Hello there my dear reader (I love you btw), first of all before you start reading I want to tell you about myself, I am 18 years old and I am going to start college, why am I telling this to you? well it's to tell you that first, I don't have any experience whatsoever with writing stories...none, maybe I made stories here and there like lying to my mother about the reason why I cam home late, or why I wasn't able to finish my project and stuff like that, but for stories for reading enjoyment...none, no experience...

Next is being a student won't help with my writing schedule, I can only write in my free time. Why be an author? well because I love novels, I love reading fantasy stories, novels and fanfictions, to the point that I wanted to make one of my own....I am actually writing a novel, Literally life changing, 5 chaps in but then hesitation came with writing, the reason is because of my lack of experience, I didn't really want to use it as an excuse with my bad story writing (if it is) so instead of releasing that, I'm instead going to start with writing a fan-fiction...

Ok so about this fic, I plan to make this fanfic as my writing experimentation, or a place for me to try things out, and to learn as I write, to improve on the things I do, so this means I am going to be ambitious with this novel, I am going to go ham with this fanfic, so this means that it is going to be chaotic, messy, but maybe, just maybe, fun...well for me atleast.

I'm not writing this fic for audiences, no, but if I were to have audiences then that would be cool, and I hope my dear readers could provide some feedback to help with my writing, I'm just writing down my daydreams, my thoughts while staring at nothing, and I'm going to write those little imaginations into this fic haha...

It may be messy but I will do my best to make sure things will make sense...I won't violate checov's gun thingy and since I'll be "ambitious" I'll make sure to make my world building as good and clear as I can, as much as I can make it.

also it is r-18 not because I'm doing this for wish fulfillment( ok maybe a little but just a little bit ), I'm doing it because I want to go and experiment with the romance genre, if I can make a satisfactory romance, and also because I want to see just how good I can be to make imagery with plain words hehehe~

anymore rantsssssssssssssss.s.s.sss well...how about some issues I'm currently facing with my writing, it's how to feed info dumplings to my readers without making them choke into it because i'm force feeding them, my intentions are to feed you guys dumplings and let you digest it but I still think what I did is not good enough, It is still an info dump...I want to learn how to put info cues into parts of the story where the reader would make conclusions, make the info on their own based the chunks of bite-sized dumplings I spread into the story... well I am still starting so I'm still a long way from there..

Uhm another is that there would be many dialogues because idk how to like world build hahahah, I'm currently world building through the conversations that the characters make... tell me if I did atleast a "not bad" for my stuff...

but that's all for now, I'll make more author's rants here and there to tell you some stuff about my life that influence the story, stuff that are indirectly part of the story, and stuff about the story...for now enjoy what I have made and pls don't expect fast updates...I will try to release atleast 1 chap per weak, my apologies I am really slow at writing, I currently only have 2 chaps right now and I'll release one with this rant so you can read that but I'll release the next one next week same day....

I think that's all for now, so see you next week my lovely readers in my head which I am currently imagining are clapping while I'm bowing hahahahhaha~