Last night I posted in that App. That is Korean Friends App which called ~CHINGU. Chingu means Friends. Friends from different countries in the world that want to learn about Korean Language , Cultures and Traditions. There are lot of people using that app before and I don't know at first what is the meaning of that App.
Until now, im thinking why the stranger said that i will not regret about being his friend?
Hmm. Maybe that stranger is one of a jerk I guess. Let's forget that thing.
Today, it is sunny day. I'm just calling my clients wholeday and because the month is going to end we are too busy for all reports. Everyone cannot get my attention when i am working focusly.
Work is getting more harder specially the pandemic which is the Covid19 rising up. It's hard to work but I need to do for my family. I am working at the bank for almost 1 year and 6 months and from the last 4 months since January 2020 work is getting more harder and stressful. We have too many reports everyday and sometimes being scolded by your boss cannot help you to boost your confidence but sometimes makes you realized.. Did i need to do this Job? or Should I quit? But because of neccessity i should and I will do.
It's almost 6:30 evening and i didn't notice that it is getting late. I do overtime again and i need to finished it before going home but I guess i cannot do it . Everyone , I mean my co-workers are already went home and Im the only one left again. So, I turned off the computer again and go out to the company. Looking to my motor parking outside and picking up my key again inside of my bag so i can start the engine on.
I went home, but I guess everyone are busy to their phones. I walked go straightly to my room and locked it. Change my clothes and go to the kitchen to have some food before i start to make my reports. My REPORTS are my LIFE.
Mom asked me " YOU STILL DON'T WANT TO QUIT ?Your work is getting more harder. Look at yourself? You are very thinner unlike before..Stressed~ scolded me.
" Mom, I still cannot quit my job. They need me there but if I cannot take it any longer I will quit as soon as possible (" Not now, Not now, I cannot quit mom .. I know how much you tried hard to support our family since dad died.. I know it was too hard for you but thank you for not giving up on us.)
Not Now. Maybe soon Mom.. I am finished having my dinner so I will do my report..
I went to the living room with the same spot which where I am lastnight. Putting laptop on the table and started to encode my REPORT.
Then I remembered, I didn't log in to that app since in the morning so i tried to log in again there. Checking my post there still no new.Some just comment "Hi or Hello'. I forgot to reply the Stranger lastnight .. maybe i can reply now. ~ SURE WHY NOT. ~I replied.
After few minutes I take some pic about what I am doing and posted it there with my caption ^REPORTS ARE KILLING ME^
Some commented where i worked and what kind of work? But i am afraid to tell what if they are just scammers? or Fake people. So i just tell them at the private Bank thats all~.
I never thought that the same stranger will comment on my post ~ YOU ARE HARDWORKING~ Why Reports will kill you, Report is report? he asked.
~ Too many reports that need to submit and deadline today , I need to be Zombie tonight-I replied before focusing back again to my reports.
It takes few minutes before i replied it. He just said " Take some rest sometimes, reports are reports but take good care of yourself too".
From what he told.. He have a point ~ Reports are my reports but it is my Life. If I will not do it how can i survive? How can I help my mom? My Siblings? He has a point. And that point touching my heart .. Is he like my Dad?
I turned off the laptop and went to my room.
Overthink again and thinking .. My dad😢 .
I was very happy before but when my Dad died.. I started to question myself and feel this kind of depression and anxiety.. Here I come again.. my tears are flowing from my eyes and I cannot help myself to stop. My anxiety is attacking me again .. and All I can do is to cry and let it out. I'm missing my dad.. and when i am thinking what really happen to him that day makes me feel very emotional.. Emotional which my heart is crying again . More painful from breakups.. My self that eaten me from sadness.
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