Kash View
After talking back to my father, I felt a little bad over my behavior. I had started pacing in my room almost as soon as I arrived. It truly was my own action and behavior that caused his anger towards me, nothing more. He had all of these rules to protect me. Of course, I do feel that my reaction to the mate thing should have been unexpected. It would be nice to know why he protects me the way he does. Why could I not be like my brother? An Alpha, not an omega. The protector instead of the protected weakling.
The fact remains the same. My father is trying to mate my brother and I off, and I for one am not for it. The fact that I truly am not a real wolf in not just my eyes but the pack as a whole makes the idea of me even having a mate laughable. Wolves should be strong, and tall and perfect. The body I have could be beaten up by kindergarteners. There are pups half my age already taller than me. It really hits on my already low self esteem. What did I do in a past life to have the ire of the Moon Goddess in this one?
My nerves felt rattled and I really felt the need to get out for another run. A longer one, maybe just keep running. "Ugh. Why am I so agitated?" I threw another book across the room in my furry.
A knock at my door had me freeze. "Kash, can I come in?" Thankfully it was not my father but my brother. He was much more level headed and could understand me for the most part.
My big brother hopefully here to the rescue, had a smile spread across my lips. "It's not locked." I walked over as he entered. "How mad is father?"
He chuckled while looking at the state of my room. "He is not that upset with you. You know he just worries about your safety. You have been around this for seventeen, well eighteen years; I am sure you should be used to it by now."
"I just do not get why. No one explains anything to me. I am almost eighteen and still do not know or understand why I was never allowed to go to school, or train with the warriors. Why am I protected from the other wolves brother? Why do I have to be protected?" I sat on my bed knowing he won't answer my rambled questions, but asked them any way. "Look, I feel very restless today. I had to go for a run. I couldn't wait until the meeting was over. And nothing happened. I only went as far as the creek and back."
"Wait. The creek by the small poppy field?" I looked up at my brother who seemed anxious now. His face paled with his understanding of where I went.
"Umm, yes that one. It is far from rogues and patrol so no one will smell me. Besides going for a run without a guard, did I do something else against the rules?" Turning away I was afraid to look at him as I asked. Maybe there really was more to my fathers anger. Sometimes I really do not stop to think.
"Kash that really is not good. We built cabins for the Royals out there. Father and I promised not to have wolves run out there days before the arrival. Maybe they won't smell you. If you never saw cabins, you could have been far enough away." I could see the regret in his eyes. He knows why I was not informed.
"Why would you not tell me?" I could feel the anger building once more. They already knew I would be unable to go for runs the next few because of the ball. They kept me in the dark once more. "You guys are always like this! Keeping me out of the loop, protecting me from possible dangers. Why can't you both learn to trust me once in a while!" I was growling by now. If I was in wolf form, my hackles would be raised.
"Calm down Kash. When are you ever running without a guard anyways?" Jace had his hands up in defense as he backed away from me.
"How about almost every second night while you all sleep?" I blurted the truth out in my frustration and regretted it right away.
"What?" He walked back towards me, obviously now a little furious with my admittance. This will have repercussions for me, goodbye night runs.
"You know. This would never happen if you let me free in our own pack grounds. Why am I caged in my own home? Why don't you have a guard? ONLY ME! You know what? Never mind, get out! I do not want to see you right now." I knew it was not fair to put my anger all in his direction, but he was the one in front of me at this time. It was my actions of breaking the rules that got him angry. In my current state of mind, that no longer mattered. "I won't go to dinner with your precious visitors either so don't bother coming back."
Slamming the door and locking it, I threw my room into complete disorder in my anger. The thing is, even though Omegas tend be on the softer and gentler side, I was more aggressive and assertive. I hated to follow orders. Being an Omega, it tends to be in our nature to follow them according to the couple in our pack. I have fought that side of me on a regular basis. Never have I wanted to feel lower than other pack members. Most wolves followed orders according to hierarchy. Not omegas. Only my father and brother had some control over me, and I allowed it due to the order of things. My father was my Alpha and my brother was soon to be my Alpha. If I was born normal, no one else would be above me besides the Beta in absence of the Alpha, so why do I have to change it? That was how I liked it and the way it should be.
The anger of rank and my father pushing the mate business had me fuming. Not once have I needed a mate and I plan to never need one. This omega's body belongs to me and it will not drag anyone else down with it. I will stay the poor excuse of the Alpha's second son and own it. Damn the other pack members, and curse my father for thinking I had to have someone.
