I woke up and experience that feeling of confusion. I don't remember where I am and It took me a second to remember that I am in the hospital. I have fallen asleep in the chair.
Alex, just continue to lay there, silent and still. I sent Nicky home so she could rest and I asked her to bring me some clothes when she comes back.
The doctor said she won't be waking up yet and they told me to go home so I can rest. But I refused to leave. I want to be here when Alex, wake up.
I check the clock and it's 6:30 in the morning. I decided to go to the cafeteria and grab some coffee and maybe some breakfast.
I got up and kissed Alex's hand.
She's stable for now.
I went to the Cafeteria and got myself a coffee and some pancakes. I haven't eaten since lunch yesterday. I don't feel like eating but I need my strength if I want to take care of my wife. I don't want to leave her alone in her room incase she wakes up so I eat my food quickly and went back to her room.
I walk back to Alex's room and hoping she's awake, but when I get there she's still the same. Just laying there unmoving.
The sound of the monitor echoing her heart comforts me knowing she is still alive.
My wife, even though she is bruised and there's tubes and wires everywhere around her body she is still beautiful.
I wanted so bad to hold her but I'm afraid I would harm her more.
I badly need her. I would usually run to her when I'm having a bad day or when I'm hurt, sad, lonely or afraid. I tell her everything. Even the boring stuffs about work or even my rant about the traffic, she would gladly listen to me.
But how can I do that now when the only person who makes me feel better is right here. Unconscious, bruised and damaged. How can she comfort me when she's the reason I'm feeling all of this.
"Alex, I need you right now. Please wake up you have to fight for me". I whispered and I hold her hand and kissed it.
*****
At around 11:30 Nicky arrived. She brought some food and we both went to the cafeteria to eat lunch.
I grab this opportunity to thank her.
"Nicky, thank you so much for doing this. For being here for, Alex. It really means so much to me. I know you didn't ask for any of this but I just want to let you know that I am grateful that you're here and I don't know what I'll do without you". I grab her hands fron across the table and gave it a squeeze.
"Piper, listen. You and Alex, are my family now. I would do anything for you guys". She replied.
"I'm not good for, Alex. I always hurt her and now I put her in grave danger. I need to stay away from her, Nicky". I uttered.
"I don't think that that's the solution here. Alex, loves you. She wants to be with you.
You know why we were there yesterday? She was going to propose to you, Piper". Nicky, revealed.
"She was going to do that?". I couldn't believe what she said.
She took something out from her bag and hands me a small black box.
"She was going to give that to you and ask you to marry her. I was holding that thing for her because she lost it yesterday". That made me laugh. It is so unusual for Alex, to lost things especially the ring? She's must've been anxious.
"We went to your office yesterday to pick you up and bring you to my folks place. At the restaurant?. She had the rooftop set up.
She was supposed to ask you to marry her during sunset.
She knows how much you love sunset". She said smiling.
Alex, has always been so thoughtful, she doesn't talk much but she listens well. She would remember every small details and she would always make an effort to show you how much she means to you. She is that good. Sometimes it makes me wonder what I did right to deserve her.
I opened the box and look at the ring. It is so beautiful. I like it. I took the ring out of the box and put it on my finger and it fits perfectly.
"I am going to marry her". I said finally.
We both went back to Alex's room. Nicky, went inside and I have to stay outside so I sat on the chair outside her room.
I can see Alex, from where I am sitting. My pretty bruised wife.
I am touching the ring on my finger. I still have the other ring from when we got Prison Married.
How did our life became so tragic? I shook my head and chuckled.
I feel like we're a cast in a tragic movie. Destined not to be together.
I erase that thought.
No! Alex, is going to wake up.
We are going to get married.
Maybe have kids together.
I don't know. But she needs to wake up.