"My quest for love is unflinching
...I won't rest on my oars
...till I find her"
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I had to be strong for me.i have to love myself.maybe he left me already for her? Yes I need to be strong for me. Just then I saw liquid drop on my note,I realized have been crying.i quickly wiped my tears. Talking About "her", during my visit to Jeremy...I had access to his phone and I discovered that my pictures has been completely deleted from his phone replaced by "her" pictures. Well, I felt so bad but I decided not to ask him then. All I wanted was to enjoy the moment with because I missed him so much.
Recently he uploaded a picture on Facebook,I took my time to go through the comment section to know the new babe .... don't blame me,I was devastated.Then I saw "her"...her name- Belinda. Belinda called my Jeremy "My sweetheart". My head screamed "he is mine not urs!"
At the thought of that, my eyes keep bleeding.." am i not enough for him eh?". Just then Wisdom one of my admirer walked into the class and sat close to me.
"Gift what's wrong? Have been observing you for some time now,u don't look okay.You can talk to me okay please..even as a friend"
"I'm fine"
"I know you not but whatever it is..I know you will conquer it, you are stronger than you think dear"
I rested my head on his shoulder,I really needed it.. but I wished it was Jeremy
"What would you like to take? I'm going to get some stuff for myself.. you know how the next class is.4hours lecture"he said laughing
"A drink, thanks for asking"
"Anything for you sweetheart,my precious pearl"
"Jeremy call me that, you have no right to call me that okay" I nearly screamed at him but i just composed myself.but then where is Jeremy? My Jeremy! What's happening? Please come back to me 😪
After 4hours, finally the lecture was over.. the joy I felt was loud. Wisdom walked me down to hostel as usual.we laughed and talked about a lot of things.i think I deserve to be happy.i got to my hostel feeling better.
Jeremy POV
Why am I missing her so much? That naive girl..no better packaging self mittteeeewww but I can't deny the fact that I feel empty. Even when I'm with Belinda my love,I keep thinking about her.. she's special, very special.. I thought to myself.
Then James walked in....
"Guy, how far? This one wey ur face cast like this? Wentin dey happen?"
"Nothing o my boy"
"Lover boy I know wentin be your problem .. what did you do to Gift? Or Are we expecting some thing precious? Hahahaha"
"I no touch her... wentin be your own self"
"Problem for the kontori too much already abeg.." James said.as he continue teasing Jeremy
Fast forward to 2weeks later
Gift POV
I feel better and I think deserve better.. just then Wisdom called
" Helo babe"
"Hi"
"Are you free this evening?"
"Errrmm yes, hope there's no problem?"
"Thank goodness,busy madam.. maybe we should take a walk, what do you think?
"I will think about it and get back to you"
"No o, give me an answer now, I know you o"
"Okay fine,accepted"
"Awwnn thanks pretty lady, see you by evening" he said happily ending the call
I signed
Meanwhile my roommates were all over me hailing me.
"Gift!Gift! We go see see the guy today..our love"
"I go love o"
They all bursted out laughing.well I don't blame them.. wisdom calls almost Everytime even at midnight.The guy is either in love or lust. i just felt better, anything to distract me from thinking about Jeremy.but I kinda like Wisdom,he is cool and of course very handsome one of the best brains in school.
Jeremy POV.
I think I'm loosing concentration I need to call her.All I think is about her,even when I'm with Belinda. Anytime we made out,I'm mentally doing it with Gift. I literally picture her. I almost called her name one of those occasions, thank goodness I realized it quickly. I was almost caught by Belinda. Somehow she knew I wasn't focused and I felt bad for her. Belinder is a nice person with a soft loving heart. She practically worship the ground I walked on. Fall at my feet at any moment. But here am I thinking about Gift. what will I tell her now, will she accept me again? Has she moved on? I know she loves me but what about now? I hurt her so much.
Just then Jeremy called Gift, his heart panting..
"Wow she picked" Jeremy thought to himself
"Hello" her voice rang out.
Immediately,I felt my body vibrating with so much desire for her. But I couldn't find any word...
"Hello" she called out again