Mentally I was now exhausted and could not think anymore. My bed was a welcome sight after my blow up. I had to move a few books from the aftermath of my anger before I could laydown, but it did not take long. A full clean up was going to have to happen tomorrow because it was time to close my eyes and try to relax a little. While I was laying on my bed finally settling from the days affairs, I could hear footsteps approaching my door. It was my father, and I could tell he was furious. Sighing I got up to unlock the door be fore he threatened to break it down. He would be serious too, a quick lesson learned as a child, never anger the Alpha. Even if he was your father.
"Kash. This is uncalled for. You are late to dinner." He did not enter my room when I opened the door for him. His silver eyes showed some surprise when he first looked at the destruction I caused, before going back to his disappointed glare. "Do not make me order you. You know I hate doing it, but these guests are important to the pack. They are the Royals. They decide how land is distributed and how pack disputes are finalized. If you do not show them respect, we can loose their support." His tone of voice was more tired than angry now. I could see the dark circles he tried to hide from others during his daily duties.
"Why am I not allowed freedom in the pack?" I was now looking out my window at the training field full with warriors. "You keep me from school. You keep me from having friends. You keep me from the pack. Why father?" I did my best to keep my tone neutral. My body really did not want to use more energy fighting.
"Kash. Can we discuss this later?" His voice was now angry once more. At least I was good at pushing buttons. "You need to think of the good of the pack. This is not about you tonight. This is all for the good of the pack."
Raising my voice in frustration I snapped back. "No Alpha." I dragged the word alpha out with sarcasm thick on my tongue. "I want to know now. You never let me expose myself to the pack without guards. I do not even know many members except the guards, and they will not talk with me. I just see the faces of pity when I do go out." Feeling the dark thoughts circling I wanted to hit him hard. "Is it because I am an omega, or is it perhaps because I killed their Luna." I picked up a book that was on the table beside me and threw it at him. "WHICH IS IT ALPHA?"
Atlas View
The time was well past eighteen hundred and thirty when we were informed dinner was supposed to be eighteen hundred hours. The youngest still had not shown up and Alpha Dax left to go up and gather him. That was about fifteen minutes ago now. "Alpha Dax has been gone a while now." I turned to my friend Zion. "This really is a bit of a mess isn't it? I think it would be best to go back to the cabins and eat."
Jace, who was sitting directly across from me, stood up. "Please stay. I understand that this may seem rude, but my younger brother is a little bit of a wild card at times. He was caught sneaking out earlier and father, I mean, our Alpha was firm to him about the rules. He was supposed to be finishing his school work for the year before the ball. My brother does not get out to socialize much and the etiquette gets lost around him sometimes." The panic in the young Alpha's eyes was evident, while still trying to fix the situation he was in.
Before I could respond, we heard some loud voices from the second or third floor before we all heard a loud crash. Casually I smirked at the Alpha's son Jace who now looked paler. "I believe I will go up myself and deal with this matter." Turning back to Zion with a slight nod, we both stood up. I looked at the guards to let them know to stay put, then headed out towards the obvious argument.
I barely heard the whisper from Jace as we stepped out, while he sat back down at the table. "Kash has done it now."
As soon as we passed the dinning room doors and entered the hallway I whispered back to Zion. "Are you sure he only has two sons?" With his nod of affirmation, I shook mine. "Then maybe it is a friend of theirs. I smell my mate's scent." We had entered another route from where we were now and I did not smell it then. "I am confused. I did not smell it at the entrance or dining hall. Yet, I smell it now."
"You serious boss?" He was grinning once more. "Lets skip dinner and find them!"
"Knock it off. We are here to deal with a little brat right now so we can eat." I smacked him on the back of his head as I spoke.
The house was really well built. Not as open as the cabin built for us but a very warm atmosphere. The timber frame here was aged but well kept. You could still see the touches from the Luna left around. Though now empty, I was sure she had fresh flowers in the vases that were well placed on the desks and shelves. The staircase was a slight spiral with a small platform between the second and third floor. By the sound of it, we were heading to the third floor. I was frowning by the time we got to the top of the stairs. My wolf was going mad. He kept repeating mate over and over. The scent was much stronger here. This was not the scent of a visitor but someone that lived here. Very soon I could clearly hear the voices and what was said.
"Kash, please settle down. Why are you so worked up today? Your brother told me how you were earlier and the reason you snuck off for a run. Your.." Alpha Dax sounded worried more than upset like I expected.
"Don't you even say it father. Maybe it is because you have me locked up. What are you protecting me from? If you maybe let me train, I could protect myself or do something, but no. I am stuck inside unless I want to have guards around me 24/7. You only want me to meet the guests in hopes that my mate will be here. But it won't happen. I do not want one!" The angry voice had to be from the son that no wolf outside the pack had met. I did not recognize the voice at least.
