It was now evening sun began to set as we both calmed down.
"I love you," he said looking at me as he wiped the remaining tears from my cheeks.
"I love you more," I replied.
"Not possible, crazy head. Not possible." He said chuckling as I pouted. Leaning in he gave me a gentle kiss on my lips.
"I want to come with you tomorrow."
"No, you cannot. It's risky and also he can use you as bait and blackmail us on giving our babies to him." I explained to him to which he gave me a curt nod but a frown played on his face showing his concern.
"I want you to promise me, that you will come back to me safe." He said holding my hands in his.
I cannot promise him something I am not sure I can keep it. I cannot give him false hopes.
"Andrea" his frown deepened.
"I will try, Jason," I said giving him a small smile.
***
"Momma, I am sleepy," Sebastian said as he hugged my legs. Chuckling I lifted him and kissed his cheeks. We were at the dinner table and almost finished our meals.
"Son, come with me. I will make you and Rose brush and till then your momma can come and tug you in." Jason suggested. Sebastian nodded and Rose gave me a cute smile. Jason took both of them to their room as I and mom cleaned the table.
"Andrea" dad called me gesturing for me to take a seat in front of him on the dining table while mom kept filling water bottles.
"Yes, dad."
"Whatever you told us yesterday, I do not agree. But, your reason for doing what you are doing is valid. You are doing it for your family and I am with you. We have never thought of you as a daughter in law instead, we have always considered you as a strong and beautiful daughter we never had." He said as my eyes welled up with tears.
"Thank you," I whispered.
"Just come back home to us." He said to which I nodded my head. Patting my head twice he left the kitchen. Wiping my eyes, I looked at mom who had tears in her own eyes and a sad smile playing on her lips which I returned happily.
***
"Why are you crying momma?" Sebastian asked as soon as I sat next to him on his bed.
"Oh, I am not crying darling," I said with a smile.
"You look sad," Rose stated as she climbed up on my lap and Sebastian nodded, agreeing with his sister. I playfully rolled my eyes with a smile on my face.
"I want to ask something from both of you," I stated. Letting them sit on the bed, I kneeled in front of them, so now we were face to face. I took Rose and Sebastian's hands in mine and looked at them which made them look at me curiously.
"I want you to take care of each other, help each other and love each other always. I want you to stay happy and give your dad much more love and care. I want you both to live your life how you want to. Be good to good and bad to bad. Take your education, make a good career, fall in love, get married, make babies, grow old with the people you love." Rose giggled at the 'make babbies' part.
"Will you do that for me, my babies?" I asked them with hopeful eyes.
"Yes, momma." They both said simultaneously. I gave them a smile which they returned. Kissing both their hands I hugged them.
"I love you both," I whispered as they hugged me back and put their heads on my shoulders.
"I love you, momma," Sebastian said with a yawn.
"I love you too momma," Rose said giggling happily.
Tugging them both in, I kissed their foreheads. I sat there looking at them as tears kept flowing my eyes. Will I get a chance to see my babies again, to see them graduate, to see them fall in love with someone someday, to get married, to have a family?
Kissing their foreheads one last time, I left their room and went to mine and Jason's.
I closed the door behind me I soon as I entered the room. I saw Jason standing near the window, his back facing me. I know, he was still mad at me and sad at the decision we had to make.
It may be my last night with him or maybe a new beginning.
Stepping close to him, I wrapped my arms around his torso resting my head on his shoulder.
"Don't be mad at me, Jason. I need you to be my strength, please. I am doing this for us." I whispered slowly nuzzling my face in his muscles.
Slowly he turned and his beautiful face came into my view. He had sad and serious expressions, pain in his eyes, frown representing his concern.
"I know, but I don't want to lose you Andrea. I have already lost you so many times, I won't be able to live if anything happens to you. Do you understand I need you in my life please, baby?" He said as tears started welling in his eyes.
Cupping his face in my hand I gave him a small kiss.
"You won't lose me ever Jason. I will always be with you, even if I come alive tomorrow or not."
"Don't say that. You know how bad I feel. Knowing that I can't do anything to avoid the risk. I feel so helpless." He whispered as a tear rolled down his eye which I brushed with my thumb.
"I love you, Jason."
"I love you too baby." He said as his arms wrapped around my waist.
"Make love to me Jason. One last time." I whispered. I have a hope that I may come back home, back to Jason, to my family. But deep down, somewhere, something tells me that Zac won't let that happen.
As soon as the words left my lips, he kissed me instantly. Passionately made love to me.
***
Slowly I untangled Jason as he slept peacefully in my arms. Dressing in my black jeans and one of Jason's t-shirt. Bringing my hair in a ponytail, I wore black shoes. Taking a small bag, I put my knives in that safely.
I was ready to end Zac, end the threat to my family and my misery.
Taking my flight ticket from the drawer, I kept an envelope there. Looking one last time at Jason, I exited my room. Kissing my babies, I left the house.
Taking a flight to New Orleans, I was waiting for my faith.