Belinda kept trying to breathe in and out to calm herself. It wasn't working. She could feel the fear wanting to take over. She closed her eyes and counted to 50 slowly while breathing in and out. Her heart rate started to slow some. Her mind did not feel as muddled. But the fear was still gripping her insides.
"Ok,Belinda, calm down. Let's be logical."
She was talking to herself again. "Great! Now I am talking out loud to myself!" "Actually, I am right here. You aren't alone." a voice said ...in her head??? "I am losing my mind!" Belinda took a deep breath in and then exhaled. Then another deep breath and exhaled. Closed her eyes and counted to 10. Phew... she felt better. "Glad you are feeling better!" Belinda jumped out of her skin. Where was that voice coming from! "Heee...lll...ooo. Who's there?" "Hello. I am Artic, short for Artemis. It is so good to speak with you, finally." Belinda said, "Hello! Show yourself! Come out! How do you know me?" "I am you...or.rather the other half of you. I am your wolf."
Belinda fainted!
SEVERAL HOURS LATER
Belinda stirred. She felt the soft,warm bed beneath her body. She was afraid to open her eyes. "When did I become such a scared kitty!" she thought to herself. "More like a scared puppy dog!" an answer came back. She fainted one again.
Belinda woke fully with a startled reaction when she heard a screen door slam shut and a semi-familiar voice say, "Shhhh. Can't you close the door quietly. She is still resting. Poor dear, what a frightful night for her. Imagine ...not one person sharing the truth with you. All her life lied to by the so called family who was supposed to love her."
Belinda wondered if it was her the voice was talking about. She laid very quietly on the bed and laitened,listened, to hear more.
She wondered what lies? If it was her, was then woman speaking about her mother?
"Oh so many lies!"Belinda heard in her head space. She promptly fainted once again.
HOURS LATER
Belinda stirred, slowly allowing her mind to access the room she was in. It wasn't the room in her host family's home where she placed her things. so where was she? She sat up slowly. She looked down at her person...good...phew...still dressed in the same clothes she ran in.
Throwing her legs over the edge of the bed, she sat to get used to sitting upright. Her head hurt...a migraine? Maybe.
"Okay sleepy head, ready to talk?" THAT VOICE AGAIN! Belinda began to feel faint again. The room soun around and just before she felt like she could not hold on she heard the voice again,"STOP THIS RIGHT NOW! I NEED TO SPEAK WITH YOU!" Belinda blinked and ...promptly passed out yet again!
Darkness. It was quiet and dark. "Belinda?" a calm, sweet, caring female voice called her name. It was so dark. Belinda could see nothing. "Belinda, stop looking for me. You won't see me...yet. We need to talk. I am Artemus. I am your wolf. Yes, I said wolf. I can't seem to keep you conscious long enough to have this conversation so I am here I. our shared mind space. I didn't want to frighten you.I have been waiting so long to speak with you. There is so much I want to share. His arrival made it mandatory we talk NOW. He is your...our mate. Our other half. Our soul mate. He has been waiting for us for so long. He will not hurt us. His wolf, Ramus, loves us as much as Juan does."
Belinda did not respond. She just laid in the dark...in the silence.She was taking this information in.
"So, you say you share mind space with me and you are my 'wolf'?"
"Yes!"
"You say I am not insane and that you are real?"
"Yes!"
"You say that there is a man named Juan who is my mate looking for me?"
"Yes!"
Belinda great quiet. "And you really even I am not...'we' are not insane?"
"Yes."
"I am losing it..." Belinda thought clearly to herself. "Um. No...you are a werewolf as was your father and his Father and his father back to the beginning of creation when Mother Moon created us."
"Oh my goodness.. I need to check myself into an insane asylum!" Belinda was truly thinking she was crazy.
"No. I can prove we are who I say we are." her so called wolf voice said.
"Okay... prove it."
Just as she finished saying the word "it" the most excruciating pains ran through her body and Belinda screamed. Two sets of shoes appeared before her eyes and she heard a voice..a soothing male voice, "Now...move her outside and quickly..." She felt her body being lifted princess style but she could do nothing but scream as the pain in every joint was almost unbearable. "Shhh..there ...there...my love...shh" he placed his hand on her forehead and she did feel better...less pain. When she finally stopped feeling pain she opened her eyes and saw two giant white paws attached to two white fur covered legs.