Piper, just keep crying for I don't know how long. I let her cry and I just hold her even though my limbs are protesting and my head is pounding.
She needs to let it all out. I know she has been trying to hold herself together while I was unconscious for days and I can't imagine what it must feel like for her, but now that I'm here I want her to not be scared anymore.
I can't imagine her pain, my gentle wife who would cry over a pathetic scene in a movie, she's someone who would organize a memorial for somebody she barely knew. She would celebrate small victories of other people.
"I'm sorry, Alex. I did this to you". She apologized.
"You have to know that I didn't kiss, Zelda. She kissed me.
I was surprised and I didn't know what to do, so I couldn't move". She explained.
I shouldn't have trusted her with Piper. I partly blame myself for this.
"That fucking woman! I'm going to kill her!". I said enraged.
"And then she said she love me and I feel bad for her, Al". She added and cry even harder.
Oh, Of course she's gonna feel bad. I just shook my head and held her tighter.
"But I told her we can't be friends anymore. I told her that I love you and it's not going to change. Babe, you have to believe me". She said still sobbing.
Oh my God! She literally has an endless supply of tears.
"Piper, I believe you.
I overreacted. I should've talked to you first. What I did was very stupid and reckless and It almost caused me my life". I admitted.
I can't imagine what will happen to Piper if I died. I shook my head and I don't like to dwell on it.
"No Alex, it wasn't your fault. Technically, it was the truck driver's fault because he was drunk. But you wouldn't have been driving off if it wasn't for me". She argued.
"What? The driver was drunk? I was speeding I thought it was my fault". I blurted.
"You were speeding? Alex!". She scolded.
"What? I was mad and I have a good excuse". I reason.
"Oh my God, and here I thought I was the reckless one!". She murmured.
"Okay enough of me, why don't you just go back to crying?". I suggested.
"But I don't want to cry anymore. I'm tired". She said and yawn.
I look at the clock and it's 9:30 pm.
I continue holding her and after a minute she went limp. She must've fallen asleep because her weight is pressing on my ribs. A pain shoot through me. I need to shift my body a little away from her but it hurts so much that I can't even move.
God! This is hard. I am in so much pain but I don't want to wake Piper up. I want her to stay beside me. I need her more as much as she needed me.
Fuck! My eyes waters. I took a deep breath and move myself a little bit further away. This is so frustrating, I can't even do a simple task. But I did it anyway.
Okay, okay. I did it. I tried to calm myself. I hold her tightly to me. Piper, need to rest and I just want to hold her beside me.
A nurse came in to check on me and I motion for her to be quiet.
"I'm going to check your vitals and take your blood". She whispered.
"Okay". I said quietly.
She took my blood and check my vitals.
"All done". She informed me.
"Thank you". I replied.
I can't believe how much weight Piper lost. Her arms are thinner and her cheek bones are more prominent.
She's in too much stress and again there's this pain coursing through my heart that ache for my wife.
I wish I can hug her properly and hold her more tightly to me
That's when I notice something sparkly on her finger that caught my attention. I squint my eyes to see it clearly.
Wait!
It's the ring. My engagement ring!
Oh Nicky! She ruined my proposal.
Fuck!
Guess I'm officially engaged then.
We stayed like this for a few more hours. My arm is numb and my body is aching not to mention my head is pounding.
Piper, unconsciously moved her body closer to me as she would always do when we cuddle to sleep.
"Ow!". I said loudly as I was shocked by the pain.
That startled her.
"Oh God! I'm sorry, Alex". She jumped out of bed.
"Fuck!". I cussed.
I hate feeling helpless. Even the simple things like cuddle is so hard for me to do now. This is so frustrating.
"Do you want me to call the nurse and ask for more pain meds?". Piper, offered.
"No!" I blurted.
"I'm fine".
"Alex, this is not the right time to act tough. I'm calling the nurse!". She insisted.
"Just quit it Pipes, will you?". I said mad.
"I'm tired, I'm going to sleep".
"But you are in pain!". She said exasperated.
"Which is why I need my sleep". I shot back.
I checked the time it's almost 12 midnight. The pain meds is making me sleepy.
I closed my eyes trying to fall asleep and to help dull the pain. I don't need anymore pain meds.
I can still handle the pain. Besides, they just gave me one a few hours ago.
And then I fell asleep.
******
I felt someone's hand stroking my hair. I opened my eyes and it's my wife, she's staring at me. It's already bright outside and my body is in pain. Too much pain but I try to ignore it.
"I'm sorry I snapped at you". I apologized.
"Don't worry about it, I know you're in pain. I'm not sadistic Alex, but I'd rather have you snapped at me anytime than seeing you lifeless and..." She trailed off.
I grab her other hand and hold it tightly. I felt her ring. My engagement ring.
"Ugh!". I groaned.
She was in panic mode again.
"What? What hurts, babe?". Her eyes scanned my body looking for the culprit.
"I'm telling the nurse you need more meds". She insisted.
"Nicky". I blurted out.
"Nicky? What about her?". She asked confused.
"She ruined my proposal". I complain and I held her hand and touch the ring.
"Oh, right". She chuckled.
"I guess I'm getting married to her now. Don't worry babe, you're invited". She said playfully.
"I'm honored". I added.
Suddenly I've got an idea.
I want to do this right because Piper, deserve so much more.
"Hand me the ring". I said serious now.
"What? Why?". She asked.
"I want to do it right. I'll propose to you right now". I announced.