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Chapter 34 - Old memories 1

~~~Jake~~~

She came in between us, why would she do that? Why is that look on her face? She's protecting him from me, a man she clearly despise herself but I cannot let him go this time. I will do whatever it takes to take his head to my mother's tomb. Rage has been what I felt most of the years now apart from the times I got escape from it to some extent, whenever I get to see her. It wasn't difficult to access it again after seeing him and I'm afraid not even Gianna drowning scent can pull me away, especially she was obstructing my way. It just happened, the wolf inside of me broke out. The process is always thesame, it starts with the pain inside the tissue before the bones reshape. I fell to my knees before crouching forward, I tried to sturdy my vision on her but it kept going back to his bloody form. She was clearly horrified, I could hear her heartbeat as she slowly backs away.

"Get out of the way!" I knew I wasn't going to hold it in for any longer, I didn't want her to witness this side of me. I didn't want her to see how ugly it can really get with me. My rage was getting unchecked and I cannot see anything beyond him. I was surely going to end it today. But instead of getting away like I warned she was no completely shielding him from him, treating me like a predator.

"Jake don't do this" she pleaded I heard in loud in my head but there was no getting away from what's coming, I cannot push down the years of building rage in my chest. There my spine bulge out forcing me to straighten out while my shirt rip off my body as I scream in pain. My shoulder joint broke sending me back down, there I noticed something different.

My spine was pulled back to my human form in a very painful way, right after Gianna was standing in front of me, a growl unintentionally got out of me thus scaring as as I look up to her face. She pulled away with an arm stretched out like she was trying to touch me. I was just confused and even more angry, I couldn't shift as much as I wanted too.

I could feel a blockage between me and the wolf like we are getting separated from each other. The gushy stream of hot sensation was running through my veins instead whenever I try to change into my wolf form doing that also proves to making me weaker. I knew something was wrong somewhere, maybe it was the coated arrowhead. Gianna is in danger now, Cassuis will not stay there for long.

"Leave!" I urged with her still trying my very best to endure that pain but it wasn't like I have ever felt, not even on my first new moon after I took my wolf form. I remembered back then when it happened, I killed a little girl just 4 years old. It still hunts me in my sleep, then my first shift that I was only eleven years old 

"Make it stop! It hurts" I screamed at the top of my lungs while my mother tried to comfort me. I clenched on her shirt while I went through the hell of my bones breaking. I didn't know when but I somehow injured my mother through the spree of excruciating pain but she still held on to me.

"I'm here Jake. It will all be ok" she struck through my hair until I fully turned.

I wasn't giving up, my mother! I screamed from the pain of the enacting scene of her death in my head and the pain in my body, with it came another force crushing through my chest as I fight harder to break the barrier subsequently making me bleed from my eyes and nose. I could barely hang on to my surrounding, it was just the overpowering flow of anger and memories. Suddenly the fiery feeling vanished and I felt the connection back again; I was in control again.

Everything that happened after that felt like a dream; a nightmare that my mind seemed to play on me. I never knew I could cry as a feral wolf but here finally retreating from my plan of vengeance unwilling but going far away I could on my own. Gia was indeed different, she was stronger; I felt it especially when she grabbed on my face.

"I need you to stop now. Please"

She stopped me just like I was never even moving. Her warmth against my fur I instantly felt the static electricity but calming, setting a harmonizing vibration in my ears. I don't know how but I stopped, the rage vanished but could hardly contain the pain I felt. The pain of not fulfilling my mother's promise. I could uncontrollably feel love for Gai   beating with every pulse but also there was another pain for her too. It was a peace I had longed to have but not like this and I could not do a thing even if I wanted to. I had to get away from here—from her.

I didn't look back after that not that I wasn't willing to back around and make Cassuis pay but every fibre of my being opposed that thought, I sped away with my heart growing restless, a long stained anger coming from the far end of my heart like an echo. I kept going until I was out of Kiba's clan territory.

After a while I stopped, the guilt was back on. I could have stopped the occurrence. I could have had her with me, I'm not losing Gia either. I turned around but instead I tore back into my human form. The wound was still bleeding and my sight swayed with every step.

I unconsciously threaded towards healer Rubïn's cabin, maybe because I was getting consecutively weaker or of getting some information about what I think I know. Upon reaching proximity of healer Rubïn's cabin, she was already outside coming out of her garden with a basket full of herbs.

