I'm a dusky girl. I experienced lot of discrimination in my teen I was little over weight too!. Everybody around me was experienced little sweet love moment but me, I'm always background artist in a drama,
Still I expected some one to love me or just to see me as a person.
But no one did!
Then,on 2014 I opened a facebook account,
There I met Mr.Ajay kumar.
He was doing his first year in bachelor degree,
He gave me request and I accepted it,
At first I thought to move with him as a friend so I treated him just as a friend,
Over 2 years I carried away with a fantasy of Facebook so I'm not in much contact with Ajay I almost forgot him,
But fate tried to show me what true love is...
Then after 2 years when I was in 12th std I contacted him again and this time we really become very close, I will blush uncontrollable when I hear his Name,
I always text him, called him,I kinda become an addict to him finally my board exams approched,I always studied with him in mobile,I don't know I would love him this much during those days, I'm not a girl who would cry for a man,but I cried every single day after he left me,
I will regret every single minute of my Life to ignore his indirect proposal,
I made him to wait for me to text but now Im feeling sort of pain in my heart to call him,
I know he won't accept the call but I badly need his love,
After,the beautiful friend ship of one year there comes a dark day,
He was too busy to take my call,
I got pretty anger,
He convinced me by sorry,
Then again he hanged and rejected my calls so I loosed my temper and said him "you are using me for time pass"
That's the Last time I talked to him,
It's been three years,he blocked me in every social media accounts even in Google pay, and then finally I found he is in relationship with another girl named durga for 3 years, after our break-up I missed him a lot! I became lonely piece of shit,
Even my friend tried to convince him,
It's been 3 years I still feel the pain,
I even took same major for him,
I know him for 6 years, with in 6 year I loved him seriously for 1 year and weaping for him for 3 years...but I didn't saw him for even once...
lastly I still miss you Ajay.... love you,
But one day during the break up period he texted me and said he got a job,
I don't know why would he even care to tell, He hated me for 3 years, then my friend said don't start to expect more!
So now I learnt to control My feelings
My heart not accepting that he is in another relationship but I should move on. Maybe he don't have any feelings for me but he is my first love.
I miss you and still love you Ajay ❤️