I froze, fell silent and
silenced, but this body can't help but move to follow what I should follow but I don't like. I started to approach the car door and was forced to enter__sat in the seat next to him.
The silent stance of a thousand languages and stiff body without movement I show for him. I always look out the car window. I know he glances at me every now and then. That Roy.
"Inez, my future wife. Please smile, I can't see your beauty. Dad is right after all. We're getting married soon, we need to get to know each other and we need to be together often." Greet him with a tone that I think is dry.
"Would you like to stop by or eat maybe?" he offered to me again, I just shook my head slowly.
"In the near future we will be engaged, don't be like this! Try to be more relaxed with our destiny." The explanation really means nothing, in the right ear out the left ear. I still didn't budge a bit.
Royan started his car. I was just silent until about half an hour had passed. I just remembered that I haven't seen my cellphone at all. I don't remember at all! Should I ask how Arman is? It must have been a lot of activities that they spent last night together. For a moment I was transfixed and silent when I started to touch the screen of my cellphone. I'm looking for a chat on his behalf.
Arman sent two chats to my number since this afternoon? While I don't know? It could have been sent when I fainted, how heavy and troubled my heart was when I read the chat this afternoon, he said he was eating together with Ayu's cooking menu. Spicy chicken stew. There was a second chat, saying that Arman was asked by Ayu to travel around Surabaya and at the same time look for the address of his place of work. The next three days have started to be active. What kind of ride is that? They are now circling looking at the beautiful city alone? While I'm here....
[Sorry I just replied to you, my head is dizzy, I just woke up. Yes, eating together is okay, the important thing is not eating together]
Reply to me in the first chat with me with the link.
[Many abuse goodwill. You don't have to ride him for a long time, after you find the address, go home soon, honey]
I replied to Arman's second chat, I still include the link.
I'm also here alone with him, but I really embrace the sadness, because he who is beside me is a man I don't want. I'm really sorry because of the tragedy of fainting in the sugarcane field, so it has to end like this, the closer I get to him, I accidentally arrived at his house. I've slept soundly in his bed, he even carried me? Ooh... No! I really don't like this line. Covering my face, I shook my head to myself as an expression of regret,
Crying... I'm crying again these eyes, it's getting puffy like a panda's eyes are affected, I don't care about Royan who is beside me. I know he glanced at me over and over again, until he poked his face in my direction, then handed me a purple handkerchief. I didn't want to reach for it, I shook my head still stubbornly, just wiping my tears with my fingers. I don't want his handkerchief, I don't want his attention!
"Are you crying again?" He finally said, perhaps seeing how uncertain I was.
"Come on, don't cry anymore. Everything will be fine, don't continue to faint again. I'll take it home later if you faint."
"Please leave me, forget me. I've suffered enough all this time," I said, stuttering my voice.
"I can't, Nez! I've started to feel that I've fallen in love with you, almost every day I always find out about you. Everything about you is amazing to me, you are not like most other women," he replied.
"I can not return your love, my love is only for him." The tears are getting bigger.
"I'll be patiently waiting for Nez, I'm not asking you to reply now. I said I'll wait, I won't force you, but I have to have you," the rebuttal he was throwing pierced my heart.
"You said you love me? Still in a matter of a few weeks, it should be erased! Arman loves me for five years, he continues to be with me, it's not worth your taste, again I don't love you! I only love him, he's the only one that lives in my heart, You will hurt yourself if you force yourself to wait for me, what you feel is not love, but an escape from me for your heartache for the woman who left you," I argued with my tears getting louder.
"Let time speak Nez, I don't want to argue with you, I know I don't want to let you go, no matter what."
The more I weep in lamenting this line of my love life. He's so stubborn, how can he say he loves me? Just the second time you met me? Even if he investigates to find out about me, there's no way he'll be able to know that much about me and my personality. It's impossible to fall in love with me that quickly.
The vibration that I think comes from the grip of my hand makes me quickly open a chat which is definitely a reply from Arman, this fast he replies to me, meaning he stands bye and is worried about me,
[Yeah honey, I'll be home soon, it's looking for the address, what are you doing?]
[I'm crying]
The louder the cry, which was initially soft.
A call from Arman came into my cellphone, I immediately received it so that the man next to me, knew how much Arman and I were together and could not be separated by anything.
"Hello Inez, honey! Don't cry anymore."
"I can't stop thinking about you, I must cry when I think of us."
"Don't be sad anymore, tomorrow I will tell you everything. I'm fine and take care of all your messages, don't worry, I always love you."
"I believe in you, I look forward to seeing you tomorrow, I Miss u."
"I also miss you. It's really awkward and uncomfortable for my home atmosphere with other people here, as soon as he has to get a new boarding house."
"Okay see you tomorrow honey."
"Ready my dear." Hearing Arman's voice, who seemed to be able to control the atmosphere there, made me a little calm and no longer filled with jealousy, a smile was etched on my lips, slightly soothing my thirst which I couldn't stand drinking from Royan's house, even though all the treats were there for me.
"He's really nice, isn't he?" he added which made me turn to him.
"He's too perfect, that no one can ever replace him," I retorted scathingly at him.
He gave off a strange mimic, nodding while showing his lips in the shape of the letter O, while keeping his focus on the drive to pay attention to the road we were taking.
"You don't know me yet. I'm also a good man and any woman who is with me will feel happy, you can see the evidence that I was abandoned, not I left. You and I are one type, both loving and equally loyal, because of that I want to marry you."