"-Kieran please…I am not in the mood to go out.
-you will spend the night thinking about nonsense and you won't sleep.
-you think you can fix that.
-we will see. Stop talking you talk too much." He pulled the Whining girl along with him.
There was a pretty swing in the back yard in the garden for two people to sit on it.
She raised her eyebrow at him in seriously look, but he rolled his eyes and made her sit next to him and start to sing back and forth in soft rhythm.
"-Kieran…" he shushed her before he added:
"-you don't have to ruin the moment, enjoy the calm weather, nature voices, admire the pretty black canvas with its pretty stars, let the wind purify your lungs with deep breaths and with every swing let all your thoughts drop away…then we can speak." She looked at his calm face with closed eyes enjoying the spring breeze.
It was awhile for Mal to get lost staring at the sky, feeling a bit relieved before Kieran broke the silence between them:
"-so…what's in your mind now?
-not pretty much, I will try to find solutions for my problems tomorrow morning.
-that's what I want to hear. By the way why did you came to my room earlier?" He said smirking and she answered unbothered:
"-I just came to check on you that's all.
-yeah I believed you…what do you want to know Mal?
-will you answer me?
-just ask…profit from the opportunity
-who made the scar in your stomach?
-I wasn't expecting you to get concerned but anyway…I don't know honestly, I didn't see his face. However he knew what he was doing.
-when did this happened?
-two years ago.
-are you not concerned about your father's assassination attempt.
-he will die anyway, if not with his illness, someone will…I have prepared myself mentally for all possible scenarios. So I will be fine." She just nodded and looked above her at the sky.
"-so what did you do after I left you?
-I spend my time in the library…I couldn't sleep.
-reading that book again, you can ask me if you are curious about something.
-well no I wasn't reading I was taking care of the things that the king was supposed to do but he assigned you." He chuckled and smiled at her glowing emerald green eyes under the moonlight before she looked at her lap avoiding his gaze.
It was a pretty long moment of silence, Mal playing with her fingers and sometimes with her hair nervous. The prince didn't bother to look at her and said:
"-stop fidgeting and say what you want?
-ok…Ummm…well, can I ask you something that isn't in the book?
-Anything love.
-KIERAN!
-Come on Mal.
-forget it." She was about to stand up but he pushed her back laughing.
"-fine, you don't have to be mad…What were you going to ask me?" Malin looked at him hesitant at first but his face and warm smile with the cute dimple on his left cheek made her feel relaxed.
"-do…demons have feelings, I mean could they fall in love with humans?" Kieran smiled bitterly at her and sat in front of her their knees touching and he gently held her hand between his and answered:
"-So you have been thinking…if your father…truly loved your mom?" Mal looked down and answered quietly barley anyone could hear her low voice but he heard her clearly:
"-yeah.
-Sorry to bring it up to you, but demons don't have feelings, it's a thing for humans that is very confusing to them.
-Can you explain more?
-yeah with pleasure, demons don't have the capacity or even know what sentiments are. They are good at killing, torment, stealing, manipulating and so on. Good deeds and genuine feelings are not in their nature or even vocabulary.
-If they are that much evil, how people still fall for them and even… love them.
-Well they are good at pretending and mind manipulation. They pretend to be nice, friendly, funny and most importantly charming.
-like what are you doing now?
-Really?
-I didn't say anything you said it yourself.
-ok my human part is showing that I care now.
-ok I will trust you with that for now.
-and about trust; their presence feels like the entire world and their absence feels unbearable when people are around you and you feel secluded, unwanted and unloved. While with them you feel as if you are levitate it, loved and you give them your full trust. And that's the biggest mistake.
-why? Is it that bad?
-Duh, after that they will change, the funny bubbly person you have been with will be the most ruthless; merciless and the most narcissistic person in the world. You will be used, tormented, belittled humiliated to submit to them. The more you submit the more energy you give the more powerful they get. All in all you will be their little marionette, taking over your life, possess you as one of their belongings. They will get into your private life details because they are your muster and you are not more than a servant to feed them and do what they order you to. Or…
-Or?
-There will be punishment, and let's not get into details.
-Why?
-You really don't want to know.
-so do they force you to have a relation with them?
-Well…mostly because of driven lust or to produce a child. It doesn't matter if the human gave their consent or not, they could mess with their mind.
-but that's rape.
-As I told you, demons and feelings two things that can't be found together.
-I really despise you now.
-Why? What did I do now?
-well you probably rapped some girls and tortured them as you killed too.
-As much as I am a bad person I have NEVER rapped a girl nor have a relation with one without her consent. Nor tortured someone unless he betrayed me or went against my orders…And for killing you are one yourself Mal so don't play it innocent.
-I kill only because I have too.
-haven't you thought that they have a family or someone they take care of.
-you said it yourself that demons don't have emotions.
-then why did you kill them before you know that? For fun or just because you are going to get paid at the end?" Kieran snapped back but Mal smiled bitterly before she answered him:
"-I killed because I didn't want no one to experience the pain I felt, that no one would feel abandoned, no one would have a one side love, that no one would have to be used to death…You won't understand it anyway." Kieran started laughing like a maniac, Mal felt a bit scared from his reaction. But he stopped suddenly and looked closely to her making her fall back a little. That smirk, those red eyes that have something she never saw before…pain.
"-yeah I am not going to understand. I forgot I am a fucking heartless demon! I don't know what sentiments mean not because my half blood is from an incubus but you know why perfect huntress, our lovely saint, the beast in front of you; didn't grow up with them. It was considered weak, I was considerate vulnerable. I have to fight every feeling I have to be tougher, stronger, smarter… otherwise I won't be recognized, I won't be feared…I would be thrown away or killed by pure hunters like you with their noble purpose to free that DAMN world from monsters like me." He stopped for a while and stood up, his back facing her before he added bitterly:
"-I thought I can trust you, I thought I can find someone who can understand me at least once in my life but I guess…I was a fucking stupid moron to think that way." He stopped to turn around his eyes filled with something more than rage. Hatred.
"-nothing change…as we start as enemies we will end it that way. Don't get near me or talk to me unless it's important. Otherwise goodbye Miss Chace I hope we can finish that stupid deal and end our friendship here. Oh wait sorry for my rudeness, I forgot, we were never friends and forgive me if I got involved in your life unwantedly. Don't worry it won't happen again." He didn't left for her space to reply, he just left her speechless, alone…