HELP HER?
Of all the things I could have expected her to tell me about Yuki-nee, she said the one thing I least expected? And why must I help her? Well, clearly it's her boyfriend. He had beaten me up. Rightfully so! I did cross the line with his sister! That's what everyone thinks. And there's very clear evidence. Plus, I was already well hated. So if I were to put my foot wrong, even by a small margin, I shall be digging my own grave.
Yuki-nee was the goddess and model student of the school. Even if she isn't a prodigy anymore, there are still a lot of redeeming qualities about her that will forever make people chase her. That's who she is. So when you take such an already striking and mesmerizing personality, and place her by the side of a perfectionist. A man who must have everything. A man who was the centre of attraction. A man who was admired by all. And hated by none.
Well, the last part is something that isn't possible. Not on the surface. But deep down, it is.
When a person has everything, that person is destined to be envied. But sometimes that envy is fruitless. Why? Because, sometimes the one you envy is someone who is way beyond your level, that envying such a person is just hating yourself. And since you know that you can never beat that, it only gets toxic the further you try to hate.
Plus, you weren't the only one. Everyone around you shall feel the same. Everyone's a sheep, in front of that beast. And in the off-chance that you muster up the courage and let out the universal resentment and hate you share towards him, a sheep will forever remain a sheep. No one would back you up. Since everyone knows that you will be crushed, they will side with the beast.
They will trample you, and you will be crushed by the betrayal. And to end it all, you shall end up as fodder to the beast. That's why everyone remained quiet. You don't question the beast. And you don't question anything it touches and marks as its territory or as it's belongings.
That implies upon Yuki-nee too. She's someone who is loved by the beast, who is now the king. There is not a single person who shall go against him. So even Yuki-nee was treated as a queen now.
Thus when a lowly being like myself suddenly jumps onto the scene and creates a ruckus on the first day itself, their beautiful and pure queen had been blighted.
This was a line that was never to be crossed. And yet I did. That coupled with the fact that the class I was from is referred to as a 'Exlie class' was just adding fuel to the already highly inflammable fire.
But, I put them down. I silenced them all. I showed them that I wasn't to be looked down upon. And after all that, I was put in my place.
Numbers game is a very basic yet important tactic. That was something that was never to be overlooked.
Even if I were to be the most powerful kid on the block, still I would lose. That's the overwhelming advantage he holds. A mob! A mob ready to do the dirty work and make it easier for him. That's how he asserts dominance. Talk about injustice.
He already had the looks. And the money. And a highly functioning brain. If all that wasn't enough, he now has his own cult.
Meanwhile I'm a delinquent in every way. I was referred as a rebel. Someone to be wary, and if possible, to be avoided. Well, I was fine with that kind of lifestyle. But over time, I had realised that even if I never wanted to get myself involved with any trouble, it would still come in search of me, with the help of the people around me.
I could not abandon them. Not because of some loyalty or empathy. But because I am the reason they are in such a state. I'm the reason they are suffering.
Time and time again, I was the centre of a lot of chaos in the lives of the people closest to me. I'm a ticking time bomb. Waiting till the timer goes off and BOOM!!!
And later, again reset and repeat. Mentally, I'm a mess. My mental health was something that people should have given up upon ages ago. Yet they treat me like a normal human, and try to make me blend in with the world.
But they don't know that they're unintentionally lying to themselves, in the process of helping me out.
That was the case with the Harumi family. And that's how things have ended up in such a state. After all this debacle, if the one thing I needed was sanity, what I get is a request from my current girlfriend to help my first love!
The Rom-com god's don't have any kindness on me. Spare me some mercy. Let me rest. I just want some sleep. Not misery!
If I were to help her now, and she was to mistaken it as something else, that would be the beginning of the end for me. I don't want a harem now! That's something I will never ever entertain.
I just want to be alone. I don't want to lean on anyone. If and when I do fall down to the ground, I want to get up and stand on my own two feet without any support and dust myself up. If there are any bruises or scars, they shall be the reminder of what those injuries reflect upon me!
But I'm conflicted! It's not that I hate Yuki-nee. If anything, I need her. But that doesn't mean I can't be without her. But she's different. Even if she continues with this farce, at the end of the day, she needs me.
Even if I'm a criminal, she will still want me. That's the kind of woman she is. I had put an end to things from my end. But the same doesn't hold true for her.
And that's why...
I CAN'T HELP HER UNLESS SHE GIVES UP ON ME!