Picking up my walking pace, I turned to Zion. "He was guarded like we were told. And over protected. For what reason?"
"I dunno boss. Let's go meet them so we can eat!" My friend got ready to do his public relations act. He always did this for me and I appreciated it. Especially now with my wolf on the prowl more than ever.
"Kash, I will order you to dinner." I could see Alpha Dax change his posture. His back was towards us and he seemed to be just outside another room speaking to his mysterious second son.
"Actually, I believe, our own Alpha has come here to make it happen. We are tired and hungry. The delay is a little disrespectful." Quickly I rolled my eyes before Alpha Dax turned around looked at us with how Zion worded it. I gave a quick nod to let Alpha Dax speak.
When he fully turned to us; it was not fear I saw, but a very tired father. "You are more than welcome Alpha Atlas. Please, be my guest."
Walking towards the door only had me completely assaulted by the scent that was driving my wolf mad with excitement. There, standing before me in the room, was my mate. A fierce looking young male. He was adorable with his softer looks. His small stature would fit perfectly against mine. I could not stop staring at the man before me. His medium length black hair framed his small face, along with his pale alabaster skin looked so smooth and tempting even from the slight distance we held. He was perfect.
"Are you done staring? If so, you can leave." He had now crossed his arms and glared at me with mistrust. I could now understand that he was under eighteen, or he would have scented me as his mate as well. "Well?"
All I could get out of my lips, thanks to my wolf trying to take over was one word. "Mate."
The silver eyes of my mate opened wide before he started to shake his head. "OH, HELLS NO! I am no ones mate. Never will be." He started to back away as much as he could from me as I walked further into the room.
I grinned and kept stepping forward while my Beta took my back. He knew it would be dangerous to get between us right now. My wolf found our mate and wanted to claim him. "I am Alpha Atlas of the Royal Eclipse Pack. And yes, you are most definitely my mate. What is your name?"
He shook his head. He then looked towards the direction of his father stood before looking back at me. "I do not have to talk to you. You are not my Alpha." The glare he gave me was more of a pinch his cheeks adorable, over aggressive.
Zion stepped in. "Young man. All Alphas must answer the man before you. He is the King and has earned the respect of many. You are a being little disrespectful." He then turned to Alpha Dax. "I do hope you never raised him this way?"
"No sir!" His father was glaring back at his boy. "He has been a little temperamental today. He took off without permission and went for a run…"
I interrupted him. "Ah yes. Near a poppy field and creek at our cabins. I could smell him then..."
"You went where?" His father was not impressed with the new knowledge and interrupted my conversation.
"Yeah, well you failed to tell me it was off limits. You thought that I only run with the guards like you want? If I waited until then I would be completely crazy by now." The young man now glared back at me. "If you are so hungry take my father and go eat. I refuse to join until I get some questions answered. My father respectfully declines to do so, and so shall I."
"Kash, it can wait until after your birthday. Please. I did it all for your own safety. You must understand." His father was hiding something and I felt Zion and myself could get it from him with time.
The young man turned away from us and look back outside the window, completely ignoring the people around him. "Everyone but Zion leave." It was my own Alpha orders and I left no option to be questioned or argued. Now that I had stepped closer to the middle of the room, we just waited for the rest to leave.
Zion closed the door as the others left; I nodded at him and then turned back towards my mate. "Kash. I do not know the questions you want answered, or why they are so important to you. But if you join us to dinner, I will make sure you get your answers."
Even with his back turned I could see him thinking about it. "How do I know this is not a trick?"
"I would never lie to my mate." Proudly I was declaring the truth to him. What I did not expect what his response would be.
He turned around eyes wide. "How can I be your mate? Besides we are both males meaning the moon goddess sure laughs at me. Besides all that, I sense nothing. How do I know it is the truth or not?"
I chuckled. "I am going to assume you are under eighteen. When you are eighteen, you will smell the scent of your mate. Then you will know it is me. First and second genders do not matter in the eyes of the Moon Goddess."
Turning fully around watching me for a little he shrugged his shoulders. "I feel nothing." Very quickly he crossed his arms and smirked. "Then I suggest you leave before the ball."
"Your birthday is the same day as the ball?" I looked at Zion with the implications this brought. "You were born eighteen years ago, when the moon was eclipsed?"
"What does it matter what phase the moon was in? If you leave, I won't smell you and the problem is solved, yeah?" He had now uncrossed his arms. "I do not want a mate. Never did! I can also promise you there won't be a wolf out there that will want me."