"Jake, what happened?" she put the basket to the floor and quickly get the sheepskin coat hanging on her shoulders off throwing into over my shoulder as I was naked. The length of the coat reached only two third of my thighs, I pulled either side of the coat to cover my genitals. I slung an arm over her shoulder as she helped me into the cabin and sit me on the coach.

Ruby strictly asked me to lay down while she gets me some clothing, all the while the totality of my thinking was what transpired between me and Gia. At first I thought she was under Cassius's compulsion, but her eyes didn't look like it. Most people under the force of compulsion have an empty look, a hypnotic look in their eyes that makes them look unreal almost comical instead Gia's eyes at some point changed color, a golden ring formed around her iris and the blue in her eyes were almost luminous, her strength grew significantly.

I have heard of people like us with abilities, finding such was very rare. It was almost mythical but Gia wasn't any ability. I was certain it was a core, she'd never taken her wolf form then it would have been impossible to acquire such strength in human form not even an Alpha can access. They thought of her being a special wolf vanished after she got me to leave. It felt forced, it felt like my soul was commanded to and bent to her will. I couldn't have left if there was a chance of resisting such urge to let him live, after all these years of anticipation and failed attempts not even a shred of him would have left.

Gia was in my head, just like she ran in my veins giving me an instant quilt cover of relief, which had ran out since I came into the cabin. The loss, the rage everything was heightened all over again like it was the first time I took form. I was heaving, growls left my mouth as I did so not because of the physical inabilities I feel while I tried to stay laid back but it seemed tougher than it looked because I was driven crazy . I dare not sit around while he walked with their blood on him for so long.

Ruby came back in the room with male clothing; definitely Hunters and  placed them aside my head on the couch arm and proceeded to the kitchen. I could hear her fumble with kitchen wears displaying her haste but whatever that was in that arrow head wasn't going to end me as I could feel the effects starting to wear off probably from the adrenaline rush  although I could significantly feel a fever and pronounced weakness. I sat up gradually feeling a trail of blood follow my motion to my forearm, I snatched the denim jeans and put it on.

Ruby came back in almost exactly as did the zipper 

"I don't recommend you standing," she stated pulling me back down into the sofa

"I am well; there is no need to worry"

"You will not have come to me if everything was well" she started on cleaning my wound while I sat quietly.

I was then suddenly feeling anxious and a feeling of bad judgment; I should have gone back for her no matter what. It has been a while and Gianna isn't back yet, if anything were to happen to her

"I'm sorry. I left her behind after we were attacked but she wanted me to leave" I said the last part with my voice slowly hitting the ditch with so much uncertainty. Gia didn't ask me to leave, I felt compelled to leave.

"I have to go back," I said wanting to get up but Ruby stopped me by pushing me back into the couch again

"She can handle herself" Ruby said with very little concern

"But there is a vampire in the territory. She could be in trouble"

"She has my teachings. Now chew on these and keep quiet" she quickly pushed in a couple of sweat-bitter leaves in a 1:2 proportion in my mouth. After completely cleaning out the wound while I still chew on the leaves quietly like she suggested, it felt like I was slowly being sucked into a spiral storm−a calm storm. I was intoxicated

"Now you can rest better" I heard her only in a comical voice before I slumped back, I felt Ruby's hand on my shoulder and the other on my back slowly pushing me down in a supine position also placing my heavy hands over my torso. The last thing I saw was her face looking down at me and her mouth moving. I didn't quiet caught on what she said but it had to do with—"Gia"— my eyes started fluttering before they closed shut feeling the weight on my chest evaporate.

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~~GIA~~

I could see Ruby's heightened worry after I drove the stake into Cassuis, she wasn't worried that I intend about inflicting pain on him or his screams may alert unnecessary crowd but about me. Not about getting myself exposed but getting myself drowned in the darkness that comes with so much power just like Luther did. I understand her worry but I wasn't going to let that drive me into the same destruction my father once caused, affecting the world and making it as it was.  I hated my father, I hated that I was their daughter, I hated that I had these powers and I hated my role as the leader of all; I despise leadership, no! but I despise my parents more. They opened for me a portal that nothing lies in it but agony, seclusion and ruin.

I had to bare the mistake of my mother choosing to fall for the most  malevolent being in history of the world also choosing to keep his child while he reigned in ruins. The anger, the hatred, feeling portal was unbearably hurting that if I could I would revert back to their time and have me murdered that faithful night.

