The only way I could save her if she detaches her relationship from me. And we both reset it this time. As childish as it may sound, that's what is best for the both of us.
I get older as each day passes by. And the magnitude of the problem just keeps on increasing, and so does the collateral damage involved.
I remain unfazed to most of the stuff, since at the end of the day, I just move on. I do dwell upon the past. Not because of regrets, but I look back at it and takes note of my mistakes so I don't repeat the same misfortune twice. It's quite an effective method at this point that its second nature to me.
But the same can't be said to the people around me.I barely had a family life now. Me and my dad don't speak at all. My brother resents me. And I was a useful tool to my mother, until the whole 'Hina' thing happened.
I don't know if she's still in contact with Kyouko-san, but she sure as hell did endure a lot just to get me where I am.
And for that, believe it or not, I am grateful to that lady. I might be even indebted to her after what she did. But that's all.
I had relative close to no friends. Even though everyone may think that I have a harem going on, truth be told, I'm not so keen about it. These girls are just fragile and weak. Once they get back on their feet and have a good mindset, they wouldn't have to rely on the likes of me. They need to get a life, beyond me.
Apart from that, the woman who was hurt the most was Rinko-san!
I don't know why but she seemed to be attached to me a lot. Not just me, but even the other me. And that's something she could never recover from. Sometimes, even though I'm apathetic, I still have feelings towards Rinko-san! Maybe it's gratitude, or maybe it's regret. Maybe I'm feeling sorry for how things had transpired.
That's something I could never change. What's happened has happened. But if I could do something, it's just that maybe, I could try to not hurt anyone as I hurt Rinko-san.
The only reason why I don't want them to be with me is because, someday I will disappear. Sooner than they expect. They will live a long life. That's how it's supposed to be. But the same can't be said about me. As every day passes by, I'm being less of a human than the previous.
I have no faith.
I have no religion.
Time hasn't been kind to me.
And yet, I live! I try to find a purpose to get by every day. To keep my sanity! It's easy for my kind to stray away from this path and cause chaos and anarchy!
That being said, I first must know the feelings of the person I must rescue. It's better safe than sorry before I try to act like some comic book superhero.
I can jump to many different conclusions from my end, but I must know her feelings too. But I'm not in a position to meet her. And neither is she. I don't want people to conspire theories behind our backs, and worse of all, I don't want to be attacked by her cult. That's the last thing I need right now.
This is a waiting game. That's all. Sakura and Yuki-nee are not on speaking terms anymore. Miku has already been put on the fence. If I were to ask her, then she'd be torn apart by that mob. I can't take that risk. I could ask that Slave, but I doubt his pledged loyalty will give me a favourable response. Plus, for some reason I just don't like him that much. Funny enough, it's only when he's involved that my pride kicks in.
With that being said, the only feasible option, is for me to recover.
"You're asking me to help her. I don't know why, but are you certain that she needs me to save her? I mean, she is his girlfriend, right? It's not like he forced her to be his girlfriend or something. That's what it feels from the looks of it."
"Even I would like to think like that. But there's a certain uneasiness. Ever since you've been exposed about your treacherous past, I was part of an emotional rollercoaster. But then, I wondered. How did things end up like this?"
"Why would you do that? What's the point? It's not your matter. You weren't even involved."
"No, that's not it! I mean, you don't know this but Harumi-senpai actually rejected him in the first place."
"Rejected him? As in, she rejected that bastard Hajima?"
I was lost, and quite dumbfounded.
My ears didn't believe what they had heard.
"You may not believe it but, the Harumi-senapi back then was quite different. She was someone who kept to herself and always stuck together with Sakura-senpai."
Sakura and Yuki-nee were together in High school? That's news to me.
"If that's the case, then what is it that you're implying? She's an impostor who's under the disguise of Yuki-nee?"
Miku looked at me with despondent eyes.
Fine, I get it. My jokes are useless. Just get on with it.
"He was quite upset. He sworn infront of the whole school that he'd make her his girlfriend."
"Well, that's quite admirable. If I were in that situation, I'd rather jump off a bridge into ice cold water than declare something like that in front of the whole school."
"Anyway...that's when Harumi-senapi mentioned that she was already in love with someone, and that he could never even come close to him. So she asked him to stop wasting his time and move on."
"So, how did she end up like this?"
"That was a mystery. I didn't understand what happened. Until when you were beaten up by Hajima-senapi, that is."
"So, what did you realise?"
"It might be a coincidence but, everything changed around the start of 3rd term."
"Third term?"
She looked at me with ba worried look.
So even she had picked up on it.
It was no coincidence Miku. It was no coincidence at all.
THIRD TERM!