good to wash all the mistakes I've made this time. It's just that I don't want to stay in this place forever.
While I was watching him, he suddenly stood up and glanced at me. Making me close my eyes and act like sleeping while snoring fakely.
This is so odd and bullshit, but I need to do this to make it normal. I'm clearly out of thought right now but I don't have things to do.
"I just want you to love me again. But it's so hard for you to look at me once again,"
I was stunned after hearing him say those words in front of me. It's like I wanted to hug him but I can't because I know I'm no longer in love.
I no longer have any feelings for him, after what I suffered. I lost everything from that day and I just want to start over again.
But before that happens, I accept the fact that he will never be mine. Whatever I do, he will always break my heart, tear it apart without leaving me something for myself.
He grabbed my hands and put them in his neck before carrying me with all his force. I want to complain and wake up myself to avoid his touch but I know I can't because I know I can't walk by myself.
"Hmm," I hummed and acted like I didn't know what was going on.
I didn't see his face because My eyes were already closed. And for this time I let him carry me from the living room to my room.
Slowly I felt the soft mattress of the bed that wasn't there earlier. I think that's one of the reasons why he found out what was I doing in this room earlier.
The beddings were gone and it was all thrown in the window. Maybe he saw me there climbing and went down to watch me. I slowly went down using the attached textiles of curtains and comforters.
Argh, it's too hard to act like I didn't know everything. I just hope he didn't suspect me for this day that I'm only acting in front of him.
I just hope,