Atlas View
It took little time to arrange what I requested when everyone went their ways. Kash's fever spiked a few times while I was getting guard duty and my cot set up, causing me to get Zion to take over while I tended to his needs. The audacity of the rogues to drug an omega in heat was beyond words. Omegas have an already delicate system, not saying they as a person is delicate, but their internal and mental build was.
Kash would be even more so. Female omegas never had much of a difference in build compared to a female alpha. It is their temperament that would be the significant difference between the two. For females, heats are very much like a rut. Omegas just have a higher sex drive and pheromone attachment more often. In males there is not just the loss of masculinity. They will be smaller in build, have trouble building muscles, voices will never deepen. Unless raised correctly, meaning not over protected or abused, it can cause a large identity crisis, among many more deeply rooted issues. To top it off, they will have the ability to have pups. Just like women. Their body's have somehow evolved for this purpose. I can only imagine the first male omega reaction to this. Though it is still very rare, it is not unheard of now for males to be born an omega.
Kash was raised a little over protected. From what I can see, they never let him pick his path in life. He was not allowed to experience what is required to grow. I am sure he had small experiences, but when you are followed by guards and not used to talking to pack members, well, it explains a few things. For example, omgeas tend to rely a lot on touch. The awareness of comfort along with pheromones helps keeps them grounded. For Kash to state he wanted no other scent in his nest means he never had this reach him. He feels only grounded alone. A little troubling when I would like to be there for him. Then again, I like that about him. Unlike other omegas, he is not always trying to stay in my space. He has an air of independence that speaks volumes with his personality. Once he feels he gains that freedom I think he will open up more to our relationship.
As part of my research, I had asked Zion to ask around the pack to find out how the pack viewed him the last couple of days. From what we can tell, alphas were unsure about him and the couple of omegas here were saddened for him. Not even the betas really knew him. They all knew of him but there was not one among them that spent time with him. Even pack members his age could not speak. He has kept distance, well been prevented to get close to pack members. I had already gotten an idea of his time at home, but to see the lack of his actual pack life made things difficult. How can he express himself under these circumstances?
Hearing another groan from Kash I turned my gaze over at him. It looked like it was the normal heat symptoms. The poor guy was always in wolf form so his body was not exactly used to this. Shaking my head at another thing my mate needed help with. I planned to help him every step of the way. At least when he lets me. The sedative the trespassers used should be wearing away soon and I needed to make sure Kash was comfortable when he woke. The water was restocked and I used my scent to cover the scents of the rogues. Kash will not be too happy about this as he made it clear no other scents were welcome, but with how subconsciously he cuddles my own blanket I think I might get away with this.
Quietly I watched my mate. The blanket no longer covered his body leaving me a very R rated view. Thought he is my mate and he was in pre heat I felt no rut symptoms. The knowledge that he was threatened and attacked in his nest changed the instinct from mating to protecting. It would be a rare occurrence during our first year as a bonded pair that his heat will not affect me, so I used it to gaze on him. I know he did not like his body, but I thought it was perfect for him. He was a complete package in my eyes.
"Kash. Please wake soon." I stood up from my cot and did another walk in the large room. Since the intruders visit, I had been doing this almost every hour now. Alpha instinct to protect my mate was strong, and failure to do it was a hit on my pride. I can only hope I can make him feel safe enough to stay here. The stress for an omega in heat and not feeling safe in his nest area can make him very sick. Finalizing my circle, I went back to my cot to get a little shuteye. It was located close enough I should hear him stir, but far enough away he could not hit or bite me through the bars.
*Kash View*
My head hurt. It was the first thing I realized as I started to wake up. Next thing to call itself to attention, was that I was also needing water. My throat was very dry. As this all registered, so did the fact that I was no longer in wolf form. As I started to open my eyes, the next thing to assault my senses was another scent, one that I wanted to forget. I moaned in pain as I tried to move to a sitting position. My body was still in pre heat mode, though closer to full heat, and now very much sore.
"Kash! Finally, you're awake." Turning to the voice caused me to frown. "You have been out for almost five hours now." There was the Royal ass near my nest without an invite, and was he sitting on a cot?
"Why the fuck are you here, and why am I naked?!" The sudden realization had me squeak out the last part while grabbing a blanket. "What the actual fuck!?" I groaned; all this was making my head hurt even more.
"Water is in the fridge. Clean clothing is beside you. I will leave so you can change. Call me when you are done." He stood up and walked out. Just a demand and no question if I even wanted him back. As he left, I felt off for some reason. Like I had been abandoned. I took it as my pre heat addled brain playing tricks.
