ROSALINA POV
"What."
My heart was beating so fast, so fast that I was scared that people could hear it. This is absurb, I can't get married to a guy I barely know! I wanted to scream, to run but I couldn't.
I see Ray's nasty glare and calm myself down. "Sorry, I'm just a little surprised but that's a wonderful thing, dad." I gulp and turn to Roman, "Can I just spend a maybe two days with my father?" Roman nods curtly.
They talk a little more but I did not listen, I wanted the ground to swallow me.
The only reason I asked for two day was not because I wanted to actually spend time with Ray but to say goodbye to the house.
I wanted to say goodbye to the bed that comforted me at my worst or the maids and other workers who were ever so kind, the garden that was my only outlet to the outside world.
"Well if that's all, we'll be leaving." I snap out of my thoughts and shoot a small smile at Roman. "Goodbye"
I came to the conclusion that this was one of Ray's dodgy deals, that sadly involved me.
When we arrive home I go straight to my room and head to the balcony. I needed air to clear my mind, to forget reality for a little.
Dropping to the floor and leaning my head of the railing I begin to cry. "Mama he's making me marry him. I don't want to." I did this every night, it was my ritual because talking to her calmed me, I always knew she was listening. When I imagined myself married, it was because I was in love, I was head over heels for a guy I was planning and eager to spend my future with not because my stepfather wanted money and power. I wanted to spend my life with that one person. Let my ripe brown locks turn grey with him. Have kids with the love of my life. But this, was disgusting. I don't know Roman but everyone deserves love, he deserves love. I deserve love, right?
Slipping out of this dress I take my makeup and jewelry off. I hopped into the shower for a few minutes to make me feel fresh. Once I'm done I complete my nightly routine and jump into bed hoping to get a good nights sleep.
"No Rosa stay back!" My mama shouts over the loud gunshots, my ears hurt, my head hurt. I needed to be with mama.
"Mama no mama stay." I tried to scream out for her but she was gone just like that.
Heading out of the room I walk to the top of the stairs. My eyes skimmed my surrounding what I saw made me burn into terror. Scattered dead bodies, blood. So much blood.
Mama was with a scary looking man. I looked at her. "Mama!" I run down and ray enters with a gun in his hand.
"No." Mama runs to Ray and before I knew it….
I only hear a ear piercing noise.
I fall to the floor and look down to see mama on the floor blood oozing out of her chest.
Another gunshot is heard, and the scary man drops to the ground.
"Mama!" I sit beside her, my ears drowned with tears.
"Shut up come here!" Ray shouts pulling me harshly. He hurt ne, he hurt mama.
Ever since we moved in he would hurt me like he had a vendetta against me. He always hit me, mostly slaps and hair pulling. But I didn't care because mama was happy.
"Mama!" I continue crying in the arms of ray.
"Ma-"
"No!" Screaming I wake up in a cold sweat. My tears ran down my face constantly and I took deep breathes to calm myself down.
"Why?" I say at the ceiling as if someone is listening. Grabbing the glass of water on the nightstand I chug like a dehydrated psycho. My harsh breaths were all that could be heard. Every night that awful dream haunted me. As much as I wanted to forget that awful memory my mind and heart wouldn't let me. It always reminded me every night of how my mother died.
I looked at the time and it was just a little after six, I sighed and looked out the window, the sunrise looked stunning. Sighing I get out of bed. Wearing my fluffy robe I make my way to the kitchen, I made myself some French toast and brewed coffee. I made my way out to the garden and sat in the grass.
Staring at the sunrise I think about Roman. He was dominating without saying anything. He made me squirm without saying anything. How would I marry him? Cook and clean for him. Sleep with him in the same bed. I barely knew anything about this guy. He made me want to run until I couldn't yet at the same time he made me want to stay until my last breath.
I finish my last sip of coffee and gather myself, walking back into the kitchen I see Angie.
"Hey Angie!" I say happily. Angelina was my age, her father is a worker, her hence why she got a job. She's extremely friendly, nice and very helpful.
"Hi Lina." She replied chirply.
I talked a little more with Angie before going back to my room and packing a little bit of my things.
Tomorrow was my last day in this house. I was going to make the most of it.
THE NEXT DAY
Roman is here and talking with Ray, I was so nervous. What do I do, what do I say. Should I even say anything? Packing the last of my things I slowly make my way downstairs. Each step I take leading me to my downfall.
"Take care, Roman. I will see you at the wedding." I hear the faint voice of Ray say, he was cunning and sly but I wasn't surprised.
I show myself and say hello, stupid me gave an awkward wave to which Ray gave a dirt and Roman well he didn't do anything.
I say my goodbyes to everyone, Angie, the cooks and anyone else I had a pleasant with. As I left I detect hard warning eyes from Ray as if telling me to behave. Rolling my eyes inside I enter Roman's car my heart beating and all. My anxiety was through the roof.
He starts the engine and drives off to my new home.
I really am not ready for this.