I left ruby in the kitchen with Cassuis while I tread carefully towards Jake not letting the anger in my heightened sound of my footsteps. He was in the couch straightened out, shirtless and a clean white clothe put around his injured arm which wasn't showing any red color;there were chances of healing, being more extensive than the couch his feet were over the couch arm while his head rested on the other end. Over all he was covered in a layer of sweat while he made movements with his head like twitching similar to the one I saw in that stranger we helped, he must be suffering.

I hunkered down with my heart in painful knots that I didn't think to be there, it was savoured, fearful and haunted with pure guilt. I was responsible for his condition both physically and mentally. I shouldn't have hindered Jake; I should have let him have it. He'd never asked of me something before; I felt his pain, his need for closure, clear his conscious, hunger for peace and vengeance but ignored it.

I took out the soaking wet clothe in a metallic bowl sitting at the foot of the couch and strained it of excess water by squeezing, I gently started wiping his body from the head down to his neck. As soon as I reached his collar bone, he suddenly grabbed on my wrist subsequently grabbing me into his head but I was also to some degree still aware of the outside world, his elevated heart rate, the blood running in his veins, the strain in his muscle and his every feeling.

There I got sucked into his memories. I stood in a clearing of a beautiful town, people all together filled with activity; borne fires set on different parts of it while kids run around giggling and laughing. Houses were set up in intervals but the bounding in the air was exceptional. This time was different, I could feel absolutely everything even the air that was blowing. It was as though I weren't walking through a memory from the past but a feeling like I could almost fold it. It was an overwhelming feeling, every emotion reflected back to me.

Two children mainly caught my eyes; a girl in a long dress like those in the middle ninety's, her auburn hair was longer length with bangs, her eyes were hazel and warmth, happiness and emotion. She had an egg shaped face, her facial features were perfectly on point. She was extremely dashing especially with a dark mark at the edge corner of her right eyes. The boy sitting from across her looked familiar, like I had known from somewhere especially his light colored eyes, he was wearing a brown kakis and white ruffle shirt. He was equally in the same state as she was, delighted. He looked to be in his early teen age probably even younger but the girl was a little older than he was. They were both sited around a borne fire a little walk from where I was standing. They seemed really close to each other from the looks in their eyes even intimate you would say.

"Jake" a voice called subsequently so did the boy turn to look towards me.

Jake?! Who's that girl with him. He came up and walked towards me, I thought he saw me but instead he went right through me. I wasn't surprised that it happened I was just as invisible as the air and making no significant impact in his past memories as looking in the mirror.

I turned towards the direction he was headed and saw he went towards a Lady. The woman looked in her twenties but even older since werewolves doesn't age like normal people do. Jake was happy to see her and they started to walk further away. Jake looked over his shoulder with a thin sad smile on his face, I followed his motion and saw that the girl was waving at him. Seeing a little bit of distance getting created between us I followed after them looking on every side of me as children and adults walk through me. 

Three more I noticed and recognized almost immediately. The girl was 4'5, dark hair back length, chubby face, light brown eyes, and alot of energy. With her was a boy just about her height, also dark hair roughly kept had his back turned at me. I almost instinctively knew who it was because I felt thesame feeling of desire in the air but not as strong as through it were protected in something waiting for time.

I knew that boy was Kia and the girl Maya.

I continued walking closely behind Jake and the woman I felt to be of relation to him, possibly his mother. We walked for minutes before they finally came to a stop into their home. It was an old shack, fading wood. I pushed the door in, having to duck my head down the door was a bit smaller than usual.

The house was a little bit dark making me squint as I went it begins my eyes adjusted to it. I stood in one large room, partitioned with just a little step up at the far right of me was a little kitchen area stationed with a moldy old table and crusty cabinets. It also smelled moldy, I walked through the living room right in front of me was a three feet wide arch and exactly my height length wise. I walked into through the arch nearly falling a flight of dark stairs. I didn't think it were to be a basement or underground. I went down too, wanting to see why Jake clung on to this particular memory. Getting down the last stairs there was a little hall way stretching out on both sides while a single door stood in front of me.

"Mom please, I am capable enough" I heard Jake plead when I reached the door. I placed a hand and opened the door wide. Jake held on to a frail at one end while his mom held on to another. She was definitely proud to see how he'd wanting to help her.

"I know Jake. That is why you will keep in the house eventually you will get to do all. Step by step"

Then suddenly the memory just tore away, like it were a paper banner held in a pouring rain or everything just got sucked into a black hole except for me that was still standing in the position of holding the door open. Just like a page flipped, I was in a different memory holding.