Shaking my head, I then rushed to get dressed. Who knows when he will walk back in like he owned the place. Not like he had permission in the first place. Grumbling about the clothing options brought to me, but knowing the sweats were best until I could shower and clean up, I quickly dressed. "Atlas, it's good now." Calling him as I grabbed a water bottle had me stop a second. Why did it matter if he came back? Guzzling the water and trying to ignore that I felt better when he came back was difficult.
"You gave us all a scare." He sat back down on a cot that was beside my nest. "The tranquilizer the rogues gave you was fast acting but also very strong for your body size. I think the fever with your heat helped burn it off faster. Trust me, I was ready to call my personal physician if it took much longer."
"Wait. Rogues? Tranquilizer? And most importantly, why are you sleeping down here?" I sat back in my nest still needing the safety it gave me. Then I realized the addition. "Wait!" I grabbed a new blanket that was in my nest, his scent all over it. "This is yours? How did it get in here?"
"Hold on Kash! Let me ask a few questions first. What do you last remember?" He looked very concerned.
I went to push the blanket away, only to realize I had already took it as part of my nest. So, I grabbed it out of spite and pulled it over my legs instead. "I had an argument with Jace, went to bed, slept like shit and woke in heat. Grabbed MY blanket and came down. Locking the door up." No need to give him all the specifics. "After I switched to wolf, I laid down to rest. Nothing more."
"What about your wolf? Can he remember anything after you switched over?" I could tell he was trying to help me remember. "This is important."
Now I was truly confused. "I feel very confused right now to be honest."
He stood up and walked closer to my cell. "I get that. Try asking your wolf then we will leave it for now. As long as you are safe."
As he approached, I realized my wolf did not speak. "Wait. I can't feel my wolf. I sense and feel all this strange stuff but my wolf is sleeping!" I could feel panic building. "What if he never wakes? What if he can't?"
"Shh, it is okay Kash. Relax. It is just a side affect of the drugs. Just take a deep breath. That's it." His voice was soothing and gentle. Almost a complete one eighty from the cocky royal I met before.
"What happened to me and what is going on?" Without realizing it I had leaned towards him on the bars of my cell. "I feel..I do not know what."
"That is the bond you feel." His gentle chuckle had me turn to look at him and growl out of reflex.
"I remember..." A scent. Forest after a rain and home. Warm and safe. It was, or is him? "My wolf told me something.." I shook my head and closed my eyes, relaxing once more on the cell bars. "It hurts to think right now."
"I asked Zion to bring some porridge down. You think you can try and eat a little? While you eat, we can talk. I can only tell you what we saw and what happened after. Nothing more." Though gentle he was serious.
Still unsure I only nodded. Food would be good. Then I can listen and process my own thoughts. I did not like how safe I felt around him all of a sudden. It was unnerving. To make things worse, my best friend is still quiet and unable to help me. I was even less wolf now than I felt I was before. I whimpered as I thought about how my wolf was my life line, he kept me sane. Now I lost him, even if temporary. As I moved about another scent started to come to my nose. I turned towards the door and instinctively growled at the intruder. Why I did not do the same to Mr. I know all, I can think of later. Right now, someone was entering my territory.
"Zion, just leave it near the door I will come to you. Little omega has woken and does not want you here." Chuckling after looking my way once more made me want to bite him.
The fever was starting to come back, which means my heat was soon to be full blown, and I could not feel my wolf. I got up and grabbed another water bottle, well two, and sat back down. I no longer felt like eating or talking. The was no way I wanted to deal with the stupid ass royal and my heat. Feeling my embarrassment in full with the slick I could feel now leaking, knowing they would be able to smell it, had me snap. "EVERYONE LEAVE!" Curling up in my nest strategically placing the new blanket over myself I made sure they knew to stay out. "Just fucking leave me alone! I do not need anything, so STAY AWAY!" There really was not much time before my heat really picked up and I became lost in the senses.
The last time I was not in wolf form during my heat was during my first one. The pain and discomfort were things I did my best to ignore. Here I am now years later and stuck feeling it all once more. I hated feeling this weak and useless. Why was I the one that the Moon Goddess decided to curse? A moan escaped my lips as the electricity went up my spine. The worse part of a heat. You feel pleasure from the simplest of touches, or sounds. Even smells can have you moan like a whore. I refused to give in, sometimes causing myself pain with bites to stop myself. If I am lucky it will be a short heat.